komakun
anime angel
- Aug 15, 2026
- 44
Been waiting 3 weeks for this payday since I just started the job and still no deposit in my account or any updates on my ADP app.. I was waiting to get paid to order Meto and my testing strips and cups but i cant even afford it now. Or anything like bills food hygiene products.
I can't… I can't do this shit anymore. Maybe I can just eyeball the measurements and just ctb because fuck this. I caught the flu already from work and had to call out this week but if I'm not even getting paid I can't see myself getting up everyday at 6 for another week of 8-7pm. I can't I don't want to go back. I don't want to work I don't want to live this isn't what I wanted for my life lol. Can barely walk again cuz my foot/leg injury is fucked up from all the walking from working. I don't even know how much I'm getting paid once they actually pay me and I live in one of the highest COL cities in the world. Surrounded by rich couples and nepo babies and teens that still have a chance of having a good life everyday. (And my brother!! Who just moved here and is allowed to live here with no insane abusive alcoholic parents coming to ruin his life and education and relationships unlike they did to me.) It's fucking over.
Maybe I will just ctb without the necessities. I have the SN and enough gabapentin and I might have an old scale if I dig around in my closet. I can use my Sanrio cookware for measuring cups lol. Can use period blood to test. I just wanted an AE but do I really need one if I can't afford or wait for one?
I can't… I can't do this shit anymore. Maybe I can just eyeball the measurements and just ctb because fuck this. I caught the flu already from work and had to call out this week but if I'm not even getting paid I can't see myself getting up everyday at 6 for another week of 8-7pm. I can't I don't want to go back. I don't want to work I don't want to live this isn't what I wanted for my life lol. Can barely walk again cuz my foot/leg injury is fucked up from all the walking from working. I don't even know how much I'm getting paid once they actually pay me and I live in one of the highest COL cities in the world. Surrounded by rich couples and nepo babies and teens that still have a chance of having a good life everyday. (And my brother!! Who just moved here and is allowed to live here with no insane abusive alcoholic parents coming to ruin his life and education and relationships unlike they did to me.) It's fucking over.
Maybe I will just ctb without the necessities. I have the SN and enough gabapentin and I might have an old scale if I dig around in my closet. I can use my Sanrio cookware for measuring cups lol. Can use period blood to test. I just wanted an AE but do I really need one if I can't afford or wait for one?
