Unattainable666
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2023
- 1,346
Lulzacruel
Specialist
- Jun 13, 2023
- 336
-not having everything be so goddamn expensive
-just not being rude. why are people so quick to be mean?
-can we just make recreation cheaper? simply working the rest of our fucking lives and doing nothing fun is draining
I am only passively suicidal, but if my wishes were granted I would probably actively be excited to actually live.
-just not being rude. why are people so quick to be mean?
-can we just make recreation cheaper? simply working the rest of our fucking lives and doing nothing fun is draining
I am only passively suicidal, but if my wishes were granted I would probably actively be excited to actually live.
chop
Admіnіstrator
- Aug 17, 2023
- 36
suicidesheep31.1
hurt by life
- Aug 7, 2022
- 104
Having a job, having a husband, feel loved and having children.
Feel dage enough to share my feelings with someone without being scared of him/her leaving me
And make sure to not feeling pain in my body when I wake up
Feel dage enough to share my feelings with someone without being scared of him/her leaving me
And make sure to not feeling pain in my body when I wake up
Unattainable666
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2023
- 1,346
suicidesheep31.1
hurt by life
- Aug 7, 2022
- 104
It made me cry to read it. I am sorry you feel the same way. I feel understood somehow. I feel like it is not stupid to wish having that. Hugs
CW36
➕〰️➰
- Jul 23, 2023
- 839
BlazingBob
I'm still here b/c of my dogs
- Oct 28, 2021
- 602
Good physical health. I've been plagued for the last 20 years with a debilitating chronic illness that has made my life absolutely miserable and not worth living. I've missed all of life's milestones like getting married, owning a home, etc. because I've been too damn sick. I struggled to find a career I enjoyed and it was torpedoed because of it.
A family that gives a shit. I'm completely alone. My family of origin is completely dissolved. My parents hate their kids and have sown nothing but discord and division between me and my siblings. I have no contact with any blood relatives. My parents want nothing to do with me. I learned a long time ago that you can't make someone love or care about you. It's painful to be surrounded by families. I spent my 50th birthday alone. No family ever bothered to show up at my college graduations. People say you can create family with friends but I think that's crap. It's just not the same. This issue really hurts.
Good mental health. I've been hammered by extreme treatment resistant depression since I was a teen. This heaviness and sense of dread that never relents. No joy, ever. I can't even enjoy something simple like a sunset. Of course this is exacerbated by feeling like shit physically because of health problems.
Money. If I could ever get healthy enough to work again, I'd like to work and make enough to just have the basics like a simple place to live, food, etc. It's very sad that in today's world a lot of people working full time can't even afford the basic essentials. This along with the rest of the aforementioned all contribute to my desire to end my existence.
A final note. If you are healthy and have family that loves and cares about you, give thanks daily. Health and family are so damn important. Unfortunately I have neither
A family that gives a shit. I'm completely alone. My family of origin is completely dissolved. My parents hate their kids and have sown nothing but discord and division between me and my siblings. I have no contact with any blood relatives. My parents want nothing to do with me. I learned a long time ago that you can't make someone love or care about you. It's painful to be surrounded by families. I spent my 50th birthday alone. No family ever bothered to show up at my college graduations. People say you can create family with friends but I think that's crap. It's just not the same. This issue really hurts.
Good mental health. I've been hammered by extreme treatment resistant depression since I was a teen. This heaviness and sense of dread that never relents. No joy, ever. I can't even enjoy something simple like a sunset. Of course this is exacerbated by feeling like shit physically because of health problems.
Money. If I could ever get healthy enough to work again, I'd like to work and make enough to just have the basics like a simple place to live, food, etc. It's very sad that in today's world a lot of people working full time can't even afford the basic essentials. This along with the rest of the aforementioned all contribute to my desire to end my existence.
A final note. If you are healthy and have family that loves and cares about you, give thanks daily. Health and family are so damn important. Unfortunately I have neither
Takamagahara
Seeker Of Heaven
- Aug 8, 2023
- 142
--First and foremost, some kind of cosmic revenge. Granted, this is highly unlikely, but it would definitely instill in me the idea that there's some kind of karma or universal justice in place. It'd go incredibly far to restore some kind of faith in the unseeable luck of the world.
--Enough money to not have to work. Granted, this one would only delay me by a few years at most. I speak from experience when I say hedonism only goes so far in staving off the inevitable.
--Having a partner or a found family. Most of my closest friends are either dead or we've drifted to the point where reconnection is impossible, or at least they're not interested in having me in their lives any more.
Pretty much all of these are out of my hands, though.
--Enough money to not have to work. Granted, this one would only delay me by a few years at most. I speak from experience when I say hedonism only goes so far in staving off the inevitable.
--Having a partner or a found family. Most of my closest friends are either dead or we've drifted to the point where reconnection is impossible, or at least they're not interested in having me in their lives any more.
Pretty much all of these are out of my hands, though.
Aloneisbestforme
Terminally online
- Aug 17, 2023
- 94
Well the stuff that would need to happen for me to stay alive is.
- If people weren't so cruel to eachother in real life and were more understanding to suicidal people.
- Having a nice family that cares for their child and would do anything to help their child and were just good people in general.
- Having the ability to work a okay job to live in a okay house
- Knowing what comes after death. I really wanna know because I need to know if it's being reborn because I don't want that to be the case. I want one good life and that's it
- and I wish I wasn't so anti-social and can talk to anybody without thinking so hard of what to say
There's alot more to it but those are the main things I can think of as of now plus they are the big ones
Unattainable666
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2023
- 1,346
Absolutely NOT! I feel those are the basics of life. You are definitely not alone in your feelings. You were just brave enough to express them. You make me proud!!
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,857
In my case I just don't see existence as being worth enduring, like existing isn't for me and I've always known that. Only eternal nothingness comforts me, I personally believe it's always preferable to not exist in such a harmful world where there is endless cruelty and suffering, existence was never something desirable in the first place. And it just fills me with dread the thought of decaying from age in an existence I never even wished to endure in the first place, delaying the inevitable just leads to suffering.
I can't possibly find a reason to stay, I'm far from content in the monotonous and boredom I find myself engaged in.
Something more to actually find reason to stay for like a better life or Money I guess but is it even worth it to find it reasonable to stay for materialistic means or vague things like that. I've already got my SN and other meds ready to go so I've come this far already, haven't even paused to think about what could make me stay.
Something more to actually find reason to stay for like a better life or Money I guess but is it even worth it to find it reasonable to stay for materialistic means or vague things like that. I've already got my SN and other meds ready to go so I've come this far already, haven't even paused to think about what could make me stay.
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Unattainable666
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2023
- 1,346
I think some might stay is they didn't have to worry about money - after all we live in a world where if you don't have money you aren't worth being alive right?
Unfortunately yes, your quality of life is tied to how much money you have as well as your worth but obtaining such a thing is something so very, very, very few people attain. How could I possibly stand any better of a chance at that given current circumstances that have been dominated by constant disappointment.
Justice for the crimes committed against me
Meaning in life restored
Friends/Loved ones
etc....
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