WHAT WOULD KEEP YOU HERE?

[Unattainable666]

What would have to happen in your life to keep you from ctb? As many things as you wish for.

 

[Lulzacruel]

-not having everything be so goddamn expensive
-just not being rude. why are people so quick to be mean?
-can we just make recreation cheaper? simply working the rest of our fucking lives and doing nothing fun is draining

I am only passively suicidal, but if my wishes were granted I would probably actively be excited to actually live.

 

[doneforlife]

An assurance that I can die whenever I want to in a painless way.

 

[chop]

• my friends staying (hopefully they stick as of rn)

• get richer

• be happy

 

[suicidesheep31.1]

Having a job, having a husband, feel loved and having children.
Feel dage enough to share my feelings with someone without being scared of him/her leaving me
And make sure to not feeling pain in my body when I wake up

 

[Unattainable666]

An assurance that I can die whenever I want to in a painless way.

Having a job, having a husband, feel loved and having children.
Feel dage enough to share my feelings with someone without being scared of him/her leaving me

Very brave of you to say - I feel the same way.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Enough money for final retirement.

 

[suicidesheep31.1]

Very brave of you to say - I feel the same way.

It made me cry to read it. I am sorry you feel the same way. I feel understood somehow. I feel like it is not stupid to wish having that. Hugs

 

[CW36]

Natalie Dormer.

 

[BlazingBob]

Good physical health. I've been plagued for the last 20 years with a debilitating chronic illness that has made my life absolutely miserable and not worth living. I've missed all of life's milestones like getting married, owning a home, etc. because I've been too damn sick. I struggled to find a career I enjoyed and it was torpedoed because of it.

A family that gives a shit. I'm completely alone. My family of origin is completely dissolved. My parents hate their kids and have sown nothing but discord and division between me and my siblings. I have no contact with any blood relatives. My parents want nothing to do with me. I learned a long time ago that you can't make someone love or care about you. It's painful to be surrounded by families. I spent my 50th birthday alone. No family ever bothered to show up at my college graduations. People say you can create family with friends but I think that's crap. It's just not the same. This issue really hurts.

Good mental health. I've been hammered by extreme treatment resistant depression since I was a teen. This heaviness and sense of dread that never relents. No joy, ever. I can't even enjoy something simple like a sunset. Of course this is exacerbated by feeling like shit physically because of health problems.

Money. If I could ever get healthy enough to work again, I'd like to work and make enough to just have the basics like a simple place to live, food, etc. It's very sad that in today's world a lot of people working full time can't even afford the basic essentials. This along with the rest of the aforementioned all contribute to my desire to end my existence.

A final note. If you are healthy and have family that loves and cares about you, give thanks daily. Health and family are so damn important. Unfortunately I have neither

 

[Takamagahara]

--First and foremost, some kind of cosmic revenge. Granted, this is highly unlikely, but it would definitely instill in me the idea that there's some kind of karma or universal justice in place. It'd go incredibly far to restore some kind of faith in the unseeable luck of the world.

--Enough money to not have to work. Granted, this one would only delay me by a few years at most. I speak from experience when I say hedonism only goes so far in staving off the inevitable.

--Having a partner or a found family. Most of my closest friends are either dead or we've drifted to the point where reconnection is impossible, or at least they're not interested in having me in their lives any more.

Pretty much all of these are out of my hands, though.

 

[Aloneisbestforme]

Well the stuff that would need to happen for me to stay alive is.

• If people weren't so cruel to eachother in real life and were more understanding to suicidal people.
  
  
• Having a nice family that cares for their child and would do anything to help their child and were just good people in general.
  
  
• Having the ability to work a okay job to live in a okay house
  
  
• Knowing what comes after death. I really wanna know because I need to know if it's being reborn because I don't want that to be the case. I want one good life and that's it
  
  
• and I wish I wasn't so anti-social and can talk to anybody without thinking so hard of what to say
  
  There's alot more to it but those are the main things I can think of as of now plus they are the big ones

 

[Unattainable666]

It made me cry to read it. I am sorry you feel the same way. I feel understood somehow. I feel like it is not stupid to wish having that. Hugs

Absolutely NOT! I feel those are the basics of life. You are definitely not alone in your feelings. You were just brave enough to express them. You make me proud!!

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I just don't see existence as being worth enduring, like existing isn't for me and I've always known that. Only eternal nothingness comforts me, I personally believe it's always preferable to not exist in such a harmful world where there is endless cruelty and suffering, existence was never something desirable in the first place. And it just fills me with dread the thought of decaying from age in an existence I never even wished to endure in the first place, delaying the inevitable just leads to suffering.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I can't possibly find a reason to stay, I'm far from content in the monotonous and boredom I find myself engaged in.

Something more to actually find reason to stay for like a better life or Money I guess but is it even worth it to find it reasonable to stay for materialistic means or vague things like that. I've already got my SN and other meds ready to go so I've come this far already, haven't even paused to think about what could make me stay.

 

[Unattainable666]

I can't possibly find a reason to stay, I'm far from content in the monotonous and boredom I find myself engaged in.

Money I guess but is it even worth it to find it reasonable to stay for materialistic means?

I think some might stay is they didn't have to worry about money - after all we live in a world where if you don't have money you aren't worth being alive right?

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I think some might stay is they didn't have to worry about money - after all we live in a world where if you don't have money you aren't worth being alive right?

Unfortunately yes, your quality of life is tied to how much money you have as well as your worth but obtaining such a thing is something so very, very, very few people attain. How could I possibly stand any better of a chance at that given current circumstances that have been dominated by constant disappointment.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

A different me would have to exist which is impossible.

 

[brokeandbroken]

What would have to happen in your life to keep you from ctb? As many things as you wish for.

Justice for the crimes committed against me
Meaning in life restored
Friends/Loved ones
etc....