Discussion What would it take to make you want to live?

[Natty]

It's always interesting to rad about the other people's perspective on the external forces that they feel could change their circumstances.

I've changed enough around me to know that there isn't anything that could help, but reading some of your responses here make me feel that, for some of you, you can change and get out of this mindset.

 

[Sensei]

Three out of the folloing four things:

1) Find working medication against my bipolar disorder. Seems to actually have come true, knock on wood.
2) Learn how to cope with my situation. Bad odds.
3) Find a couple of more friends who are in my situation. Very bad odds.
4) Find love. Very bad odds.

I haven't given up hope yet, though.

 

[SquirrelsInMyPants]

I'd like to feel capable of completing the tasks I want to do

 

[Trisolaris]

The physical pain that was caused by psych meds needs to go away. Also, I would need to have a normal state of mind and not be depressed or anxious.

 

[lofticries]

Nothing unless eternal youth along with a natural lifespan is on the table. Meaning I get to live life young without any problems caused by old age until one day I just die in my sleep peacefully at around 75.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

A lot of meditation and a lot of alcohol.

 

[Bat 17]

I think if I had a romantic partner in my life I'd certainly not want to CTB. The catch-22 is I'm feeling too depressed / defeated to do what's necessary to find one

 

[WaterHemlock]

Well. I don't know. Maybe sometimes people are too broken to ever be healed.
Money, health, love. All those would be good. I'd stick around awhile for those.
The ability to solve problems, to heal and help myself and others, now that would be something. That would be a worthy purpose. I think the thing I'd stay for is some hope that things could ever change. I keep reading and watching about my problems, multiple sclerosis, bipolar, bpd, ptsd. It doesn't look like there's a solution that I can use to fix myself.
Sometimes people adopt old dogs to give them a good life. I wish people would put as much effort into other people.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

A modest lottery win would go a long long way to re-booting my existence!

 

[KolK]

Well, long story short, I messed up and got black-balled and currently have a debt to clear.

If someone I get a windfall of USD 8,200, I can reset my life and get back.

Oh well, at least I have my N, all ready to go in Sept.

 

[Carrotcake]

A cure for my depression would be nice

 

[Lmd]

I thought I had already responded to this. I was looking for my message and couldn't find it so it has been in another post. Depressive people are super boring, they are always with the same 3-4 topics in a cyclical way, It's like I'm always saying the same things I'm tired of myself. At this point I just want to be kidnapped by aliens with hopes that they screw me so much that I have to go to a cabin in a lost forest with my 50 cats that will destroy all the fauna of the place.

 

[Tav]

health, love, a better world

 

[Deathbydemo]

At this point, I truly don't think there's anything that could make me stay. I see how little I mean to people and that's enough for me. What I would wish for is entirely unattainable so there's no point.

 

[WornOutLife]

Lots of money and a fitness/healthy body would help lots but deep down in my heart, I know I would still be suicidal and might leave this world at any moment!

 

[SquirrelsInMyPants]

Nothing would make me want to live. And i don't want anything . What is the purpose to life? i don't see one. all i see in the future is pain and getting older , the inevitability of pain, disease, old age, dementia , suffering , . And time flies oh does it fly fast. plus i won't remember anything in the year 2121 cause i'll be dead .

Let's go on a journey through time to the year 2121 one hundred years from now .What do you see? futuristic cities massive buildings , flying vehicles, super artificial intelligence rules supremely . Where am i ? I am dead in 2121 i don't exist anymore no mater what as i didn't exist in the year 1870.

The last 30 years went by so fast. I don't even hardly remember what happened in 30 years. who can say what they did on a specific date for example june 8 2019 for example what they did what clothes they wore, what they had for dinner? memory is nothing, life is nothing it's an illusion imo. same thing for any date of last september for example or November 6 2017 for example who can remember what they did hour by our or minute by minute on that day? therefore life and time are illusions imo..

Money would just help me get a house so i could do ctb experements to kill myself. Money won't stop aging , a stroke, dementia but it's almost impossible for me to get money anyway. Money didn't help Christopher reeve, Robin Wiliams, etc.

I like your logic! With other premises, I also arrive at the conclusion that time and life are illusions, keep on going with this pointless game where noone can win ;)

 

[sparkie]

$750,000

 

[hopelessyearning]

This is me. I don't wish for money or possessions. Those would not make me happy. I don't know if anything could make me truly content anymore. I go through the dreary, ugly, insufferable motions of life without direction or purpose. Nothing seems important or necessary or worthwhile.

I wish I could chat or private message you I have never done so with any member but your post standee out for me right now because I relate And wish I could talk with someone now I'm feeling bad now I can't stand one more day

 

[Beachedwhale]

To go back in time and do things differently.

To have a decent job preferably with a career track right now.

To have my energy and sexual function fully restored for my young age.

To have a good boyfriend and friends.

 

[Awayout]

Unfortunately the help I would need doesn't exist. Actually two of the three main reasons I hate myself are unfixable; so it doesn't even matter if I fix the third problem, the other two are big enough that they out weigh my other problem.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Nothing bad happens to me ever again.

Or someone gives me the strength to not overreact when something bad does happen.

Neither seems likely.

 

[sparkie]

Stop Tinnitus, not have been abused, not having chronic blushing all my life, a time machine to go back and reverse all the stupid mistakes I've made basically I would be over the moon if I had been knocked down and killed by a drunk driver when I was eleven would have saved a lot of misery

 

[WatermelonMel]

A perfect world LOL!

A world fair for everyone free of wars and fights, one with no pain/mental illnesses/diseases.
Yeah I don't think that's gonna happen anytime soon...

 

[Dreamcollege]

I just want my yale acceptance letter after all these years of fighting for it relentlessly and being rejected 5 times now

Or for the primitive survival instinct to be easier to overcome so I can just hang myself and get this shit miserable life over with

 

[Choronzon]

1. Meaningful access to mental healthcare. In Canada, it is an absolute joke unless you are rich.
2. Not being under constant threat of losing housing, dignity, and some level of enjoyment, because of how employment works.

I could contribute a lot, and have done, but repeated losses of jobs and relationships, and lacking any real retirement possibilities, mean I get little back for that. I could do a great job, just not full time, but that is not an option if I want to eat, live in something better than squalor, and also pay for medication (which is not covered without employment).

Really it boils down to money. The rich successfully stole all the money from productivity gains in the last fifty years. I can't stop them, but I don't have to consent to the world they made.

 

[Beachedwhale]

No poverty, no ageing, and no diseases.

Also, my brain would need to be changed. When I see others accomplishing things it always dramatically worsens my mood because I can only focus on how I haven't accomplished whatever they have. This is no good for anyone, and I desperately want rid of this horrible tendency of mine. There are other personal traits that need to go as well.

This is exactly me. "comparison is the thief of joy"

 

[Conker]

Sometimes people adopt old dogs to give them a good life. I wish people would put as much effort into other people.

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[FuneralCry]

I'm not sure there is many things that would make me want to live, as my mind is simply not wired to deal with this life. I think to help me, it would be getting rid of chronic health problems and erasing certain memories. Moving somewhere scenic and isolated. Maybe then I might feel better.

 

[Schevan]

What would it take for me to want to live?
Somebody to hold my hand and help me through everything I want to do in life.
I would also want a house - and a means of not having to worry about money too much. Have everything mostly paid for already.
Basically just a house... and a helper...