Discussion What would buy you 3 more years here?

[ChildrensITV]

For those who want to CTB this year, what would buy you 3 more years? I am not asking: "what will make you love life?". Nothing would make my love this life.

It can't be "going back in time", cuz ofc we would pick that.

1. A fucking job that I am good at.
2. My own place.
3. More testosterone, energy, motivation, vitality.
4. A girlfriend who looks up to me and respects me.
5. Financial Independence.
6. To look youthful and get facial surgeries to look human.

 

[dimstar]

My best friend and only person I like or trust to be back in my life. That's all it would take everything else could be shit. How emotionally abusive is that. And pathetic.

 

[SorrowfulDrugUser]

1. A goth mommy to dominate me and have a loving and happy relationship.

Jokes aside (kinda), I'd love to have an infinite amount of compounds. I honestly wouldn't mind having an abundant supply of all drugs but some specifics would be:

Acid (LSD)
Marijuana (THC)
Magic Mushrooms (Psilocybin)
Special K (Ketamine)
Dextromethorphan (DXM)

The reason being is that I love all those compounds. Simple as that. And not having financial freedom prevents me from using them. I don't mean to post this to sound like a complete junkie (I swear I'm not). I just think these compounds are really therapeutic. My situation prevents me from going to therapy or receiving proper medical attention so I've started experimenting with compounds. Been especially getting into the RC community lately, the most recent RC I tried was 1V-LSD.

 

[Noise]

Nothing. I'm honestly just sick of it all

 

[goodbye_._]

An unlimited amount of weed and vapes,
Yikes I know but I'm not even sure if that could keep me here for that long

 

[Lost in a Dream]

The legalization of voluntary, physician-assisted suicide for all legal adults. I might try sticking around long enough to see that happen, if I knew I had to wait 3 years to be able to see it (and receive it). I can't guarantee I'd make it that far unfortunately.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

1. A wife who can provide me with sex and socializing but also accepts me with the condition I have

2. A nice home far away from the inner city troubles

 

[ptolemaea]

– meaningful, real life friendships

– an affordable apartment far, far away from my family.

– a job as a writer or an editor.

– losing about nine kilograms. (i'm not overweight, and i have a bmi just under 20. but i'd still like to be a bit thinner. i know, it's vain)

– being able to focus and have the motivation to take care of myself. no more brain fog, no more executive dysfunction, i want to be able to do my daily tasks and meet my needs like a normal person.

i don't think i'd have any less desire to die, but i'd feel more hopeful about my current situation. i might be able to get better if these conditions were met.

 

[CompleteControl]

Lol a time machine

 

[Forever Sleep]

At least £75,000. That way- I don't have to worry about money or trying to find some shitty part time job to supplement my creative income.

I actually wonder if it is a few years I'm going to have to wait regardless- I'm waiting for my Dad to pass first. I'm going to have to try and hang on as best I can anyway though.

 

[aubrey!]

The answer is always love and money. Two of the best distractions from all that hurts me.

 

[xxpinkmoonglitterxx]

I think I'd want to stay if I at least liked myself. I hate myself.

 

[downndone2]

I'd prefer a time machine with everything I know now to prevent all of this but if thats not possible

$150-250k, my health, and my job

With the above I wouldn't need to ctb

 

[outrider567]

Nothing

 

[absolomonisgone]

some of us are completely damaged in such ways nothing can buy us extra time. even when they have the money, they have nothing to do with it as nothing seems interesting and are not interested in relationships or so

 

[locked*n*loaded]

What would buy you 3 more years here?

Are you paying? LOL

 

[GrazieMille]

My student finance back.

I loved studying at university but suffered a psychotic break whilst there (actually due to being bullied). I'm unable to claim the money back and I can't graduate. If there was a moment that could have changed things, it would have been this. Graduating would have lead to a better job, a better lifestyle, with better life prospects.

Since then I've only worked the worst jobs. I've been a carer for the disabled and for the elderly, I've been a chef, I've worked retail. I've done 80 hour weeks for minimum pay, 50 hour weeks living in what is essentially a cupboard, and 20 hour weeks for a company with a management structure of little Hitlers.

The older I get, the less I see myself being here in the future; I'm at home living with a parent jobless because of the struggles I've faced, and I'm totally overcome. I can't find a reason to get up, to enjoy my only hobby, to bother eating well or looking after myself. I used to be so different. I used to run half marathons for fun. I used to ride my motorbike through the Dorset countryside for fun. I used to hike, I used to have friends, I used to have something to look forward to.

If there were anything that gave me a few more years, it'd be the chance to study again.

 

[Ligottian]

Nothing that is reasonably possible for me. Just hanging on til the unbearable day arrives.

 

[UKscotty]

3 more years of this shit? No thanks.

It's funny how so many people here say sex and money. Truly brain washed by capitalism.

Only here to slave away and breed more slaves.

Fook that, I don't want 3 days let alone 3 years.

 

[TAW122]

Nothing, I just want to leave this hellish existence as soon as possible. Pleasure is temporary and fleeting and I'd rather not gamble for uncertainty in the future. Every day I wake up is a gamble of what can go wrong. Most (if not almost all) people are only one catastrophic event, accident, disaster from ruin and could flip their life upside down in a flash. I've been wanting to leave existence as far back as 2019 (pre-pandemic) and possibly even before that. It is 2023 and I'm already past due time.

 

[wastingpotential]

the feeling of being loved and a fuck ton of money that i'd get sick of it

 

[Ernest1964]

- A minimum of one million dollars in the bank.
- Job that I like and that I'm good at
- To live somewhere far away from any drama in life (family or otherwise)
- To look like Lucas Ridgeston 1999 ; )

 

[ChildrensITV]

Again, people seem to think this is what would make me like life. I would still want to die even if I had those things, but I would have slightly less reason to end it if I had those things.

 

[absolomonisgone]

a company with a management structure of little Hitlers.

Lovely

 

[GasMonkey]

A young GigaChad body with optimal health.

 

[smallworld_]

A hug

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

I think I would refuse unless I can break the contract

 

[Zegers]

Cha Eun-Woo appearance and a shower of millions and I'll postpone the ctb for three years.

 

[MrShino]

A miracle.

 

[User00]

(Disclaimer on this) Theres nothing left for me to stick around anymore not even if someone brought me all the wonderful things of the planet, I wouldnt want them anyway. Nothing could change my mind, with my situation, theres no fix. Now I'm just doing my best to research ways. My life was over before it even began, and theres no changing it anymore, I'm done with it all. I'd like for it to be over soon so I am trying my best to do plenty of research here to go as soon as possible with 120% success rate and I don't want to stay on this earth anymore.
Maybe. Maybe there are things that would let me stay for a while longer.
But those things could never happen.
Like love.
I had love for a while, but it just leaves me and I'm left only empty and in pain.
Even after that. I'm not staying any longer. I'll be gone by this year.