Discussion What will you miss?

[pymeow]

SN is quite difficult to get, I'm alive because I haven't gotten my hands on it. I'm hopeful that I will in 2 weeks to a month, with it in my possession, I'll give life a second chance, knowing that I could end it any time I feel like.
I haven't lived, I hope things would just get better, in a way that my pain goes away and I live on...
I'm obsessed with a lot of things that I'm gonna miss:
1.Gaming: I love one game, Garena Free Fire, I have a bunch of friends that I play with every day, they don't know how empty I feel when they are offline
2.Food: I've been eating just because it's obligatory and starving is painful, food tastes soapy, idk why and I miss the days when I could just enjoy meals
3.My family and friends, I love them and they love me-dad, mom, my sisters...3 best friends— I hate it that I will hurt them, they could do anything for me but they can't help me.
4.Science: I enjoyed studying MBBS, haven't gone to school since I lost myself, I love Science videos from Veritasium and Be Smart
5.Music: I miss the days when songs made me happy
6.Upcoming TV shows...the Boys S6
7.I'll miss my dream life, always wanted to be a family-oriented dad, value my kids, and let them touch the snow—they can't do that in Africa...
I can't retire my parents...and this gives me a panic attack, will continue...

 

[scary]

im gonna miss my cats a lot, but one of them's in heaven so maybe ill see him again one day

 

[behindtheveil]

Good Luck for your second chance. Hopefully everything works out.

 

[scentoflavender]

drawing... my cats... some games

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i'll miss nothing from this horrible evil world and evil life

the constant worst pain outweighs the pleasurable garbage like watching a clickbait video by a billion times

the pleasure addictions stole my time i could've used to decide and get a suicide method ready to go and do it. so i hate those the most

much more to this

 

[Alek1=]

I won't be so I won't miss anything. I miss things right now and that's the problem

 

[sadgirl1997]

My kids, my cats, plants, food, my 6 little sisters, my mom, my dad, my hometown, everyone that was kind to me, the people that I felt weren't kind to me, everyone and everything on this planet

 

[pymeow]

Good Luck for your second chance. Hopefully everything works out.

Hopefully, but sometimes I don't want things to get better anyway, I resent life for being harsh to me...I have recent failed attempts and it makes me realize that I'm living on overtime...infuriating, maddening

 

[Matchaaa]

I'll miss things I've never even experienced—like Bristol in the UK, and all kinds of beautiful places and amazing food around the world. It's a pity that I'll probably never get the chance to experience them in this lifetime.

 

[pymeow]

im gonna miss my cats a lot, but one of them's in heaven so maybe ill see him again one

I'll miss things I've never even experienced—like Bristol in the UK, and all kinds of beautiful places and amazing food around the world. It's a pity that I'll probably never get the chance to experience them in this lifetime.

It's sad, always wanted to visit a shooting range and fire, but I don't think it's going to happen

 

[Unsure and Useless]

1. My friends: Even though we've grown distant, I'll definitely miss all my friends. Had I been less fucked up, I would've loved to spend more time with them without having to deal with these ugly feelings
2. Food: I'm picky, but I love food
3. Stories: They're my main form of escapism for a reason. Beyond being a temporary reprieve from reality, I just enjoy seeing the tales people can weave with their imagination, and the fact that, if I go through with this, I'll never be able to enjoy a story again is something that often makes me hesitate
4. Music: I love music. It's my lifeblood. I don't think I can live without music

 

[northerner]

music. my biggest fear with hanging is that i'll survive but have lost my ability to sing. if dead people could miss things, i'll absoloutly miss my voice. and my piano. i like to think my piano will miss me, too.

 

[CerebralVortex]

Probably would miss card games and TV shows

 

[c4bomba]

My cats, a fictional character I've grown too attached too, scripting out stories inside my head and my one and only online friend
I'll miss my younger cousin too

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I just wouldn't, I'd only be glad to cease existing and never suffer in this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence ever again, to me existing will always be torture and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and torture of this existence that I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's positive.

For me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to finally be at peace from this torturous, dreadful existence that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's just so terrible how this existence was imposed, I find it so deeply undesirable to exist in every way, I'll just always see it as an abomination to be burdened with this terrible, torturous existence.

 

[default]

i'll miss my friends for sure. there is one special person i will also miss, the time we spent together being intimate to fill the void in my heart was so satisfying, however i don't matter much to them and it hurts. i'll miss food and all the delicious things i could've tried. i'll miss the plans i had for travelling, i really wanted to see the world. but when all of this ends, i will cease to exist and none of that will matter anymore.

 

[aesthetic]

the only thing i will miss is my favorite music.

 

[Asya]

The chance, even though it is infinitesimal and I decry it at every turn, that one day I could live a better life.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

Nothing.

 

[krsm98]

my dad is one that ill miss, and is one of the things that has kept me here as it will hurt him a lot but... idk if i can still keep going

My friends, there are some of them that ive grown distant with but i still care for them and then there has been 2 or 3 that have stayed at my side helping me move forward and honestly i wouldnt be here without them and i simply pains me that i ended up being so disappointing that i wasnt able to get better, am simply the worst.

Playing some games, starting to make sculptures, learning maybe a new language, or even building something for fun, ill miss that tbh

My cousins, some of the best people ive met, the sisters i truly never had and ill never forgive myself for it

and simply the potential that i could have gotten better, yet all i can think is that i inevitably ruined my life completly, and it might never go back and a second chance i simply dont see it

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

Coffee, reading, cigarettes, some games I'll never get to see the endings of, my sister, flowers, water, the spring, undisturbed snow, 2AM drives, getting drunk, birds singing, the one close friend I have, clouds, drugs. And yet it's as if all of these things that I like are weaker expressions of the infinite void of death. They're all "gesturing" up towards eternity as microscopic little instances of it. That's why anybody loves anything i think

 

[Spite]

My wife, my family, my Internet friends, my favourite music, my favourite video games, and good food. That's about it.

 

[charlavail]

my cat, and autumn. it's my favorite season. honestly the only reason i havent ctb yet is because of my cat. I've been home a lot more lately (mental health leave and depression staying at home all day) and i think she really likes it, she's very cuddly and likes to sit on the couch with me.