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xX.mlnchli

xX.mlnchli

melancholy
Jul 4, 2023
12
I know that after we are dead we probably do not care about anything, but I am curious what will you miss when you wont be here ? Is anything good in this world for you what would be appreciated also in afterlife?



Family - yeah nothing to talk about, hope I will meet them :)

Music. I am just so used to it its like part of my life, its funny to think that music is a privilege, its so common now but few decades or centuries ago it was only in form of bards/orchesters (live music) Most of the time and most of the people in world did not have privilege to listen so many beautiful peaces. Its really a gift and I am honored and gratefull that I could experience this part of life.

Modern technology - another privilege, internet - literally unlimited place for knowledge, information. Games and Movies, I am not a gamer but I have a few games I used to play from my childchood and its just nostalgy and fun. Movies and Anime - From my teenage years I lived without fater figure but I had a pretty good rolemodels in some fictional characters that do not exist from anime or movies, its funny how I could absorb wisdom from places many would not expect there is and I am gratefull for that also. I have been lost and it showed me a way I wanna shape my character.
(of coruse there are lot of downsides of modern technology but thats for different topic)

I will definitely miss nature. When my health was not that bad I used to go for long walks through meadows, groves enjoying spring or summer, feeling how wind caress my skin, how sun rays are touching my skin and warming it. I will also miss birds, how they sings and every one different song, how they are flying representing freedom. I will miss colours of flowers and all of the things. Blue sky, fluffy summer white clouds slowly floating :) I will miss mountains and view from it, I had one particular place I used to visit, and it was so peacefull, untouched by humans I could observe other peaks from it also valleys and I felt that natural energy so good for meditation. I will miss it.

Food - yeah despite having serious problem with digestion I used to enjoy this pleasure when I could. All the different tastes that are possible mostly in this age, yeah so many possibilities to taste and enjoy. Also I used to drink coffee hmm that sour taste and smell is exactly for me or Green tea with lemon yes I really did enjoy life. Dark chocolate while I was on long walk through nature.

Social life - talking with good people ( I like talk with small group best for me is only 2 or 3 people talking) enjoying their company, talking about deep things or just everything and enjoying present moment. Yes good part of life, sad that I have been pretty much alone for several last years of my life.

What I will miss and I could never experience is this particular age we are living - so many possibilities to travel and to visit, places even our ancestors could not. To learn from different cultures, tribes, see ocen etc.. I feel sad that I will leave before I had chance to enjoy this part this world offers so many options now. This age is unique because its the only one we can do so many things no one before us could.

That probably it, maybe I forgot something, but I feel blessed to have option to live in this unique age.Sorry if this topic do not belong to this forum.
id miss my dog and my boyfriend, drawing and listening to music. i love music a lot, both drawing and listening to music help me cope. my dog and my boyfriend are really the only thing that are so important to me. i never want to lose them. My boyfriend knows about some of my problems, and he knows i'm a really negative person. The day I told him abt what i was going through, he hugged me, laid my head on his lap and caressed me as i cried, and cried and cried. he listened to absolutely everything, and told me that he didn't want me to continue hurting myself, or doing anything of the like. he wants to stay and care for me, no matter how depressed or crazy i am, he told me he wouldn't leave me 😭 and so much more. i absolutely love him and he means the absolute world to me. but the day me and him break up, i don't actually know what i'll do, the only thing i see in my future is my suicide.
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
722
Nothing.
 
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MiraiShisen

Student
Jun 15, 2023
147
id miss my dog and my boyfriend, drawing and listening to music. i love music a lot, both drawing and listening to music help me cope. my dog and my boyfriend are really the only thing that are so important to me. i never want to lose them. My boyfriend knows about some of my problems, and he knows i'm a really negative person. The day I told him abt what i was going through, he hugged me, laid my head on his lap and caressed me as i cried, and cried and cried. he listened to absolutely everything, and told me that he didn't want me to continue hurting myself, or doing anything of the like. he wants to stay and care for me, no matter how depressed or crazy i am, he told me he wouldn't leave me 😭 and so much more. i absolutely love him and he means the absolute world to me. but the day me and him break up, i don't actually know what i'll do, the only thing i see in my future is my suicide.
I am happy that there is someone who loves you as you are, good for you :) Hope he will love you forever.
 
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Ico

Member
Jun 27, 2023
40
I would like to see my daughter grow up without the burden of having a broken and worthless mess of a father. Can't even begin to imagine what she would be capable of, if given the chance to be raised by someone who wasn't living their life in anguish and dreaming of release.
 
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Eisenfuchs

Eisenfuchs

Member
Jul 5, 2023
12
First and foremost, my grandparents and my sisters. Through all the rough patches they've at least been there for me longer than anyone else has.
One friend who stuck with me while I was going through my worst; and one that I stupidly cast aside in that same time.
My car and my truck
A few YouTubers I watch often
My Steam library
Beer
 
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MiraiShisen

Student
Jun 15, 2023
147
First and foremost, my grandparents and my sisters. Through all the rough patches they've at least been there for me longer than anyone else has.
One friend who stuck with me while I was going through my worst; and one that I stupidly cast aside in that same time.
My car and my truck
A few YouTubers I watch often
My Steam library
Beer
good and reasonable list :)
 
bbveevee

bbveevee

vacant body
Jul 3, 2023
30
Definitely the sunshine, warm rays of sun always brought me comfort, I want to feel that comfort for an eternity.
 
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SolomonKado

SolomonKado

This is taking too long…
Jul 4, 2023
424
I know that after we are dead we probably do not care about anything, but I am curious what will you miss when you wont be here ? Is anything good in this world for you what would be appreciated also in afterlife?



Family - yeah nothing to talk about, hope I will meet them :)

Music. I am just so used to it its like part of my life, its funny to think that music is a privilege, its so common now but few decades or centuries ago it was only in form of bards/orchesters (live music) Most of the time and most of the people in world did not have privilege to listen so many beautiful peaces. Its really a gift and I am honored and gratefull that I could experience this part of life.

Modern technology - another privilege, internet - literally unlimited place for knowledge, information. Games and Movies, I am not a gamer but I have a few games I used to play from my childchood and its just nostalgy and fun. Movies and Anime - From my teenage years I lived without fater figure but I had a pretty good rolemodels in some fictional characters that do not exist from anime or movies, its funny how I could absorb wisdom from places many would not expect there is and I am gratefull for that also. I have been lost and it showed me a way I wanna shape my character.
(of coruse there are lot of downsides of modern technology but thats for different topic)

I will definitely miss nature. When my health was not that bad I used to go for long walks through meadows, groves enjoying spring or summer, feeling how wind caress my skin, how sun rays are touching my skin and warming it. I will also miss birds, how they sings and every one different song, how they are flying representing freedom. I will miss colours of flowers and all of the things. Blue sky, fluffy summer white clouds slowly floating :) I will miss mountains and view from it, I had one particular place I used to visit, and it was so peacefull, untouched by humans I could observe other peaks from it also valleys and I felt that natural energy so good for meditation. I will miss it.

Food - yeah despite having serious problem with digestion I used to enjoy this pleasure when I could. All the different tastes that are possible mostly in this age, yeah so many possibilities to taste and enjoy. Also I used to drink coffee hmm that sour taste and smell is exactly for me or Green tea with lemon yes I really did enjoy life. Dark chocolate while I was on long walk through nature.

Social life - talking with good people ( I like talk with small group best for me is only 2 or 3 people talking) enjoying their company, talking about deep things or just everything and enjoying present moment. Yes good part of life, sad that I have been pretty much alone for several last years of my life.

What I will miss and I could never experience is this particular age we are living - so many possibilities to travel and to visit, places even our ancestors could not. To learn from different cultures, tribes, see ocen etc.. I feel sad that I will leave before I had chance to enjoy this part this world offers so many options now. This age is unique because its the only one we can do so many things no one before us could.

That probably it, maybe I forgot something, but I feel blessed to have option to live in this unique age.Sorry if this topic do not belong to this forum.
I will miss sailing on the ocean off the Coast of California with my friends that I was stationed with a long time ago.

The Mountains and the rivers that pass through them are so beautiful and the smell of it all was amazing! I wish I could have been good at fishing. I naturally suck 😝

Nothing else. Friends were fake, family all hates each other, and strangers were more prone to assholes then polite.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
8,213
The smell of the earth after it rains, nature, music, films, games, YouTube, food, this place. (By the time I can CTB, my closest family members will all be gone.)

It's weird to think one day I simply won't wake up to experience anything ever again. Still- that's going to happen to everyone at some point. In a way, it's not so different to sleep I suppose- except without the waking up bit.
 
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MiraiShisen

MiraiShisen

Student
Jun 15, 2023
147
Definitely the sunshine, warm rays of sun always brought me comfort, I want to feel that comfort for an eternity.
yes thats good, would not mind either. I always feel like sun is our protector against bad or dark things so It would be good to have it for eternity. Have to add this to my list
The smell of the earth after it rains, nature, music, films, games, YouTube, food, this place. (By the time I can CTB, my closest family members will all be gone.)

It's weird to think one day I simply won't wake up to experience anything ever again. Still- that's going to happen to everyone at some point. In a way, it's not so different to sleep I suppose- except without the waking up bit.
Very reasonable choices I feel the same.
 
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tazzmaniandevil

Member
Jul 7, 2023
7
Food. Eating is my favourite part of being alive, or it is when my digestive shit isn't ruining it.
weather. i love rain, i love thunderstorms that shake the house and flood the creek.
masturbating. its free dopamine
 
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suicidalloser

Specialist
Jun 30, 2023
365
Nothing,
that's a fact isn't it
 
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stermc

stermc

libertas quae sera tamen
Nov 24, 2022
946
My mom. And the ability of experiencing nature.
 
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Valky

Valky

Petulant Child
Apr 4, 2023
1,319
I don't Even have much to say to that since you worded it so beautifully! :)
It is great to see such stuff that we often take for granted, so throughly thought through and appreciated.
 
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HopefulSleep

Wants to sleep
Apr 24, 2023
889
Video Games
 
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SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
353
I know that after we are dead we probably do not care about anything, but I am curious what will you miss when you wont be here ? Is anything good in this world for you what would be appreciated also in afterlife?



Family - yeah nothing to talk about, hope I will meet them :)

Music. I am just so used to it its like part of my life, its funny to think that music is a privilege, its so common now but few decades or centuries ago it was only in form of bards/orchesters (live music) Most of the time and most of the people in world did not have privilege to listen so many beautiful peaces. Its really a gift and I am honored and gratefull that I could experience this part of life.

Modern technology - another privilege, internet - literally unlimited place for knowledge, information. Games and Movies, I am not a gamer but I have a few games I used to play from my childchood and its just nostalgy and fun. Movies and Anime - From my teenage years I lived without fater figure but I had a pretty good rolemodels in some fictional characters that do not exist from anime or movies, its funny how I could absorb wisdom from places many would not expect there is and I am gratefull for that also. I have been lost and it showed me a way I wanna shape my character.
(of coruse there are lot of downsides of modern technology but thats for different topic)

I will definitely miss nature. When my health was not that bad I used to go for long walks through meadows, groves enjoying spring or summer, feeling how wind caress my skin, how sun rays are touching my skin and warming it. I will also miss birds, how they sings and every one different song, how they are flying representing freedom. I will miss colours of flowers and all of the things. Blue sky, fluffy summer white clouds slowly floating :) I will miss mountains and view from it, I had one particular place I used to visit, and it was so peacefull, untouched by humans I could observe other peaks from it also valleys and I felt that natural energy so good for meditation. I will miss it.

Food - yeah despite having serious problem with digestion I used to enjoy this pleasure when I could. All the different tastes that are possible mostly in this age, yeah so many possibilities to taste and enjoy. Also I used to drink coffee hmm that sour taste and smell is exactly for me or Green tea with lemon yes I really did enjoy life. Dark chocolate while I was on long walk through nature.

Social life - talking with good people ( I like talk with small group best for me is only 2 or 3 people talking) enjoying their company, talking about deep things or just everything and enjoying present moment. Yes good part of life, sad that I have been pretty much alone for several last years of my life.

What I will miss and I could never experience is this particular age we are living - so many possibilities to travel and to visit, places even our ancestors could not. To learn from different cultures, tribes, see ocen etc.. I feel sad that I will leave before I had chance to enjoy this part this world offers so many options now. This age is unique because its the only one we can do so many things no one before us could.

That probably it, maybe I forgot something, but I feel blessed to have option to live in this unique age.Sorry if this topic do not belong to this forum.
Personally for me, it's always the "what ifs" but also if the world will be a better and more understanding accepting place in years to come. Again it's always the what if
 
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skittles!

skittles!

peace & love
Jul 9, 2023
10
It's going to be hard for me to leave music behind. I was thinking maybe writing a last song before I find peace would be a nice way to say goodbye to my music journey.
 
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John Ryder

John Ryder

"You're a smart kid...you'll figure it out."
Jul 7, 2023
334
I'll miss the limitless beauty of the natural world, my gargantuan pirated film/music collection (the biggest you've ever seen, promise), tequila, foods, my drum set, my favorite cast iron skillet, my dachshund, a few select members of my family, boxing (the only sport I give half a shit about), and the way I could once savor all these things prior to my current circumstances. Quite a few things, honestly.
 
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Andarosh

The Ghost
Nov 13, 2022
33
My true and only friend that I loved and betrayed so that we are no longer friends... And music and PC games.
 
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im here i guess

im here i guess

Member
Jan 21, 2023
17
I would miss my girlfriend, so much. I'm scared of leaving her, im scared of abandoning her to fend for herself. They are a big reason why I'm still alive. as much as I want to leave, i still have one good reason to stay.
 
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Cherry_BB

I need someone to push me over the edge
Jul 6, 2023
32
The chance to be somebody and be accepted for who I am. Even though its pointless to dream of being somebody, it's still nice to dream of having worth to another person.
 
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transgenderfailure

Subhuman Creature
Apr 30, 2018
118
My family including my cats
 
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StarFaded

Member
Aug 24, 2022
80
The MMO I play has an ongoing storyline and I will very much regret not seeing it through to the end. I will also miss my neighbour's cat, his meows and his smell.
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
361
Nothing. Everything I've been looking for I'll find on the other side.
 
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Elle

Specialist
Jul 9, 2023
339
My niece, sister and my two amazing friends @ever so lonely & @angel31 🥺🥰
 
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Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
:heart: NOT A FUCKING THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
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Jezzibell

Jezzibell

On my way out. Yayyyyy
Apr 21, 2023
709
My cat
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,485
I'm done. Just existing. I love seeing huskies and alsation
dogs. So basically dogs.

I do love my family but depression just sucks and even though it's better than usual atm on meds I just can't be arsed to do anything.
 
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isthisit?

The name's Cedrik
Jun 23, 2023
134
I'm gonna miss 2 things. Hoi4 and music.
 
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StolenLife

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Sep 19, 2022
740
Food, art, listening to good music, cats and my family.
 
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