Venting I Can't Even Cry (Too Numb) 3 Days Till CTB....

[darksoul999]

I can't even cry anymore. I am just completely numb inside.

I just sorta cried which made me realize that has not happened in awhile.

I just want the pain to go away.

I come from a good family, i hate to do what i have planned BUT this pain can't continue...

I actually enjoyed most of my life, up until age 20.

At age 20, i started experiencing Bipolar Type 2 symptoms.

Extreme mood swings that have ravaged my life.

It feel's so weird to think, this is it. After this, there is no going back.

Part of me feels at peace inside while the other part is saying, "What the fuck happened man"

I guess what i did not realize is the walls are closing around me so fast.

I guess i am mentally ill.

I wish things did not have to end like this.

I really enjoy nature.

My only hope is that ill be a spirit, free to roam the universe and meet others too.

Jesus man, What the fuck happened!!!

 

[Oxymorphone]

I also haven't cried in years. I guess it's because of my medications...

You mentioned bipolar 2, are you also on meds?

 

[darksoul999]

I also haven't cried in years. I guess it's because of my medications...

You mentioned bipolar 2, are you also on meds?

I was. They just make me feel like shit or not myself. I can't live like that.