BlueberryDeer
Lottery or Suicide, whatever comes first
- Nov 20, 2025
- 95
Is to discuss openly suicide without taking the risk of being banned, and called the authorities and pass the lifeline, etc.
I only want to talk about it before I choose my final date.
I am convincing that it's the way I want to die, despite the stereotypes (Writer, trans).
But, as the "normal" Internet only aims recovery and lifelines, this forum is the only safe space I found.
See, even if I win the lottery, find a girlfriend / wife and publish my works, I will not change my principle of being pro-choice. Sure, I will not directly push anyone - that crosses ethical and forum limits -, but as I expect that someone can't convince me to avoid it, I respect the decisions of anyone.
Call me death relativist, or even fetishist. Whatever, I do not fear hell or Yahweh in the Afterlife. It's my decision.
I only want to talk about it before I choose my final date.
I am convincing that it's the way I want to die, despite the stereotypes (Writer, trans).
But, as the "normal" Internet only aims recovery and lifelines, this forum is the only safe space I found.
See, even if I win the lottery, find a girlfriend / wife and publish my works, I will not change my principle of being pro-choice. Sure, I will not directly push anyone - that crosses ethical and forum limits -, but as I expect that someone can't convince me to avoid it, I respect the decisions of anyone.
Call me death relativist, or even fetishist. Whatever, I do not fear hell or Yahweh in the Afterlife. It's my decision.