Discussion What was the one mistake that ruined your life and has you about to ctb?

[meles_inoris]

Not killing myself before the virus hit

 

[escapefromabuse]

Becoming involved with a sociopath by having kids and buying a house with her. Ending a relationship with a sociopath comes with disasterous consequences.

 

[Flump]

Loosing my son

 

[Rockman]

Trust to doctors who messed my health to suicidal condition. But of course it was my fault that i was blind belived that drastic interventions help me when i needed only therapy.

 

[mothdust9]

Choosing bad plastic surgeon who ruined my nose, forehead and hairline.

I feel you on the plastic surgeon thing. I had breast cancer and had a bilateral mastectomy. I was assured by a plastic surgeon that implants for reconstruction were safe. Not only did he crush my ribs in with tissue expanders to the point I can't sing or take a deep breath anymore, I had a severe reaction to the implants. They gave me heavy metal poisoning and I had a giant cell foreign body reaction that even caused seizures. The implants had to be removed and now I'm left with a caved in chest and thoracic outlet syndrome in both arms from the pec muscles being cut. I was a pianist and vocalist. Now I'll never sing or play again. Music was all I had left after ehlers danlos syndrome took everything else. I have more of a grudge against that plastic surgeon than Joe Exotic had against Carole Baskin lol.

 

[braketimez]

What was the damage from the antipsychotic?

I'm still on them. They have turned me into a completely apathetic zombie. I used to have creativity and passion. Now it's all gone. I never have anything to say in conversation. I am screwed because I've read about horrible withdrawal from the med I'm on, so I'm stuck with it.

 

[K-O]

THE RIPPER HAS ALWAYS LURKED AROUND ME..
BUT IT WAS THAT MORNING NOT LONG AGO -WAKING UP, LOOKING TOUCHING SMELLING AND TASTING HIM IN OUR BED, COLD BLUE STIFF ..
LOST A LOVER TO AN OVER DOSE WHEN WAS YOUNGER BUT NOT IN MY ARMS, NOT LIKE THAT.. THERES NO REALLY COMING BACK FROM THAT TBH..
MAKING HARD LOVE AT NIGHT AND WAKING UP ALONE STILL WET.. I MEAN.. SOMETIMES THERE IS THAT ONE THING..
AND TRUST- LIFE HAS NOT BEEN AN EASY RIDE..
SO IF YOU WANT TO CALL IT A MISTAKE U CAN I GUESS.. BUT FOR ME LOVE IS WORTH DYING FOR .. IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY KING.

 

[Finished]

I'd have to say letting everyone down and now I have no relationship with anybody in my family ! It's safe to say I waited till it was too late to try

 

[Oyoy]

It started by disrespecting my dad.
Then I hated myself which led to not trying in school which brought me to drugs and letting myself be used for sex to feel like I could be wanted as a female.

 

[OnlyBuilt4Linxs]

I got harassed at work. Got anxiety. Fainted at home. Broke my jaw against the floor. A shitty surgeon made an unnecesary job. Result: permanent damage in my face, I move it unwillingly. I applied for a ridiculous job transfer to another city, when I got nobody. Profesioanlly there I can't progress, I even lose money. I'm ashamed and hurt. Got situation depression. I know it's not too much, I could carry on. But I feel at a dead-end, I prefer to stop here. A peaceful and secure way to CTB, please. Sorry for my loving parents and sister. I'm 39, but, since I'm single (which I like), they are the mainstains of my life.

What happened at work?

 

[Notabadguy]

What happened at work?

Well, I'm not answering, don't take it personally, I should have handled the situation far better.

 

[OnlyBuilt4Linxs]

Well, I'm not answering, don't take it personally, I should have handled the situation far better.

It's alright I understand some things are too personal

 

[terry_a_davis]

No foresight.

 

[laserfocus111]

Bad mistake in career, now under intense legal scrutiny and investigation.

Outcomes could be catastrophic to me. I'm probably less of a burden to the people around me if I'm gone.

 

[stanto]

losing my girlfriend by going to a brothel and paying with the common account after being superdrunk. The woman of my life from another counrty in my city that waited ffor 7 years to merry and have kids. the sweetest thing- my saving angel.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Being born. Basically anyway, lol.

Probably this, though I guess it wasn't my mistake so much as my parents.

 

[Mm80]

Taking antidepressants at 18 and for the next twenty years on and off. They made me lose my identity and fuck a lot of things up. Coming off them and realising that they have probably damaged my brain for good is very depressing indeed. Plus you dont really build a healthy life while on antidepressants, you become apathetic and just exist,when you come off them you realise just how empty your life is. (only speaking for myself)
Doctors give them out to young people so easily and although they are not physically addictive, psychologically you believe you were born with a chemical inmalance and need them to function

 

[darkhorse256]

I have many mistakes. Chief among them being choosing not to study overseas and trusting someone I shouldn't have, which resulted in me being sexually assaulted.

 

[RepressedMind]

There are too many to count, but it started a long time ago and it has just exponentially gotten worse.

 

[FireFox]

I have many mistakes. Chief among them being choosing not to study overseas and trusting someone I shouldn't have, which resulted in me being sexually assaulted.

There loads of women and men that have sexually assaulted but have go on to live happy and fulfiling lives. One of my favourite singers is Lady gaga . I love her songs, she is not afraid to be herself. She sexually assualted at a young age. She does at lot of campaign work to help indiduals who are sexually assaulted.

Remember is not your fault. If anyone should be puninsied it should be the person who sexually assualted you. Dont be hard on yourself you are not to blame

I hope you get help

Take care
FireFox

Taking antidepressants at 18 and for the next twenty years on and off. They made me lose my identity and fuck a lot of things up. Coming off them and realising that they have probably damaged my brain for good is very depressing indeed. Plus you dont really build a healthy life while on antidepressants, you become apathetic and just exist,when you come off them you realise just how empty your life is. (only speaking for myself)
Doctors give them out to young people so easily and although they are not physically addictive, psychologically you believe you were born with a chemical inmalance and need them to function

I want to take antidepressants so i stop feeling things anymore. I want to have zero emotions

Not killing myself before the virus hit

Same

Loosing my son

I am sorry

Trusting doctors was my biggest mistake.

Not your fault we taught to believe doctors are experts who can never get it wrong

Becoming involved with a sociopath by having kids and buying a house with her. Ending a relationship with a sociopath comes with disasterous consequences.

What happened when you ended the relationship?

 

[throwaway_accountbro]

Watching porn.

 

[Unspoken]

Quitting my job and moving back in with my parents. I wish I would have toughed it out.

 

[not.happy201]

Too much headphone music caused my Tinnitus. Tinnitus destroyed me to pieces.

 

[Passersby]

Hi there Lynxs,
Basically a very serious accident which resulted in major life changes, intolerable suffering, physically and mentally. Had problems before this event but they weren't substantial enough to ctb however over time with things degrading then they could very well turn into ctb type of scenario. Also had basically lived with some suicidal ideation before along with basically living in a existential mind crisis but it was manageable then now it's not. I just wish a meteor would fall from the sky and wipe me out.

 

[TVtrays]

I was suicidal beforehand, but the fact that I lost the love of my life due to my issues has solidified things. I'm just waiting for my survival instinct to go away so I can finally do it.

 

[Canon1]

Choosing bad plastic surgeon who ruined my nose, forehead and hairline.

What surgery have you exactly done?

 

[Blackpoolbootz]

Not being strong enough throughout my life. Being a walk over in so many things.
Now ended up on meds with no Partner no friends in a house I hate. Lost money being ripped off which gets me down. People say I'm lucky if I am I'm just screwed up

Btw thank you for this thread and shearing. I think this is the only place people actually understand

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

What surgery have you exactly done?

Rhinoplasty and forehead type 3

 

[Canon1]

Can you send me a pm? Would like to talk to you

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Can you send me a pm? Would like to talk to you

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