The mistake was made by my parents for bringing me to this world.
TastySorrow
Member
- May 18, 2020
- 24
Having taken family time for years to train myself for a project that looks like it's flopping anyway. I need to free my wife from myself. She's the purest person I've ever met and she'll never move on while I'm here. She deserves better.
idek
Member
- May 18, 2020
- 16
I hit my kid a couple months ago.
Surely you see why I should die?
Surely you see why I should die?
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plough22
Living but not really, just surviving
- May 1, 2020
- 226
Choosing to trust my ex partner who went out to destroy me, she did with one monstrous bug lie which I'm still being affected by. You think you know someone but you don't
My father hit me once in a while as a kid as he's the best man I know. It used to be standard behaviour, ok it's not now, but I bet your kid understands and will understand when older too.
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I'll tell you I think there are monsters inside everyone that we all let out or lose control of at some point or another... I used to be a sort of self righteous, wouldn't admit to regretting anything, always acted on my current honor code type of person, so secondarily rather judgemental of others mistakes. Turns out I didn't look hard enough in the mirror while I had ot so easy and didn't know it... and when things got really rough and spun out of control for me I ended up doing some really evil stuff, waaay worse than anything you listed... I literally felt the sadistic devil inside me, and willingly took joy and pleasure in some almost blameless peoples suffering while I let this monster loose through my mind and body. I never thought I was capable of those things, and needless to say, I dont look down or judge on many other people's mistakes these days, at least I can try to approach them with some sort of understanding and empathy
It took longer to snowball than I thought, and thus has finally crushed and trampled everything I have built and worked for since.
I'll add though, if this was the only issue, I think I might be able to hang around and still not ctb just yet... but as things are, it's just another straw on the camel's back or whatever.
It took longer to snowball than I thought, and thus has finally crushed and trampled everything I have built and worked for since.
I'll add though, if this was the only issue, I think I might be able to hang around and still not ctb just yet... but as things are, it's just another straw on the camel's back or whatever.
Almost nothing is unforgivable (keeping in mind that its not necessarily his (ur xbfs) forgiveness you need)
I'll tell you I think there are monsters inside everyone that we all let out or lose control of at some point or another... I used to be a sort of self righteous, wouldn't admit to regretting anything, always acted on my current honor code type of person, so secondarily rather judgemental of others mistakes. Turns out I didn't look hard enough in the mirror while I had ot so easy and didn't know it... and when things got really rough and spun out of control for me I ended up doing some really evil stuff, waaay worse than anything you listed... I literally felt the sadistic devil inside me, and willingly took joy and pleasure in some almost blameless peoples suffering while I let this monster loose through my mind and body. I never thought I was capable of those things, and needless to say, I dont look down or judge on many other people's mistakes these days, at least I can try to approach them with some sort of understanding and empathy
I can definitely relate to this. Thinking at age 18 I was (or anyone could be) 'too intelligent to become addicted to opiates,' so i felt the right to play with them and experiment recreationally with impunity... this was in retrospect, an extremely dumb, adolescent move in my part.
It took longer to snowball than I thought, and thus has finally crushed and trampled everything I have built and worked for since.
I'll add though, if this was the only issue, I think I might be able to hang around and still not ctb just yet... but as things are, it's just another straw on the camel's back or whatever.
I can definitely relate to this. Thinking at age 18 I was (or anyone could be) 'too intelligent to become addicted to opiates,' so i felt the right to play with them and experiment recreationally with impunity... this was in retrospect, an extremely dumb, adolescent move in my part.
It took longer to snowball than I thought, and thus has finally crushed and trampled everything I have built and worked for since.
I'll add though, if this was the only issue, I think I might be able to hang around and still not ctb just yet... but as things are, it's just another straw on the camel's back or whatever.
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Tintypographer
I am done as of 4-21-2023. Somewhere I am no more
- Apr 29, 2020
- 471
I married an abusive self absorbed person with a personality disorder and went from a completely well adjusted and totally organized and forward thinking positive individual to a panicked mouse of a human being always in fear of what I have done wrong and how bad I am doing without any way to be the person I am as a human. It's not 20 years I can get back and my soul is ruined.
Lost.
Antidepressants and antipsychotics are posion
- Feb 13, 2020
- 173
How i expirineced something similar in past? But i exceeded that.
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1. Severe problems with college which led me taking the first antidepressant!!! and other problems from that time (i regret i didn't lose fucking virginity and i didn't move from my family. Actually i regeret i didn't lose virginity at age 13-15).
2. Taking new antidepressant and going to psych ward vountarily. I got permanent brain damage from antidepressants but still could live ok.
3. going to ER where i was given torecan injection without my consent and it made my damage from antidepressants worse 1000 times.
So i am here because of brain damage from psych drugs.
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Getting sucked into the transgender ideology thinking it would cure all my problems, now I am left with damage even though I took hormones only 3 months and didn't get any surgeries. It damaged me mentally too, it triggered a chronic depression I still have 6 years later. I wish the whole transgender thing never existed.
clocktower
anxious
- Jun 25, 2020
- 64
becoming obsessed with the internet as a tiny child and consequently being exposed to hardcore gore and pornography at around age 9. it messed me up.
not doing any research about what highschool i was going to be attending. if i had gone to a different school perhaps i wouldn't have been bullied so badly i had to drop out. i now have crippling social anxiety, self esteem issues and agoraphobia and have been a shut in since dropping out at age 14.
not doing any research about what highschool i was going to be attending. if i had gone to a different school perhaps i wouldn't have been bullied so badly i had to drop out. i now have crippling social anxiety, self esteem issues and agoraphobia and have been a shut in since dropping out at age 14.
The only mistake in my life is my mom giving birth to me.
It's many things but the final blow was over romantic rejection. I just all around made a mistake when I even met that guy and how we met. But even before meeting him I was trying to find a way to ctb. I wish I never met him though. It was the worst scariest most painful heartbreak I've ever experienced. I can't remember ever feeling that unraveled over anyone.
many mistakes but final trauma was a sexual one
Every new trauma led to the next. Even avoiding getting fucking tinnitus due to misdiagnosis would have stopped the spiral of events
Every new trauma led to the next. Even avoiding getting fucking tinnitus due to misdiagnosis would have stopped the spiral of events
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I am so so sorry :(
Worst decision was telling my dad when I was 18 I was raped by his wife's son. My said I was crazy and I was lying
This is why blended families are so dangerous. The unrelated siblings or sometimes the adult partners can prey on the kids. This is much less likely to happen when the two parents are both the bio parents and all kids are from same two parents under one roof.
Exactly. I had a much better life before hand. Of course I'm also adopted. Hello black sheep
What? Lol!
Wow! That's really scary and sad. Sorry this happened to u. Why were u looking for porn and gore at such a young age? Curiosity I guess?
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- May 9, 2020
- 2,238
Dude, not literally. In the British sense, like screw him and don't let him ruin your life
TheRaul95
Student
- Apr 25, 2020
- 132
favourite
Student
- Feb 15, 2019
- 191
Being so fucking stupid and lazy to get expelled from my first studies and not getting a proper job.
Blowing money on dumb things.
Not caring enough to keep certain people in my life.
Wish I could just put the blame on some unfortunate circumstances, but deep inside I know I'm just worthless lazy stupid fucker.
Blowing money on dumb things.
Not caring enough to keep certain people in my life.
Wish I could just put the blame on some unfortunate circumstances, but deep inside I know I'm just worthless lazy stupid fucker.
Mayerling86
Faking a smile is so much easier
- Jun 26, 2020
- 41
Oh that's awful and yes sounds very lonely. But you have this community :)
wonderworld
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- Jun 5, 2020
- 351
KinicH Knesc
Member
- May 7, 2020
- 30
I'm sorry for not having tried harder and a future I wanted, you don't have to live like that being a burden for the people who help me a lot
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dysfunctional
Arcanist
- Oct 26, 2018
- 459
