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cylus46

cylus46

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Jan 28, 2025
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If you were in the process of ctb or about to ctb what song would you listen to right before your passing?
you can say one or a list of songs :)
My top 3 (in no particular order)
Changes- xxxtentacion
Last words of a shooting star- mitski
Angeline- chase atlantic
 
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getoutgirl

getoutgirl

got out the site <3
Mar 17, 2025
558
Mambo No. 5 😪✊
 
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ramon

ramon

Student
Aug 10, 2024
164
Do the strong deafening noise of the gas flowing through my exit bag plus the annoying strong noise of the odor extractor in the bathroom I've chosen to CTB count as music?
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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One more light- Chester Bennington he sang it at Chris Cornells funeral who ctb then he ctb
 
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Mary Janex

Mary Janex

Probably dissociated
Apr 2, 2025
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The night we met
 
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rubyharv

rubyharv

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Feb 6, 2025
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Aphex Twin – Aisatsana [102]
 
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FakeProdigy

FakeProdigy

Can you feel my heart?
Apr 6, 2025
41
Some soothing classical music I think, anything to just relax
 
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lonergirl_26

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Sep 1, 2024
147
Silver springs - Fleetwood Mac
Or
Into my arms - nick cave & the bad seeds
 
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WanderingGypsy

WanderingGypsy

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Jan 14, 2025
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No More Bad Days - Bastille
 
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cylus46

cylus46

Student
Jan 28, 2025
107
Do the strong deafening noise of the gas flowing through my exit bag plus the annoying strong noise of the odor extractor in the bathroom I've chosen to CTB count as music?
That's all up to you to decide :)
 
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lucyanne

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Apr 9, 2025
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I will be listening to Mika, Happy Ending.
On loop.
 
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davidtorez

davidtorez

Warlock
Mar 8, 2024
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One more light- Chester Bennington he sang it at Chris Cornells funeral who ctb then he ctb
Awesome choice! Mine would be this song or metallica Fade to Black
 
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nooppop2

nooppop2

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Feb 5, 2025
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Anything by Billie eilish (she's my happy place/person)
 
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the_etherealmuse

the_etherealmuse

Member
Jan 17, 2025
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If you were in the process of ctb or about to ctb what song would you listen to right before your passing?
you can say one or a list of songs :)
My top 3 (in no particular order)
Changes- xxxtentacion
Last words of a shooting star- mitski
Angeline- chase atlantic
No song, music drains me. I'd like to fade into unconsciousness and eventually death in silence.
 
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Groundhog_Day

Groundhog_Day

Student
Dec 5, 2023
155
I've become obsessed with Still Life by Thrice:

'The way is closed now, and I can't go home. What if I, what if I just let go? If I just let go'
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Ironically I used to listen to lo-fi to try and be calm. It did not really work so I started listening to Let's Plays instead as they make me laugh.
 
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Stan Swiftie

Stan Swiftie

Student
Apr 3, 2025
102
If you were in the process of ctb or about to ctb what song would you listen to right before your passing?
you can say one or a list of songs :)
My top 3 (in no particular order)
Changes- xxxtentacion
Last words of a shooting star- mitski
Angeline- chase atlantic
"Save Me" by Jelly Roll... The original
Other than the "drinkin' and smokin'" part, it is my sing, word for word
 
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monolog

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Oct 29, 2024
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

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Mar 12, 2025
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gothbird

gothbird

𝙿𝚘𝚎𝚝 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕
Mar 16, 2025
494
 
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worthless123

Hikikomori
Apr 24, 2023
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
678
I would listen to Nujabes and the soundtrack of the anime, Made in Abyss 😊

One of Nujabes' songs, Feather has lyrics I like reminds me of ctb:

"So I'm keeping it vertical,
forever elevator
Riding the escalator
to reach something that is greater"
 
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deadbidaylight

deadbidaylight

And the sun will set for you
Feb 27, 2025
535
One more light- Chester Bennington he sang it at Chris Cornells funeral who ctb then he ctb
If I wanted to cry uncontrollably while CTB I would definitely pick this song. It's so beautiful and I love it, but I can't get past the second line without breaking down ugly crying- snotting and everything. Chester is my hero.

My choice is Shadow of the day, obviously (my tag line under my name on here). There are so many Linkin park songs I could choose, but Shadow of the day just hits different for me. I'd love to go listening to Chester's voice.
 
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Avril

Avril

Unlovable.
Aug 8, 2020
576
Heavy by Linkin Park, 2017
Love Story by Taylor Swift (reminds me of ex)
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
678
If I wanted to cry uncontrollably while CTB I would definitely pick this song. It's so beautiful and I love it, but I can't get past the second line without breaking down ugly crying- snotting and everything. Chester is my hero.

My choice is Shadow of the day, obviously (my tag line under my name on here). There are so many Linkin park songs I could choose, but Shadow of the day just hits different for me. I'd love to go listening to Chester's voice.
Linkin Park is so good! I grew up with them! 😊 I love Chester too 😭
One more light- Chester Bennington he sang it at Chris Cornells funeral who ctb then he ctb
Such a great choice!
 
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catastrophix

catastrophix

and my nightmares will have nightmares every night
Feb 20, 2023
106
Don't mind me, I have a mini playlist:

In Bloom — Nirvana
Bleed Like Me — Garbage
Twin Size Mattress — The Front Bottoms
Blonde Hair, Black Lungs — Sorority Noise
I Smell of You — Blanka
Divva — McCafferty
Vanilla Twilight — Owl City
Boats and Birds — Gregory and the Hawk
Boss of Me — They Might be Giants
Pursuit of Happiness — Kid Cudi
Graveyard — McCafferty
Low — Cracker
 
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AllAloneAndSad

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Apr 2, 2025
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Lady Gaga....Always Remember Us This Way
 
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charliewantstodie

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Apr 18, 2025
14
probably something by The Mountain Goats, maybe Great Pirates. i listened to that song a lot during a time in my life when i was truely happy so i'd be nice to relive that.
 
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daysnumbered

daysnumbered

To be or not to be
Aug 21, 2024
78
Today - Smashing Pumpkins
Nutshell - Alice in Chains
 
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