Before I got suicidal I had a very bad health and I was really scared of death (funny uhm?) and I made a list with songs for my funeral. My best friend knows where that paper is hidden, just in case. Well, we didn't talk about that recently but I can't remind him since he will suspect (he knows that my health is better than ever nd sadly... I made some "subtle" comments about wanting to CTB a year ago or so and he got super mad at me, so if I rememeber him the list, he will suspect).