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Nimbus

Nimbus

Hanging on is hard
Dec 2, 2019
211
im just scared of failing and being worse than i am now
Exactly this. I'm so much more afraid of failing to die than I am of death itself, even if it's a painful death.
 
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OnlyBuilt4Linxs

Member
Apr 16, 2020
36
I fear death. That's the reason I'm alive right now. Anyone alive who states the opposite is obviously lying.
So anyone who isn't a complete pussy like yourself is lying?
 
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I’vehadenough

I’vehadenough

Elementalist
Sep 15, 2018
847
Im not scared of death at all...there are so many people that are dying as im typing this message...many people in their teens and our ages etc..im just scared of failing and being worse than i am now
Thanks. I think I'm so scared because my life is so horrifying, I feel it'll continue after death
 
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Arrow

Arrow

Rewrite
May 1, 2020
768
i look at it this way; i was dead for nearly 14 billion years before i was ever alive, and i don't recall ever having a single problem i had to deal with in all that time, so the whole "being dead" again thing sounds like a pretty sweet deal.
 
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homesick28

homesick28

Member
Oct 26, 2020
40
Honestly, periods of being psychotic, talking to God, I don't know. In the midst of insanity there is clarity. And although those experiences feel far from me now. I know there is another side. Somewhere I was before this life. The act of doing it is a whole different story, the people in your life etc. That scares me. Your remains.. Now that I have fallen so far as function goes and see no future for myself, I dream of deaths warm embrace as I see no alternatives. I don't want to be Indigant the rest of my life pacing living in regret.
 
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NoneMoreNegative

NoneMoreNegative

Member
Aug 27, 2020
65
As miserable as my life is, I still fear death
"What makes you not fear death?"

I survived my first attempt via heroin overdose, and let me tell you, once you reach uncosciousness it's literally like falling into a void of nothingness. This only reinforced what i actually believed: there is nothing after death. Just darkness and silence.
Also the fact that if i don't CTB now there are about 50 more years of suffering and misery waiting for me.
 
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Wrennie

Wrennie

Unholy autism, “bless you” 💔
Dec 18, 2019
1,546
Pretty much. It felt almost like my consciousness was underwater (if that makes sense) and all problems were a world away, thoughts weren't coherent, just a comfortable fuzzy fog
That sounds so inviting... mind if I ask which method you used?
 
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NightmareTour

NightmareTour

Specialist
May 13, 2020
398
Everyone dies, nobody can escape it forever. The only thing that's guaranteed in life is that it comes to an end. Whether that's tomorrow or in a few decades, it's going to be exactly the same. Why worry about something nobody can change?

I see it as sitting in a room that only has one door. I don't know where it goes, but eventually I'm going to have to go through it. Some people might enjoy being in the room, and want to stay a while. I'm sick of the room, so I'm probably going to go check out what's on the other side of the door soon. Maybe there's nothing. Maybe there's another room. Who knows?
 
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Moon Flower

I'll soon be sleeping sound
Oct 14, 2019
536
That sounds so inviting... mind if I ask which method you used?
It was actually an accident, my blood pressure is low and it just dropped really far after having blood drawn and apparently I passed out and had something like a seizure but when I woke up I didn't even know it had happened
Although I guess that's more lack of blood to the brain than lack of oxygen come to think of it, but apparently I was blue so I assume there was some oxygen deprivation too
 
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Nimbus

Nimbus

Hanging on is hard
Dec 2, 2019
211
It was actually an accident, my blood pressure is low and it just dropped really far after having blood drawn and apparently I passed out and had something like a seizure but when I woke up I didn't even know it had happened
Although I guess that's more lack of blood to the brain than lack of oxygen come to think of it, but apparently I was blue so I assume there was some oxygen deprivation too
Since your blood carries the oxygen to your brain, yeah, sounds definitely like oxygen deprivation.
 
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Manford

Manford

Student
Dec 7, 2020
127
I've never been religious. Also, I don't recall there being any consciousness before I was born, so I assume there won't be any after I die.
 
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newave3

newave3

I want out
Nov 21, 2020
2,802
Like George Carlin said many years ago." People don't mind being dead. Being dead is great, but getting dead, nobody wants to get dead."
 
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Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
1,051
I just keep thinking that death surely can't be worse than this nightmare loop I'm already in.
 
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Nexuno

Nexuno

Specialist
Dec 9, 2020
301
I just keep thinking that death surely can't be worse than this nightmare loop I'm already in.
Knowing how things in the whole universe sucks sometimes I think "what if this (shit) is the best part of the story?" XD
You know maybe you get reincarnated into a space rock waiting for 666 million years before dying again... funny stuff like that.
 
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Deformationalplagio

Born deformed
Dec 28, 2019
378
I dont fear death. I fear pain
 
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andy69

Experienced
May 23, 2019
292
I don't fear death when I look at my life and realize that I have no future, no job, no career, and not able to meet basic means for living.
 
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self.destractive

self.destractive

ick/icks, they/them
Dec 11, 2020
85
im sure i have survival instict, as most people do.
i worry mainly about the things ill leave behind which just goes to show that im probably not ready quite yet. waiting for the day that i am with bated breath.
 
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ElPaso

Member
Oct 25, 2020
13
Because I am on my last legs and will know in three or so weeks if it's time to go or not.

Life at this point is worse than death or pain.
 
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oneanonymous

Wizard
Feb 5, 2020
694
The reason I don't fear death is because I believe I will cease to exist, so why worry about something I'll never be conscious for? I'll admit that I can't know this for certain, but I'm 99.9% sure there is nothing after this and that's enough for me to rarely even think about it, let alone worry about or fear it.

That being said, I am afraid of any severe pain or discomfort I may feel before my death (just not death itself). Living is what truly scares me. The uncertainty, how much worse can things get, the dangers of simply being here. Then again, causing permanent brain damage after an attempt scares me more than living. Knowing my luck, my legacy will be a particularly gruesome episode detailing my death on Investigation Discovery. So you see.. it's all bad.
 
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Captive of Mind

Captive of Mind

Memento mori
Aug 11, 2020
409
Your DNA was coded to keep you alive, that will be there in most cases. But it depends on which is stronger, fear of life or fear of death. Some people have bad lives but fear death so much that they can't kill themselves because of it. There are also people who have bad lives but they are willing to accept how things are and don't want to die. Who knows what makes one person want to die and another one not.
 
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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
540
i still have fear to death but there is not a escape
 
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homesick28

homesick28

Member
Oct 26, 2020
40
life is when you can feel and function and create. Beyond that life is meaningless
if you cant do any of the the three life is a pointless venture. May death hold you
 
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muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,187
The inescapable knowing that all of us are destined to die at some point. You can't get out of life alive- you have to die to leave here. Fearing death is normal and understandable, but fearing death doesn't shield us from its inevitable arrival.
 
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Endeavour

Mage
Dec 13, 2020
566
Like George Carlin said many years ago." People don't mind being dead. Being dead is great, but getting dead, nobody wants to get dead."
That's what it is for me, I don't fear being dead it's getting there that's the worry. I'm hoping that I'll be unconscious quickly and so won't experience any pain or discomfort.
 
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Zak

Member
Oct 10, 2020
15
I am very scared but only when I think about the pain. I wish I could take SN and put on some laughing gas from the dentist. That would sure make it easier lol
 
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Starseedchip

Starseedchip

Born to Die
Oct 13, 2019
65
Logically I don't fear it since theres nothing to fear. Death itself can't be experienced. I fear what comes beforehand and the moments leading up to it.
 
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LonelyNick

LonelyNick

They/Them, He/Him
Jul 15, 2020
262
I'm more scared of pain than death
 
Lastsauce

Lastsauce

Experienced
Dec 22, 2019
258
These days I'm only afraid I can't hang on to life for long enough to accomplish my responsibilities.
But how can you keep on going when there's nothing but stress.
 
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