What is your motivation for recovery?

[fiasco]

It's either recovery, or death. And we'll all die eventually, so might as well give myself one last chance.

Honestly, same

 

[lastappleonearth]

There isn't much. I have no family legacy to carry on, won't be having kids or getting married. The realization that I'm literally all alone in this world is a major downer and causes me to feel out of place here.

Motivation is not wanting to end up homeless or have to ctb because I really don't want to but strongly feel that it is the inevitable outcome I'm facing.

I do still like many aspects of life and the world and believe I could still be relatively content if I can just break free from the loop I'm stuck in before it's too late.

I can relate, it's so difficult to break out of that loop tho

 

[StarryEyed]

Yes! A lot of people seem to resonate with IFS. I have tried to get trained in it actually. It is so hard though, there are too many people who want to take the training and not enough trainers. I read No Bad Parts and taken what I could from that. Have you read it?

I like what you said! Maybe it doesnt have to be a specific reason you want to get better, maybe because you can leave the world a better place than when you came into it, or simply because you want to feel better. I can respect that. Those does seem like completely valid reasons to me. Thanks for your input!

Yes, I've been reading No Bad Parts by Richard Schwartz off and on for over a year now. I'm on Chapter 4. But I keep getting distracted. Before that I tried for about a year reading one of his previous books called 'Greater Than the Sum of Our Parts', which is pretty much the same as No Bad Parts. I've been very focused on adapting to my mobility disability the past few years so that I've had little time or energy to devote to my suicidal part. But I can't hold off anymore.

It's very encouraging to hear you say that IFS helped, even though it's for a short time. Thank you for your inspiration.

When you say you want to get trained in IFS, what does that mean?