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saintvalentine

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Jul 11, 2026
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I'm gonna fast the day I CTB because I'll be od'ing, but I'll probably drink loads of alcohol. the day before though, I'll have my last meal which is basically pure junk & candy. I don't wanna have my last meal when I CTB because I want my insides to be "clean" lol.

hbu guys? are you planning on having a last meal?
 
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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

I'm sorry sweetie, I miss you
Jul 6, 2026
205
gonna either eat very early or skip dinner the night before so the alcohol has more effect on me. my chosen alcoholic beverage is radler though (beer with sparkling lemonade).

i'm considering either a dairy queen blizzard or a red velvet cake. or both, lmao
 
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saintvalentine

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Jul 11, 2026
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gonna either eat very early or skip dinner the night before so the alcohol has more effect on me. my chosen alcoholic beverage is radler though (beer with sparkling lemonade).

i'm considering either a dairy queen blizzard or a red velvet cake. or both, lmao
oh wow ice cream and cake sounds good, like a reverse birthday party haha ^^
 
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DarkFriend.

DarkFriend.

Neverending Suffering
May 1, 2022
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Rare filet mignon, buttered shrimp, mussels, lobster tails, honey glazed chicken wings, pork burnt ends, smoked sturgeon on rye, red cabbage with mayo, garlic mashed potatoes, mac and cheese, chocolate cake, apple pie with vanilla ice cream, two dry vodka martinis, and a bottle of Glenfarclas to wash it down.
 
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saintvalentine

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Jul 11, 2026
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Rare filet mignon, buttered shrimp, mussels, lobster tails, honey glazed chicken wings, pork burnt ends, smoked sturgeon on rye, red cabbage with mayo, garlic mashed potatoes, mac and cheese, chocolate cake, apple pie with vanilla ice cream, two dry vodka martinis, and a bottle of Glenfarclas to wash it down.
that's divine omg. are you having your last meal right before or wait a bit?
 
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DarkFriend.

DarkFriend.

Neverending Suffering
May 1, 2022
103
that's divine omg. are you having your last meal right before or wait a bit?
If I actually ate all this . . . it'd probably be the day before or something. Perhaps even two days before. Like something to enjoy before, you know, the gas or the water or the gun takes me.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
676
whatever the hell is currently surviving in my fridge lmaoooo
 
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hdead

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Jun 2, 2026
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I'm gonna fast the day I CTB because I'll be od'ing, but I'll probably drink loads of alcohol. the day before though, I'll have my last meal which is basically pure junk & candy. I don't wanna have my last meal when I CTB because I want my insides to be "clean" lol.

hbu guys? are you planning on having a last meal?
Honestly, I'll also be fasting after having eaten junk for a while.

Be careful with OD please.. since you're a new member I'd advise you to read through the megathreads.
 
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tiramisu

tiramisu

meow
Jun 1, 2026
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death over slavery

Liquidating entity
Sep 19, 2025
72
Anything I can get my hands on in my final buffet. Probably doing it like 2-3 days (as per my protocol) because like you said, I want my insides be empty when going on the other side ✌️
 
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ilovecats1

ilovecats1

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Apr 15, 2026
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ill probably get some fast food i like the day before since i need to fast as well. id like some popeyes i think
 
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mark_b

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Dec 18, 2024
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Nothing beats a homemade lasagne, except maybe for hainanese chicken rice or a properly cooked butter chicken. Burger with fries also is delicious, as is a cubano sandwich. God i love food 🤣🤣
 
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meowpuppy

meowpuppy

valerie | she/they | puppygirl
Jul 11, 2026
394
just some of my lime soda or something, my anxiety gives me nausea these days so i wouldn't want to feel uncomfy
 
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revivals

revivals

im afraid to not exist. arent you?
Jul 10, 2026
21
id be so paranoid while shopping for something fancy or getting food out that everyone would know i was about to do it, so probably eggs and ramen lol
 
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dirkw83

Experienced
Mar 4, 2026
222
Idk maybe pizza or mcdonald. I really love french fries lol. But I don't know if I'll go out of my way for a last meal, seems kinda pointless when I think about it idk.
 
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enne

blood sport
May 13, 2026
123
hopefully this was my last take. had a bit of homemade soup i made. just a few bites. made my mom a bowl. made enough to share with whoever finds me later. gonna spend the rest just drinking. i wish y'all well. <3
 
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burninghill

burninghill

Arcanist
Dec 2, 2025
427
For my last two attempts I got sushi and boba. I took some money out to get Chinese food for my last attempt but I haven't used the money, so that's probably what I'll do. Chinese food. By that I mean just some shrimp fried rice and some sweet and sour haha.
 
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bhaloo

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Jan 19, 2025
77
I want to be empty stomach when I die. I don't want to make a mess. I want it to be easy for people to clean up my dead body.
 
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lacedup

lacedup

my god, my god, why have you forsaken me?
Jul 10, 2026
12
i love food but i can't handle getting fat, so my last day would be an absolute feast. thinking about this is making me hungry lol. but i want it to be expensive and yummy and a lot of food!
 
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Bitter Almonds

Student
Jan 16, 2026
139
Food stopped feeling special to me. I eat my feelings anyways. so maybe just some steak and eggs?
 
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Handsup051

Handsup051

Member
Jul 2, 2026
6
I haven't been able to eat without consequence for a few years. My plan as the last thing I eat would be a Butterfinger blizzard from DQ, since I haven't been able to really enjoy one since high school. I'd also want to get a proper meal at Texas Roadhouse, but my stomach's gotten so tiny that I wonder if I'd be able to handle both in one day. I'm thinking tomorrow I go out to TR, have some good fried chicken and onion fries, and grab the Blizzard on the way home. And if my stomach really can't handle the blizzard after the meal, then I guess I've bought myself another day.
 
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