Discussion What is your fantasy - when life gets hard ?

[CornerE]

When life gets really hard , you're in deep pain or deep trouble ..
What do you fantasize ?

Mention the realistic as well as the unrealistic fantasies .
Current and previous ones .

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For me , now ( in deep pain and trouple ) :

Realistic :
For some good honest person to show up in my life out of the blue , help and protect me .
I really need help and don't feel safe - never felt safe for years .
Emotional support could be a great other mutual advantage ( not romantic , romance is not what's missing , romance is just faking love )

For the world to be a better place for good people ( if you think that's unrealistic , you haven't heard my unrealistic fantasies .

A terrorist bomb my room ( while I'm there ofcourse ) and sudden heart attack are better realistic fantasies .


I hate life .

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Mine is kind of psycho. A day dream I often have is that I end up abandoning my home and leaving behind society with a girl who is just like me. We went on adventures, being free from this society and in the end did a peaceful suicide pact. That's the only realistic fantasy I can dream of nowadays and even that day dream isn't realistic in some parts.

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

Well, suicide is obviously one of my fantasies. It seems like such a bleak and harsh choice. I've yet to fully embrace the idea that taking my own life is the only solution. Call it cowardliness, uncertainty, or laziness. It's there though. Anymore, I'm fantasizing about dying in my sleep almost daily. All my problems would be gone.

Otherwise... I think you could call these these things fantasies. I don't think anyone really knows...

I have the "God Fantasy". This was me earlier today (in my mind):

"God, are you really there? If you are there then I hope you know I don't understand this at all. What am I supposed to be doing? I'm just not understanding what I'm supposed to be doing at all. Everything seems hopeless. Is there any purpose to me being alive? The future looks bleak and scary to me. I need your help. Can you help me? I need some doors to open up. Just show me what I'm supposed to do. I don't see a way. I really don't. If you're actually there, I've been told you always have a way."

I've yet to have a voice speak back to me or any other obvious sign God heard me. So it doesn't bother me at all to call it a fantasy. I still do it though. Just to be sure.

Afterwards, I'll keep going about my day and simply do common sense things. Apply for jobs. Shower. Eat. Et cetera.

Secretly, I'm hoping that I'll see an amazing "door" open up in my future. This magical door could hold a lot of things. Perhaps I'll see a peculiar new job posting. Maybe I'll apply for that job and find it leads to a great lifelong career. A career that leads to me finding a wife. A wife that leads to having a family and vacations to places I never thought I'd visit. Perhaps in the whole process I'll discover that all the things I went through actually had a purpose.

Unfortunately, I also have the darker fantasies. I picture myself being completely homeless. I picture myself having cancer and suffering for weeks on end. I picture myself being alone. I picture myself struggling to get food and other necessities. I picture the future world being filled with war and disease. I imagine all the horrible things that could happen in my future. The list goes on and on. It scares me. I try to not stay in this kind of mindset for too long. It's part of the reason I've often thought of suicide.

That's pretty much what my mind goes through every day. I'm usually turning to YouTube and other places looking for signs of intelligence in the universe. I just saw a video at the top of my YouTube feed with the title "Learn How God Can Use Anybody." Is that my sign? I don't know. I'll probably give it a listen. Right after this video is another one entitled "The Principal Teachings of Buddhism". I'll probably listen to this one too. Maybe I'll gain some wisdom from it? I guess I'll find out.

 

[CornerE]

Mine is kind of psycho. A day dream I often have is that I end up abandoning my home and leaving behind society with a girl who is just like me. We went on adventures, being free from this society and in the end did a peaceful suicide pact. That's the only realistic fantasy I can dream of nowadays and even that day dream isn't realistic in some parts.

It is sort of realistic .. as long it doesn't involve magic , science fiction or superstitions .
But if you can leave society behind and live the way you want , why do you feel the need to ctb then ?

I'm fantasizing about dying in my sleep almost daily. All my problems would be gone.
.............

I picture myself having cancer and suffering for weeks on end.

I share those two in common .

I hate it when I wake up to find out I'm still there , I'm still fucking alive .

It feels horrible .
I keep wondering when is that shit gonna be over ?

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The last couple of days , I started to notice weird spots on my skin like the ones many sites mention that it's an early sign of cancer - skin cancer .
And I felt it's maybe a hope for a way out .
There would be suffering for a year or so , but it's ok , not much of a difference , I'm already suffering .
At least that way I know it's definitely gonna be over one day soon .
Let cancer save me .

 

[Youthanasia]

Realistic: Euthanasia. Nothing good enough will come from this life.

Unrealistic: A harem with countless blonde and redhead girls who worship me. We'd live in a farm that can produce booze, weed and pizza. Gym two times a week and bathing once day is mandatory. 50 yard bedroom, everyone sleeps close. My bed fits 10. Farting is prohibited. Pregnant gets a personal bed. No one but me is allowed to fart in the bedroom. Male babies are sent to orphanage with a inheritance of 50k for college. Girls unhappy can leave, they can get some money. Everything is allowed by the laws.

Don't look me that way you asked

 

[TAW122]

I'd imagine myself grabbing my 12ga shotgun, loading it with 00 buckshot, putting the barrel in my mouth, and squeezing the trigger until the gun goes off and then all my problems end.

 

[Kyrok]

1. Telepathic control of world leaders, reshaping the planet according to my ideals
2. Precognitive powers which allow me to know which set of actions guarantee each of my goals
3. Becoming a Time Lord and adventuring in my Tardis
4. Being a wealthy Lord in England circa 1900
5. Living in a Star Trek like reality
6. Wizard

 

[CornerE]

1. Telepathic control of world leaders, reshaping the planet according to my ideals
2. Precognitive powers which allow me to know which set of actions guarantee each of my goals
3. Becoming a Time Lord and adventuring in my Tardis
4. Being a wealthy Lord in England circa 1900
5. Living in a Star Trek like reality
6. Wizard

The top 3 are close to some of my wishes / fantasies .

 

[NoOneKnows]

Mine is kind of psycho. A day dream I often have is that I end up abandoning my home and leaving behind society with a girl who is just like me. We went on adventures, being free from this society and in the end did a peaceful suicide pact. That's the only realistic fantasy I can dream of nowadays and even that day dream isn't realistic in some parts.

mine is similar to yours , I find it extremely romantic tbh for a loving couple to ctb together, like a suicidal Bonnie & Clyde lol

 

[Anjellnight]

Siempre he fantaseado con ser psicópata ... me ha llamado mucho la atención al saber como se siente asesinar a alguien ... no si eso es un problema implícito ... pero me da mucha curiosidad ...
Ahora fantaseo con morir por pastillas para dormir mientras respiro dioxido de carbono ...

 

[weargon]

My fantasy is that I finally find that button somewhere in my mind and turn off all my emotions and become a super productive and efficient robot. Finishing all my welding projects, sleeping only 2 hours a day, etc.

 

[Bärchen]

A off button for feelings
edit. but i can still love my cats

 

[weargon]

Yes!

 

[GAKitty]

My most realistic fantasy (I don't have many at all) are having myself die in my sleep without feeling anything.

Almost all of my fantasies are unrealistic, but here goes. I wish I could be a normal girl. Not even that attractive or special, just normal... No horrible, debilitating diseases, no crippling social anxieties, no terrible parents, not being rich, but not being poor either, these kinds of things. I would have a boyfriend that I fall in love with, go on dates, hold hands, go on vacations, cuddle together, have a kid, raise them together, stay at home and cook and clean around the house/apartment, grow old together, and die happy together. But I know that none of those things would ever happen, so... just fantasies.

 

[Misanthrope]

The realistic fantasy is simply thinking about the damage killing myself will do. How all the dominoes will fall and the knock-on effects. Which kind of makes me endure. So I fantasise about science making various breakthroughs and being able to reverse the inevitable decline so I don't have to topple those dominoes in the first place. But also not having to wait years for them. I don't really have many positive realistic fantasies.

An unrealistic fantasy is to discover the improbability drive and find myself on a planet of aliens alongside my loved ones. Who have a society based on quality of life and nurturing passion and pursuing fulfillment that are welcoming to immigrants. Where all the little problems are solved because they detract from the greater journey of meaningful experience. I can dream...

 

[Empty Smile]

Becoming Dr. Evil and taking over the world.

Currently accepting applications for Number 2.

 

[Misanthrope]

Becoming Dr. Evil and taking over the world.

Currently accepting applications for Number 2.

As long as you do it with health and safety in mind...

 

[Empty Smile]

As long as you do it with health and safety in mind...

I'm Dr. Evil, not Dr. Makeyoufeelgood......

 

[JadedGray]

I don't have any realistic fantasies other than getting SN or N and being able to CTB. An unrealistic fantasy of mine would be my life getting any better.

 

[seekingoblivion]

My fantasy is getting the courage to hang myself or swallow .458 lead. Don't have much else as far as fantasies. Like I've said before fantasizing about things that make me feel good makes reality that much more painful to experience when I come back to it.

 

[Ivenocare]

Hanging myself or possibly unrealistic: being with my wife in afterlife.

 

[LaBrava]

Lottery win. Been thinking about it a lot recently. Would start travelling around the world and doing all the things I enjoy.

 

[Apostle]

Unrealistic: I find some way to get my life back to where it was a couple of years ago, but handle it better and maintain it.

Realistic: Don't think I have one.

 

[LastFlowers]

Time Machine