Discussion What is the worst thing you've ever done?

[ShellofmyFormerSelf]

As a child I threatened to jump out of windows and hold knives to my neck. I wish I never horrified my parents like that. They didn't deserve it.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me, it is not finding a way to ctb at an earlier age. I should have left when I was younger, but I really should have never been born in the first place. If I left years ago it would have prevented so much suffering. I do not really think that I have done that many horrible things in my life, of course we all do things we regret and make mistakes, but eventually this life will all be forgotten about. Life is so meaningless to me after all.

 

[samishii]

For me, it is not finding a way to ctb at an earlier age. I should have left when I was younger, but I really should have never been born in the first place. If I left years ago it would have prevented so much suffering. I do not really think that I have done that many horrible things in my life, of course we all do things we regret and make mistakes, but eventually this life will all be forgotten about. Life is so meaningless to me after all.

I feel the same way, word to word.
Edit- although I thought something else was the worst i had done a few hours earlier.

 

[ornitier199]

Live

 

[Judy Garland]

I took care of my Grandmother for 3 years, who had Alzheimer's dementia. There were times I was highly abusive and mean. Even times I was physically abusive. I love her so much and I just want to tell her I'm sorry. I wasn't well and I was plagued with depression and heart ache while I took care of her. I did my best, but I know my best wasn't good enough. I love her so much, she's in heaven now and I hope she knows how sorry I am. That I wanted to be the perfect Grandson for her. That I wanted her last chapter to be the best it could be. But I was broken taking care of her. I myself was unwell. That's the worst I've done. Being abusive to a 93 year old woman whom I loved. I wish I could change the past. I wish I could change everything.

 

[sick.faery]

stole 200+ dollars of field trip money from this random kid at school and just generally went through people's bags sometimes and take some of their money, stole the school counsellor's credit card..., gave a sleeping homeless guy razors blades in his cup with a super emo message saying something like "to escape. ps: i'm sorry for you living being so bad :( " (personally don't think that was that bad but i can see why people would think that was extremely shit of me) when i was in high school, and also kinda bullied people a few times when i was a teen too

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I've been a lousy friend to people wasting their time and poisoning relationships