Obligation. Obligation to get my finances together so my family doesn't have to pay out of pocket for things like getting my ashes. I didn't file my taxes last year. Then I had to call and get the w2s from those employers. And I fucjed up by nit depositing a rollover retirement account and now that's going to take 3 weeks to fix when I wanted to ctb this week. I was originally going to leave instructions for them for everything but it's such a pain the ass for me to do that I can't imagine leaving them to sort everything while they are grieving. Plus I have a lot if debt and I want to make sure my family gets what very little I have while the creditors can go fuck themselves, so I have to wait until everything is arranged. Ah, the consequences of my irresponsibility...