What is the most painless way to end my life when I live at my moms apartment and she is paranoid and I don't have much money?

[SanctionedSquad]

I need a way to die now.
I don't have much money but I could get 500€ somehow.
Is there anyway to get an exit bag in germany? Then I could smuggle it to my room and use it when my mother is shopping, right?
I also have a friend who I can deliver it to and he said he could maybe leave me alone sometime over there.
I tried to overdose on opioids but I was found.
I wanted to hang myself but I am too scared.
Nembutal is too expensive and not guaranteed death.
For the exit bag, what exactly would I need and how much does it cost?

 

[missingpeace]

You have to buy an inert gas cylinder (nitrogen/helium/argon), gas regulator and possibly a flow regulator. You have to assemble it all together. Also you have to make an exit bag yourself. It's a little bit technical, most people here just prefer SN but then you would need to have privacy for a whole day to get it done and not be caught.

 

[stoopid]

SN is easy obtainable in Germany, I found 2 sources in 1 search that deliver without any checks.

 

[SanctionedSquad]

SN is easy obtainable in Germany, I found 2 sources in 1 search that deliver without any checks.

How does SN kill?
How much does it cost?
Is it guaranteed?
How fast is it?
Could others hear/see that I am dying?

You have to buy an inert gas cylinder (nitrogen/helium/argon), gas regulator and possibly a flow regulator. You have to assemble it all together. Also you have to make an exit bag yourself. It's a little bit technical, most people here just prefer SN but then you would need to have privacy for a whole day to get it done and not be caught.

How much would that cost?

 

[SanctionedSquad]

Someone gave me an email to someone who sells 30x625mg N capsules for 370€.
He said it will look like sleeping from the outside and I won"t survive, should I try it?
I will buy SN tommorrow.
Do you think I can use it in a forest?
Or do you know any good place I can easily access?
If it is fast I could use it at home.
Maybe in a public toilette?
I will probably do SN but I need a good place.

 

[stoopid]

I wouldn't buy from a random email, I've asked several chinese supplier that sells tons of illegal stuff but N wasn't possible. It's probably a ripoff. But I know for a fact that N is available in germany as a med for pets to prevent seizures. I just recently saw the package.

To the SN, here's a thread with loads of information. I just found the sources but I don't know how good they are, it's lab grade and should be pure and don't know why they should sell fakes as an registered company.

I heard it takes 20-30 minutes to finish, it would be my go to, if I don't get a firearm, it's relatively cheap and I just got my metoclopramid, what prevents from vomiting

 

[SanctionedSquad]

Could you send me the link to the SN thread?

 

[SanctionedSquad]

How loud is it?
I will wsit until I have money to rent a small house and do it there.
In stans guide he listed that you will have severe headaches and seizures, is that preventable by taking benzos so it kills me in my sleep?

 

[exhaustedanonymous]

SN is easy obtainable in Germany, I found 2 sources in 1 search that deliver without any checks.

WHAT can i pm you??

 

[SanctionedSquad]

WHAT can i pm you??

Do a google search, it seems very easy.

 

[exhaustedanonymous]

it seems very easy.

unfortunately it isn't and hasn't been, i don't know what you two are looking at but I haven't found anyone other than IC who delivers to individuals

 

[SanctionedSquad]

unfortunately it isn't and hasn't been, i don't know what you two are looking at but I haven't found anyone other than IC who delivers to individuals

If I go to your profile I just get an error, no way to pm you.

 

[swimmer]

I wouldn't buy from a random email, I've asked several chinese supplier that sells tons of illegal stuff but N wasn't possible. It's probably a ripoff. But I know for a fact that N is available in germany as a med for pets to prevent seizures. I just recently saw the package.

To the SN, here's a thread with loads of information. I just found the sources but I don't know how good they are, it's lab grade and should be pure and don't know why they should sell fakes as an registered company.

I heard it takes 20-30 minutes to finish, it would be my go to, if I don't get a firearm, it's relatively cheap and I just got my metoclopramid, what prevents from vomiting

Hi there can you PM with info on SN? Supplier?

 

[SanctionedSquad]

I did some research and SN seems to feel like suffocating or having an extremely high heart rate before you die and you can even survive it.
I want what feels the nearest to eternal sleep.
If that is not possible I want the least painful method.

 

[exhaustedanonymous]

If I go to your profile I just get an error, no way to pm you.

I think it might be you, I'm not sure you've reached enough messages to PM someone. Have you been private messaging other people? I've been in a couple so I don't see why it wouldn't work

 

[anguila_anguila]

I did some research and SN seems to feel like suffocating or having an extremely high heart rate before you die and you can even survive it.
I want what feels the nearest to eternal sleep.
If that is not possible I want the least painful method.

That's why people take it in combination with other drugs, to combat these effects.
If you have a search on here, there is an a full description by someone who witnessed what happened to their friend over video call while she took SN.

I already read stans guide but I will probably stil lfeel uncomfortable even if I take the drugs or will it just feel like sleeping then?

I can't say for sure. I guess no one who is alive can.
The other drugs will dampen the feelings, but you won't exactly be asleep because from what I've read on here, it takes about 10minutes for the SN to work. Not exactly enough time to fall asleep after having to be conscious enough to take it.
Everyone will respond slightly differently too, so whereas some people vomited a lot, others didn't.
On the other hand, I don't truly believe any method would be completely peaceful, and to some degree it seems like the more "peaceful" a method is, the more risk of it failing.

 

[SanctionedSquad]

That's why people take it in combination with other drugs, to combat these effects.
If you have a search on here, there is an a full description by someone who witnessed what happened to their friend over video call while she took SN.

I can't say for sure. I guess no one who is alive can.
The other drugs will dampen the feelings, but you won't exactly be asleep because from what I've read on here, it takes about 10minutes for the SN to work. Not exactly enough time to fall asleep after having to be conscious enough to take it.
Everyone will respond slightly differently too, so whereas some people vomited a lot, others didn't.
On the other hand, I don't truly believe any method would be completely peaceful, and to some degree it seems like the more "peaceful" a method is, the more risk of it failing.

For Stans guide, there is no way to get beta blockers without perscription.
The only anti emetic I can get otc is dph.
I can't find the description of the video.
What if I took like 4ml of gbl after drinking the SN? Wouldn't that put me to sleep?
I already tried to overdose on 1 gram of insufflated heroin and 4mg xanax, it was very peaceful but I survived easily cause my mother fond me.
I am very poor so it could take some months and then I can rent a house and smuggle all the things to there. My Mother would have to drive me cause I have no car.
I have severe depression, insomnia (1 hour sleep a day), severe social anxiety, need to visit a psycvhatry everyday which is not a nice place in my opinion and I just want to know how I could end it.
I am very sensible to pain, I can endure stomach pain from eating to much but not much more.

 

[stoopid]

I did some research and SN seems to feel like suffocating or having an extremely high heart rate before you die and you can even survive it.
I want what feels the nearest to eternal sleep.
If that is not possible I want the least painful method.

it's not that expensive, just take more.

Metoclopramid is easy to get from the doc say migraines and list them the over the
counter meds that don't work, I just got them few days ago exactly like that

If I order it the next time I will post the source, pls don't DM me until then for sources because I don't know, I just saw several and fill out the form doesn't seem complicated, because they just need it that you need it, for your hobby,

 

[SanctionedSquad]

it's not that expensive, just take more.

Metoclopramid is easy to get from the doc say migraines and list them the over the
counter meds that don't work, I just got them few days ago exactly like that

If I order it the next time I will post the source, pls don't DM me until then for sources because I don't know, I just saw several and fill out the form doesn't seem complicated, because they just need it that you need it, for your hobby,

But even with that it seems quite painful and I can still survive it right?
I don't have any money or job at all so I have to wait 1 year and 5 months, then my mother let's me maybe rent a house for a vacation, my plan is to kill me there, it has to work, it is my only chance.
Is it guaranteed to die from SN if I dose 25g and don't call emergency?

I think it might be you, I'm not sure you've reached enough messages to PM someone. Have you been private messaging other people? I've been in a couple so I don't see why it wouldn't work

How many messages do I need to do that?

it's not that expensive, just take more.

Metoclopramid is easy to get from the doc say migraines and list them the over the
counter meds that don't work, I just got them few days ago exactly like that

If I order it the next time I will post the source, pls don't DM me until then for sources because I don't know, I just saw several and fill out the form doesn't seem complicated, because they just need it that you need it, for your hobby,

How does it feel compared to stomach pain from eating too much?
I don't know why but I am afraid of extreme pain.
Many say that it feels like suffocating which would be hell for me.

 

[stoopid]

But even with that it seems quite painful and I can still survive it right?

How does it feel compared to stomach pain from eating too much?
I don't know why but I am afraid of extreme pain.
Many say that it feels like suffocating which would be hell for me.

As you see, I'm alive. I don't know I just know from others, that are obviously dead, it works indeed well, cases of surviving are mostly due to bad quality product that is nitrate instead of nitrite, or they were simply found by others, or too small dosages, I would buy atleast 50g and take all instead of 12g or such small dose


With luck you pass put before noticing something, maybe add some Valium or something

 

[SanctionedSquad]

As you see, I'm alive. I don't know I just know from others, that are obviously dead, it works indeed well, cases of surviving are mostly due to bad quality product that is nitrate instead of nitrite, or they were simply found by others, or too small dosages, I would buy atleast 50g and take all instead of 12g or such small dose


With luck you pass put before noticing something, maybe add some Valium or something

I am heavy so do you think 25g will do it?
How likely is it to kill me compared to opioids and how painful was it for you?

 

[stoopid]

I am heavy so do you think 25g will do it?
How likely is it to kill me compared to opioids and how painful was it for you?

Bro im not dead i can't tell which death was more painful because I'm alive

 

[SanctionedSquad]

Bro im not dead i can't tell which death was more painful because I'm alive

I mean how it felt for you, you said you tried it.
I would thank you very much if you would give the information so I know what I have to change.

 

[freelifexit]

Some SN cases are painful, some cases are discomforting, some cases are peaceful. Everybody reacts different.

Here you can find information about painful and peaceful cases and symptoms.

 

[SanctionedSquad]

What about the night night method, can I do that at home easily without my mother knowing?
That sounds better than drinking poison.
Is that painful?
I don't understand at all how nigh night works but it seems like the best option for now and it is extremely cheap.
My mom said if I will ever be braindead she will keep me from the machines so being brain dead doesn't matter.

 

[freelifexit]

What about the night night method

Somebody posted video here of a guy died from night night. But usually it's hard to succeed, and there is also chance of blocking ratchet mechanism after tightening.
Here is such failed night night cases:
Thread 'I attempted suicide by ratchet strap (night night) and failed. Be warned.'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...strap-night-night-and-failed-be-warned.73271/

Post in thread 'Night night questions'
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/night-night-questions.105617/post-1895563

 

[SanctionedSquad]

What method could I do at home then?

 

[SanctionedSquad]

What about fentanyl mixed with benzos?
Is this better than SN?
On a dnm someone sells 20x100mg capsules of N for 100usd, maybe I will wait until my mother has the money.
In 1 year and 5 months I can get the money from my dead grandma. Then I should have 2600, I will use 600 to rent a house for 2 days to do it.
With the other money I can buy N, that would be 30g nembutal in capsules, I would be dead then, right?
Should I open the capsules and dissolve it in water or can I also take them like they are?

 

[SanctionedSquad]

I got it wrong, he sells phenobarbital capsules not phentobarbital.
Would that make any difference or would it be the same as real N?

 

[freelifexit]

Phenobarbital is also barbiturate but can take up to 3 days to die, there is case when someone ingested 16g and survived.