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Morris1211

Student
Nov 29, 2025
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What method would you choose to CTB and why?
 
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elenaboo25

Student
Oct 19, 2025
132
Ideally I am hoping to get approved for assisted dying/euthanasia.
Failing that, probably SN if I can get my hands on it.
Otherwise I might have to take the train.
 
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Morris1211

Student
Nov 29, 2025
145
Ideally I am hoping to get approved for assisted dying/euthanasia.
Failing that, probably SN if I can get my hands on it.
Otherwise I might have to take the train.
It would be nice if we could go peacefully and with dignity but most countries deny us that right for mental illness.

By taking the train do you mean getting hit by a train?
 
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elenaboo25

Student
Oct 19, 2025
132
It would be nice if we could go peacefully and with dignity but most countries deny us that right for mental illness.

By taking the train do you mean getting hit by a train?
Well, I have been informed today that the psychiatrist I had for the past two years, and actually did make a tiny amount of progress with, will stop working at the end of April. I will try to convince the next one that I am beyond helping and ought to be allowed to die.

Yes, by taking the train I do mean getting hit by it. But that is my last choice, as I know it would traumatise the train driver.
 
BillyBob

BillyBob

Experienced
Jun 14, 2018
218
Will be SN for this coming attempt.
If that fails then I will be doing a mixture of methods of Yew Tea and CO.
There is also the other option of H2S. (Worried about this one as it is so deadly to others getting close since hazmat needs to clean the mess up)
 
VampireDead

VampireDead

longing for that sweet embrace
Jan 6, 2026
3
I think I might hang myself if I do make the decision to ctb, I know it's not the most peaceful method but I live in the uk where there isn't any chance I'm getting my hands on a gun, and it seems they've cracked down on SN here, making it difficult to acquire. From what I've read on (full suspension) hanging so far it seems that it would take under 20 seconds to lose consciousness so while it would be agonising at least it wouldn't last very long, then maybe I could be at peace
 
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amor.dor

Autistic
Dec 24, 2025
351
  1. Hanging – It's not strangulation, but rather a drop from the correct height. If done right, it's instantly fatal.
  2. SN – The most likely one. Takes a few minutes, and I already have everything prepared.
  3. N – The method my partner used. One sip means death in 1 minute. But I'm still trying to get it.
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
552
Firearms. Because I can't use any other methods considering my health conditions. And firearms are the most reliable and convenient. You can't go back once you start. It's the fastest method. With the least agony according to lostallhope.com. Although I have some doubts about that lol
 
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Morris1211

Student
Nov 29, 2025
145
Firearms. Because I can't use any other methods considering my health conditions. And firearms are the most reliable and convenient. You can't go back once you start. It's the fastest method. With the least agony according to lostallhope.com. Although I have some doubts about that lol
I'd like firearms too since euthanasia isn't available for people like us unfortunately.
 
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anomic

anomic

A single angel can make a world of demons bearable
Dec 13, 2025
57
What method would you choose to CTB and why?
My priority at the moment is partial hanging as I've found reasonable success with it. If that fails I'll probably go with hanging. My last last resort is reducing Sodium Nitrate (NaNO3) to Sodium Nitrite (NaNO2)
 
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Morris1211

Student
Nov 29, 2025
145
  1. Hanging – It's not strangulation, but rather a drop from the correct height. If done right, it's instantly fatal.
  2. SN – The most likely one. Takes a few minutes, and I already have everything prepared.
  3. N – The method my partner used. One sip means death in 1 minute. But I'm still trying to get it.
I wish I could get N
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,623
For me it'd be a death as painless and guaranteed as possible, I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific, dreadful world where humans have made it illegal to die painlessly, all I want is a method like Nembutal, I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this torturous, painful and deeply undesirable existence ever again.

It's just such horrific extreme cruelty to me how humans impose this dreadful existence onto others that just causes all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured yet do all they can to make it so humans suffer for as much as long as possible, anti-suicide is so evil to me, it just causes so much more harm and suffering, the fact that I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently to escape from the suffering and torture of existing is such a terrible crime to me.
 
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SleeplessAndSad

SleeplessAndSad

I‘m trying but someone stole my manual for life
Jan 1, 2026
66
Ideally I am hoping to get approved for assisted dying/euthanasia.
Failing that, probably SN if I can get my hands on it.
Otherwise I might have to take the train.
Assisted death would be my favorite too but it's extremely unlikely i would get that.

So jumping would be mine but from like really really high, just to make sure.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,458
I don't even know anymore. I have a fsh setup but never attempt. Not thrilled to get a gun but that's probably my fate.
 
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hypoxiaated

hypoxiaated

lord of the flies
Dec 16, 2025
2
i planned to ctb before the new year's with sn but it was discovered by my family and i am kinda on a timer. so this is the best i could come up with.

basically, i am simultaneously ingesting:

3.5 mg xanax
4 mg lorazepam
80 mg meto
150 ml benadryl

i have seen the thread that says od's are not guaranteed in the best of times, so please do not just throw that at me. hope to gods above and below that it works
 
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Steph99

Member
Aug 29, 2025
97
Either partial or full hanging. I've practised enough so that I can eventually find the sweet spot and it's a non messy method.
 
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InevitableDeath

InevitableDeath

Already Dead
Jan 4, 2026
292
One that's certain. Anyone who's failed attempts knows that horror and there is no fucking way am going through that again. This time I have backups and backups.
 
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Morris1211

Student
Nov 29, 2025
145
One that's certain. Anyone who's failed attempts knows that horror and there is no fucking way am going through that again. This time I have backups and backups.
What was your failed attempt?
Either partial or full hanging. I've practised enough so that I can eventually find the sweet spot and it's a non messy method.
Is it hard to find the sweet spot? Do you know where you'll do it for FSH? What knot are you using for the noose?
 
whocaresnobodycares

whocaresnobodycares

Member
Feb 27, 2025
27
Ideally, a high-caliber short revolver with a hollow-head/ dum dum bullet.
I don't have a gun, or much money.
People say it's risky... but I always think of that Vietcong guy (I mean, if he was indeed guilty, seeing as there wasn't much of a trial) in Hue who was shot dead in the street on camera. He's clearly dead before he hits the ground. Now, I'm not saying that was "humane," and like I said they didn't exactly give him due process, nor did I think the US should've been in the Nam War.... but forgetting the "who, what, where, when" and getting right to the nuts and bolts of "how" to have a quick, painless death, that was pretty freakin quick and easy.
 
WereHere...

WereHere...

Member
Jan 26, 2026
27
  1. Hanging – It's not strangulation, but rather a drop from the correct height. If done right, it's instantly fatal.
  2. SN – The most likely one. Takes a few minutes, and I already have everything prepared.
  3. N – The method my partner used. One sip means death in 1 minute. But I'm still trying to get it.
Hanging is not a good idea if you survive = vegetable..... partial hanging if done right with a good knot = your blood supply stays cut off and you wont wake up + its not a very painful method, similair to being choked out in martial arts, it takes 5 seconds ish of a pressure building feeling then you just black out (im speaking from experience as somone whos been choked out in mma and jiu jitus many times)
 
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amor.dor

amor.dor

Autistic
Dec 24, 2025
351
Hanging is not a good idea if you survive = vegetable..... partial hanging if done right with a good knot = your blood supply stays cut off and you wont wake up + its not a very painful method, similair to being choked out in martial arts, it takes 5 seconds ish of a pressure building feeling then you just black out (im speaking from experience as somone whos been choked out in mma and jiu jitus many times)
Thanks, I'll discard that method; I always thought it was very sinister too.
 
WereHere...

WereHere...

Member
Jan 26, 2026
27
Assisted death would be my favorite too but it's extremely unlikely i would get that.

So jumping would be mine but from like really really high, just to make sure.
Jumping isnt a good method i just wanna warn you that there is a high risk of surviving and then being disabled forever, unless you land perfectly on your head it risks a very slow and horrible death. There are much better methods jumping is a bad idea.
 
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whoisit

At peace for now
Jan 25, 2026
43
SN if I finally can find the seller. I want to die in my own bed that's what I truly desire.
 
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WereHere...

Member
Jan 26, 2026
27
For me it'd be a death as painless and guaranteed as possible, I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific, dreadful world where humans have made it illegal to die painlessly, all I want is a method like Nembutal, I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this torturous, painful and deeply undesirable existence ever again.

It's just such horrific extreme cruelty to me how humans impose this dreadful existence onto others that just causes all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured yet do all they can to make it so humans suffer for as much as long as possible, anti-suicide is so evil to me, it just causes so much more harm and suffering, the fact that I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently to escape from the suffering and torture of existing is such a terrible crime to me.
Yeah its quite messed up, i mean we were born here without our consent and then on top of that its not as easy as "just leave then or ctb" because by the time you stop being a baby and get a conscious mind you already have aquired:
consequences (e.g. other people affected) , things to lose AND a survival instinct that tries to stop you from leaving. So you get brought here, given tons of responsibilities and pain ---> then its hard to leave cus of reasons listed.

On top of that, ctb is painful... so were brought here without consent and then made to feel pointless unneeded pain if we wanna leave? Its horrible. The same way people have the right to live i believe people have the right to ctb.

And dont you find It appaling how many countries made ctb illegall? I mean what are they gonna do? Stop somone? I mean if they survive then yeah but i think making ctb illegall is just stupid, they wanna make people stay so they can milk them for their money and labor even more. If somome does ctb then the system cant profit off them... i completely agree with you. ✅
I think I might hang myself if I do make the decision to ctb, I know it's not the most peaceful method but I live in the uk where there isn't any chance I'm getting my hands on a gun, and it seems they've cracked down on SN here, making it difficult to acquire. From what I've read on (full suspension) hanging so far it seems that it would take under 20 seconds to lose consciousness so while it would be agonising at least it wouldn't last very long, then maybe I could be at peace
Hey hanging is a very bad method.....hanging takes longer ---> breaks your neck ---> if you srivive it = disabled + maybe brain damage.
It can very well turn you into a vegtable and fails often. Look into partial hanging, it is a better method since:
1. Its not too painful
2. Takes 5 seconds ish
3. Once you pass out you wont wake up no matter what
if you have ever trained a martial art and have been choked out before you would understand that it feels similair to a pressure building feeling in the head and then after 5 seconds you pass out.
Partial hanging replicates this. Partial hanging using a slip knot like in fishing or a similair knot results in a similair effect to being choked out in martial arts.
 
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fallen.dove

fallen.dove

hopeless ☆.࣪⋆
Jan 24, 2026
56
if someone tells me where should i order a gun then i would just do it. if not, ill probably try to hang myself (partially ig) or ill just kiss a tree with my car when i get my license. i hope im gonna pass the driving test next week..im so stressed
 
SleeplessAndSad

SleeplessAndSad

I‘m trying but someone stole my manual for life
Jan 1, 2026
66
Jumping isnt a good method i just wanna warn you that there is a high risk of surviving and then being disabled forever, unless you land perfectly on your head it risks a very slow and horrible death. There are much better methods jumping is a bad idea.
I think it would be fine if done from high enough. Like a few hundred meters. There is basically no chance of survival.
But i don't think i could do it… thinking of other methods now…
 
WereHere...

WereHere...

Member
Jan 26, 2026
27
I think it would be fine if done from high enough. Like a few hundred meters. There is basically no chance of survival.
But i don't think i could do it… thinking of other methods now…
Do some research on partial hanging....
--> normal hanging is very bad and can break your neck + you might survive
....read about it tho...its similair to a martial arts choke...you can still somewhat breathe but the lack of blood makes you simply pass out without much pain...ive been choked out in mma and it didnt hurt ever....it always feels good and fuzzy and weird when you wake up...
Contrary to popular belief... getting choked like in mma or partial hanging doesnt cut off your breathing....it simply makes it feel like pressure is building in your head due to no blood and then boom sudden loss of consiousness....

Because partial hanging uses a slip knot or a similair knot that tightens around ones neck.... if you would wanna experience a similair ish feeling safely, you could go and sign up to an mma or jiu jitsu gym and ask to be choked out or....dont tap out for 5 seconds while in a choke until you suddenly pass out and go limp...
it happens allll the time in mma and combat sports/ martial arts and many people will tell you alot of chokes dont hurt
And getting choked out in martial arts is relatively harmless when others let go. Doesnt lead to brain damage so its a good way to understand the sensation.

Long story short try researching a little about partial hanging / how chokes in combat sports work / feel
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,587
@WereHere... I think most of us interested in hanging graduate from partial to full. It sounds so nice to just ease into being choked but when you can stand up at any time you just don't go through with it.
 
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T22222222

Student
Feb 3, 2026
116
Jumping isnt a good method i just wanna warn you that there is a high risk of surviving and then being disabled forever, unless you land perfectly on your head it risks a very slow and horrible death. There are much better methods jumping is a bad idea.
not really if it is high enough. How do you think jumping of a 45 floor building will let you survive for any amount of time more than a few seconds?
 

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