Hellish Ore
Mould on bread
- Nov 5, 2023
- 82
Nothing in this world hurts me as much as my happy memories. To think that I will never get the chance to replicate the joy I once felt is unbearable.
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EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 5,158
Rocinante
My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
- Aug 26, 2022
- 1,469
Serial Experi Pain
I hate me more :P
- Sep 12, 2023
- 126
People giving me hope and abandoning me.
Me opening up to people and them using the things that hurt me most against me.
The fact that I don't fit in anywhere, no one really understands what its like to expect the worst and be right every time, and then on top of it the same people who told me "not to worry and that things would get better" then minimize all of it.
Gl1tch3d G1rl
My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
- Aug 10, 2021
- 1,421
Myself. I'm my worst nightmare and I have yet to figure out how to change that.
innominesatanas44
🇷🇸
- Feb 16, 2023
- 165
Kindness. It seems cruel to me that its expected to be kind to someone suffering. For ex., if I had a terminal illness, I'd rather be told I'll die, come to terms with it and accept it, and if I survive, be pleasantly surprised, instead of being told that "You will make it!" deluding myself of the future I will have, the places I will see and experiences I could have, only to die anyways.
Even in a normal everyday situation I would rather not be given hope in human beings
333s
Member
- Jan 31, 2024
- 49
current impossibility of experiencing the real intimacy between people. something like symbiosis with neuro elements. global ego death is my sweetest dream and lack of connection is the worst nightmare.
although at the moment my palate really hurts
i think it's rather egoistical hypocrisy and lie than actual kindness. i think it would be more kind not to talk about future with someone sentenced to death
innominesatanas44
🇷🇸
- Feb 16, 2023
- 165
Anything good that a human person does to me is a lie. Life is simpler in black and white instead of rainbow
kinderbueno
Waiting at the bus stop
- Jun 22, 2024
- 261
Thinking about how happy I was with my ex
bed
CTBed
- Aug 24, 2019
- 921
chronic illness/pain taking away most of my life. it changed everything for me and i lost a lot.
azo
Wizard
- Jun 20, 2023
- 673
Most of the time I'm too numb to feel much of anything. But when I'm in a pit it's the loneliness that hurts most.
mikgazer6
No existence, no problem
- Jul 1, 2024
- 150
Injustice and expectationsHaving to wait 3 more years for the next season of Fallout (not that I will see it)... But in all seriousness, my shit show mental health.
doingitrighthistime
on my way out
- May 15, 2024
- 44
I avoid thinking about these kinds of things... They're in every breath I take, but I don't want to actively think about it them. One of the reasons I'm here...Last edited:
BojackHorseman
The View From Halfway Down
- Feb 8, 2023
- 149
Same
I feel like all I do is ruin everything I touch. I make people's lives worse for being around, and I absolutely hate and despise myself for it.Last edited:
Propranolol, riztriptan, anti-anxiety meds, antihistamines, dehydration, light sensitivity, (Although yet to have cure or be taken seriously for that.) sunglasses, day sunglasses, blue light glasses, breaks with eye mask, ice packs, caffeine withdrawal? Just some stuff I've tried. Have yet to be given an mri. Supposed to get blood work done that's other than my vitamin B & D
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 5,158
The only thing that works for me is sleep. It's hard to fall asleep but once I do it starts to go away by the time I wake up. I used to get migraines a lot between grades 5 to 6. I tried using the pain meds the doctors had prescribed me once but I immediately threw them up. Thankfully, I don't get them anywhere near as often anymore and when I do they aren't as severe. Just once in a bluemoon. The last one I had was several months ago but I caught onto to it early enough and went to sleep.Propranolol, riztriptan, anti-anxiety meds, antihistamines, dehydration, light sensitivity, (Although yet to have cure or be taken seriously for that.) sunglasses, day sunglasses, blue light glasses, breaks with eye mask, ice packs, caffeine withdrawal? Just some stuff I've tried. Have yet to be given an mri. Supposed to get blood work done that's other than my vitamin B & D
Never got an mri or needed rx glasses? I only started getting them as an adult
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 5,158
WhiteRabbit
I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
- Feb 12, 2019
- 1,796
Various parts of my body and the life that I lost due to sickness.
ColorlessTrees
Stuck
- Jan 4, 2022
- 297
Unexplained misery soup of my body's various dysfunctions. Food is in second place but that's ultimately caused by my health anyway. Exhausting, disabling, and the lid on the bucket of moral failings I try to crawl out of occassionally.
Other than that, emotional flatlining. There's nothing I hate more than nothing. Having experienced both so frequently, I'd rather feel too strongly, pain or pleasure, than feel nothing at all.
buyersremorse
useless
- Feb 16, 2023
- 64
the thought of my parents suffering after i go is the one thing that kills me more than anything.
enduringwinter
flower, water
- Jun 20, 2024
- 368
Currently I hurt myself the most in a non-conscious compulsive sort of way, a lot of self-sabotage
Gl1tch3d G1rl
My mom must've had a virus coz I was born a glitch
- Aug 10, 2021
- 1,421
Me too, but I also feel like I ruin myself too. Ruining others often ends in ruining yourself also yk, and I'm also impulsive af.
Agree!
A lot of things, low self esteem and self worth, health issues, past trauma, feeling I don't deserve anything which has impacted my growth overall. Imposter syndromeLast edited:
BojackHorseman
The View From Halfway Down
- Feb 8, 2023
- 149
My husband of course tells me its not true, but I feel alot of times hes just saying that because hes my husband and hes stuck with me. Like I look back at stuff Ive said and done and I remember the look on his face and it just confirms my belief that he would have been better off marrying someone kind and normal instead of me.
