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Hellish Ore

Hellish Ore

Mould on bread
Nov 5, 2023
73
Nothing in this world hurts me as much as my happy memories. To think that I will never get the chance to replicate the joy I once felt is unbearable.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
1,947
Migraines.
 
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Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,346
Missed youth
 
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Serial Experi Pain

Serial Experi Pain

I hate me more :P
Sep 12, 2023
80
People giving me hope and abandoning me.
Me opening up to people and them using the things that hurt me most against me.
The fact that I don't fit in anywhere, no one really understands what its like to expect the worst and be right every time, and then on top of it the same people who told me "not to worry and that things would get better" then minimize all of it.
 
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Silent_cries

Silent_cries

I wish I could delete my trauma...
Aug 10, 2021
1,031
Myself. I'm my worst nightmare and I have yet to figure out how to change that.
 
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innominesatanas44

innominesatanas44

🇷🇸
Feb 16, 2023
163
Kindness. It seems cruel to me that its expected to be kind to someone suffering. For ex., if I had a terminal illness, I'd rather be told I'll die, come to terms with it and accept it, and if I survive, be pleasantly surprised, instead of being told that "You will make it!" deluding myself of the future I will have, the places I will see and experiences I could have, only to die anyways.

Even in a normal everyday situation I would rather not be given hope in human beings
 
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333s

333s

Member
Jan 31, 2024
47
current impossibility of experiencing the real intimacy between people. something like symbiosis with neuro elements. global ego death is my sweetest dream and lack of connection is the worst nightmare.

although at the moment my palate really hurts
i think it's rather egoistical hypocrisy and lie than actual kindness. i think it would be more kind not to talk about future with someone sentenced to death
 
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innominesatanas44

innominesatanas44

🇷🇸
Feb 16, 2023
163
current impossibility of experiencing the real intimacy between people. something like symbiosis with neuro elements. global ego death is my sweetest dream and lack of connection is the worst nightmare.

although at the moment my palate really hurts

i think it's rather egoistical hypocrisy and lie than actual kindness. i think it would be more kind not to talk about future with someone sentenced to death
Anything good that a human person does to me is a lie. Life is simpler in black and white instead of rainbow
 
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kinderbueno

Waiting at the bus stop
Jun 22, 2024
37
Thinking about how happy I was with my ex
 
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bed

bed

Global Mod
Aug 24, 2019
876
chronic illness/pain taking away most of my life. it changed everything for me and i lost a lot.
 
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jar-baby

jar-baby

Arcanist
Jun 20, 2023
443
Most of the time I'm too numb to feel much of anything. But when I'm in a pit it's the loneliness that hurts most.
 
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mikgazer6

mikgazer6

student
Jul 1, 2024
30
Injustice and expectations
 
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lacrimosa

lacrimosa

Student
Jul 1, 2024
114
Having to wait 3 more years for the next season of Fallout (not that I will see it)... But in all seriousness, my shit show mental health.
 
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doingitrighthistime

doingitrighthistime

on my way out
May 15, 2024
43
Not being loved back.
 
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DefinitelyReady

DefinitelyReady

Life is definitely not a song...
Mar 14, 2024
888
I avoid thinking about these kinds of things... They're in every breath I take, but I don't want to actively think about it them. One of the reasons I'm here...
 
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BojackHorseman

BojackHorseman

The View From Halfway Down
Feb 8, 2023
126
Myself. I'm my worst nightmare and I have yet to figure out how to change that.
Same

I feel like all I do is ruin everything I touch. I make people's lives worse for being around, and I absolutely hate and despise myself for it.
 
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DefinitelyReady

DefinitelyReady

Life is definitely not a song...
Mar 14, 2024
888
Same

I feel like all I do is ruin everything I touch. I make people's lives worse for being around, and I absolutely hate and despise myself for it.
Ha! Realistically you prob only think you do...
 
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teniralc21

Member
Nov 18, 2023
20
Lack of meaningful connections.
 
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DefinitelyReady

DefinitelyReady

Life is definitely not a song...
Mar 14, 2024
888
Migraines.
Propranolol, riztriptan, anti-anxiety meds, antihistamines, dehydration, light sensitivity, (Although yet to have cure or be taken seriously for that.) sunglasses, day sunglasses, blue light glasses, breaks with eye mask, ice packs, caffeine withdrawal? Just some stuff I've tried. Have yet to be given an mri. Supposed to get blood work done that's other than my vitamin B & D🙄
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
1,947
Propranolol, riztriptan, anti-anxiety meds, antihistamines, dehydration, light sensitivity, (Although yet to have cure or be taken seriously for that.) sunglasses, day sunglasses, blue light glasses, breaks with eye mask, ice packs, caffeine withdrawal? Just some stuff I've tried. Have yet to be given an mri. Supposed to get blood work done that's other than my vitamin B & D🙄
The only thing that works for me is sleep. It's hard to fall asleep but once I do it starts to go away by the time I wake up. I used to get migraines a lot between grades 5 to 6. I tried using the pain meds the doctors had prescribed me once but I immediately threw them up. Thankfully, I don't get them anywhere near as often anymore and when I do they aren't as severe. Just once in a bluemoon. The last one I had was several months ago but I caught onto to it early enough and went to sleep.
 
DefinitelyReady

DefinitelyReady

Life is definitely not a song...
Mar 14, 2024
888
The only thing that works for me is sleep. It's hard to fall asleep but once I do it starts to go away by the time I wake up. I used to get migraines a lot between grades 5 to 6. I tried using the pain meds the doctors had prescribed me once but I immediately threw them up. Thankfully, I don't get them anywhere near as often anymore and when I do they aren't as severe. Just once in a bluemoon. The last one I had was several months ago but I caught onto to it early enough and went to sleep.
Never got an mri or needed rx glasses? I only started getting them as an adult
 
WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,284
Various parts of my body and the life that I lost due to sickness.
 
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ColorlessTrees

ColorlessTrees

Stuck
Jan 4, 2022
256
Unexplained misery soup of my body's various dysfunctions. Food is in second place but that's ultimately caused by my health anyway. Exhausting, disabling, and the lid on the bucket of moral failings I try to crawl out of occassionally.

Other than that, emotional flatlining. There's nothing I hate more than nothing. Having experienced both so frequently, I'd rather feel too strongly, pain or pleasure, than feel nothing at all.
 
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buyersremorse

buyersremorse

useless
Feb 16, 2023
61
the thought of my parents suffering after i go is the one thing that kills me more than anything.
 
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enduringwinter

enduringwinter

flower, water
Jun 20, 2024
113
My immediate reality. Always
 
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wCvML2

Member
Nov 15, 2021
283
Currently I hurt myself the most in a non-conscious compulsive sort of way, a lot of self-sabotage
 
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Silent_cries

Silent_cries

I wish I could delete my trauma...
Aug 10, 2021
1,031
Same

I feel like all I do is ruin everything I touch. I make people's lives worse for being around, and I absolutely hate and despise myself for it.
Me too, but I also feel like I ruin myself too. Ruining others often ends in ruining yourself also yk, and I'm also impulsive af.
 
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SMmetalhead36

Ready to have my forever date with suicide
Oct 6, 2023
297
People giving me hope and abandoning me.
Me opening up to people and them using the things that hurt me most against me.
The fact that I don't fit in anywhere, no one really understands what its like to expect the worst and be right every time, and then on top of it the same people who told me "not to worry and that things would get better" then minimize all of it.
Agree!
A lot of things, low self esteem and self worth, health issues, past trauma, feeling I don't deserve anything which has impacted my growth overall. Imposter syndrome
 
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BojackHorseman

BojackHorseman

The View From Halfway Down
Feb 8, 2023
126
Ha! Realistically you prob only think you do...
My husband of course tells me its not true, but I feel alot of times hes just saying that because hes my husband and hes stuck with me. Like I look back at stuff Ive said and done and I remember the look on his face and it just confirms my belief that he would have been better off marrying someone kind and normal instead of me.
 
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