What hurts you the most?

[Hellish Ore]

Nothing in this world hurts me as much as my happy memories. To think that I will never get the chance to replicate the joy I once felt is unbearable.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Migraines.

 

[Rocinante]

Missed youth

 

[Serial Experi Pain]

People giving me hope and abandoning me.
Me opening up to people and them using the things that hurt me most against me.
The fact that I don't fit in anywhere, no one really understands what its like to expect the worst and be right every time, and then on top of it the same people who told me "not to worry and that things would get better" then minimize all of it.

 

[Silent_cries]

Myself. I'm my worst nightmare and I have yet to figure out how to change that.

 

[innominesatanas44]

Kindness. It seems cruel to me that its expected to be kind to someone suffering. For ex., if I had a terminal illness, I'd rather be told I'll die, come to terms with it and accept it, and if I survive, be pleasantly surprised, instead of being told that "You will make it!" deluding myself of the future I will have, the places I will see and experiences I could have, only to die anyways.

Even in a normal everyday situation I would rather not be given hope in human beings

 

[333s]

current impossibility of experiencing the real intimacy between people. something like symbiosis with neuro elements. global ego death is my sweetest dream and lack of connection is the worst nightmare.

although at the moment my palate really hurts

Kindness

i think it's rather egoistical hypocrisy and lie than actual kindness. i think it would be more kind not to talk about future with someone sentenced to death

 

[innominesatanas44]

current impossibility of experiencing the real intimacy between people. something like symbiosis with neuro elements. global ego death is my sweetest dream and lack of connection is the worst nightmare.

although at the moment my palate really hurts

i think it's rather egoistical hypocrisy and lie than actual kindness. i think it would be more kind not to talk about future with someone sentenced to death

Anything good that a human person does to me is a lie. Life is simpler in black and white instead of rainbow

 

[kinderbueno]

Thinking about how happy I was with my ex

 

[bed]

chronic illness/pain taking away most of my life. it changed everything for me and i lost a lot.

 

[jar-baby]

Most of the time I'm too numb to feel much of anything. But when I'm in a pit it's the loneliness that hurts most.

 

[mikgazer6]

Injustice and expectations

 

[lacrimosa]

Having to wait 3 more years for the next season of Fallout (not that I will see it)... But in all seriousness, my shit show mental health.

 

[doingitrighthistime]

Not being loved back.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

I avoid thinking about these kinds of things... They're in every breath I take, but I don't want to actively think about it them. One of the reasons I'm here...

 

[BojackHorseman]

Myself. I'm my worst nightmare and I have yet to figure out how to change that.

Same

I feel like all I do is ruin everything I touch. I make people's lives worse for being around, and I absolutely hate and despise myself for it.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Same

I feel like all I do is ruin everything I touch. I make people's lives worse for being around, and I absolutely hate and despise myself for it.

Ha! Realistically you prob only think you do...

 

[teniralc21]

Lack of meaningful connections.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Migraines.

Propranolol, riztriptan, anti-anxiety meds, antihistamines, dehydration, light sensitivity, (Although yet to have cure or be taken seriously for that.) sunglasses, day sunglasses, blue light glasses, breaks with eye mask, ice packs, caffeine withdrawal? Just some stuff I've tried. Have yet to be given an mri. Supposed to get blood work done that's other than my vitamin B & D

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Propranolol, riztriptan, anti-anxiety meds, antihistamines, dehydration, light sensitivity, (Although yet to have cure or be taken seriously for that.) sunglasses, day sunglasses, blue light glasses, breaks with eye mask, ice packs, caffeine withdrawal? Just some stuff I've tried. Have yet to be given an mri. Supposed to get blood work done that's other than my vitamin B & D

The only thing that works for me is sleep. It's hard to fall asleep but once I do it starts to go away by the time I wake up. I used to get migraines a lot between grades 5 to 6. I tried using the pain meds the doctors had prescribed me once but I immediately threw them up. Thankfully, I don't get them anywhere near as often anymore and when I do they aren't as severe. Just once in a bluemoon. The last one I had was several months ago but I caught onto to it early enough and went to sleep.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

The only thing that works for me is sleep. It's hard to fall asleep but once I do it starts to go away by the time I wake up. I used to get migraines a lot between grades 5 to 6. I tried using the pain meds the doctors had prescribed me once but I immediately threw them up. Thankfully, I don't get them anywhere near as often anymore and when I do they aren't as severe. Just once in a bluemoon. The last one I had was several months ago but I caught onto to it early enough and went to sleep.

Never got an mri or needed rx glasses? I only started getting them as an adult

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Never got an mri or needed rx glasses? I only started getting them as an adult

Nope.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Various parts of my body and the life that I lost due to sickness.

 

[ColorlessTrees]

Unexplained misery soup of my body's various dysfunctions. Food is in second place but that's ultimately caused by my health anyway. Exhausting, disabling, and the lid on the bucket of moral failings I try to crawl out of occassionally.

Other than that, emotional flatlining. There's nothing I hate more than nothing. Having experienced both so frequently, I'd rather feel too strongly, pain or pleasure, than feel nothing at all.

 

[buyersremorse]

the thought of my parents suffering after i go is the one thing that kills me more than anything.

 

[enduringwinter]

My immediate reality. Always

 

[wCvML2]

Currently I hurt myself the most in a non-conscious compulsive sort of way, a lot of self-sabotage

 

[Silent_cries]

Same

I feel like all I do is ruin everything I touch. I make people's lives worse for being around, and I absolutely hate and despise myself for it.

Me too, but I also feel like I ruin myself too. Ruining others often ends in ruining yourself also yk, and I'm also impulsive af.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

People giving me hope and abandoning me.
Me opening up to people and them using the things that hurt me most against me.
The fact that I don't fit in anywhere, no one really understands what its like to expect the worst and be right every time, and then on top of it the same people who told me "not to worry and that things would get better" then minimize all of it.

Agree!
A lot of things, low self esteem and self worth, health issues, past trauma, feeling I don't deserve anything which has impacted my growth overall. Imposter syndrome

 

[BojackHorseman]

Ha! Realistically you prob only think you do...

My husband of course tells me its not true, but I feel alot of times hes just saying that because hes my husband and hes stuck with me. Like I look back at stuff Ive said and done and I remember the look on his face and it just confirms my belief that he would have been better off marrying someone kind and normal instead of me.