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ThePollinator

ThePollinator

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May 7, 2023
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I'm considering this method again. Before I buy anything, I want to know what it feels like? Does it feel like every other overdose (I've overdosed on Tylenol, quetiapine and methylphenidate before), or does it feel different, and if so, how?
 
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doomerguy88

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Aug 13, 2025
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I'm considering this method again. Before I buy anything, I want to know what it feels like? Does it feel like every other overdose (I've overdosed on Tylenol, quetiapine and methylphenidate before), or does it feel different, and if so, how?
I am not an expert on this method so hopefully someone with more info will chime in but I would assume it would be a different feeling compared to the stuff you mentioned due to the way it affects your body. I think I have also heard that the effects can be different depending on the person with some only experiencing mild symptoms like some dizziness and others experiencing stronger ones like strong headaches and nausea
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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Sep 10, 2025
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I'm considering this method again. Before I buy anything, I want to know what it feels like? Does it feel like every other overdose (I've overdosed on Tylenol, quetiapine and methylphenidate before), or does it feel different, and if so, how?
@Kayla should be able to help you
 
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witchcraft

witchcraft

it's too painful to live but I'm too afraid to die
Nov 27, 2024
57
I would also like to know. I can't take it anymore.
 
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BradGuy123

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- What did he put over his mouth after he drank the SN? It looked like some kind of mask. What was the point of this?
- 8 minutes after he drank the SN it appears he was nauseated and probably uncomfortable from the nausea. He took the mask off.
- He threw up 9:30 in what appears to be a dark substance
- 16:30 in he was kicked that skeleton which makes me think he may have been uncomfortable
- I stopped noticing movement 24 minutes in

What we don't know is how uncomfortable or unpleasant it was or if he experiencing panic inside his mind
 
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dewdfish

dewdfish

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Nov 30, 2025
130
Based off from other peoples experiences with their successful attempt, there's not much discomfort apart from the nausea, maybe headaches and burning from drinking a chemical. I saw people that recovered from it describe all of these symptoms too. Might have to look around the site and find those attempts so you can see, most of them describe their final moments.
 
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Bat12

Bat12

Student
Mar 2, 2024
131
I'm considering this method again. Before I buy anything, I want to know what it feels like? Does it feel like every other overdose (I've overdosed on Tylenol, quetiapine and methylphenidate before), or does it feel different, and if so, how?
as far as I'm aware it's extreme nausea and bradycardia, although the full extent is widely documented. As someone who takes methylphenidate, sometimes too much, I imagine there to be comparable symptoms
 
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Lucid7972

Lucid7972

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Aug 28, 2023
31
oh man that looks awful, it must have been so unbearable, it reminds me of one food poisoning I once had, why did this get popular on SaSu?
 
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DeathWish3301

DeathWish3301

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May 15, 2024
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oh man that looks awful, it must have been so unbearable, it reminds me of one food poisoning I once had, why did this get popular on SaSu?

Been here for a little over a year. This is all my opinion, observation and speculation.

From what I can tell it originated in the PPH (Peaceful Pill Handbook) then gained a lot of traction here. Now it's the "Holy Grail" of methods here.

There's so many anecdotal takes on how much pain it actually causes and what it feels like.

Some users claim it's just "mild discomfort" or "uncomfortable". Some claim that from experience, having attempted or taking a small dosage.

But most people just parrot that it's "uncomfortable not painful" because they saw others say that online. Without having anyway of knowing that's the case. They read it from strangers online and assume it's true.

Then recently as of the last few months I've seen people backtracking, saying it's "peaceful compared to other methods". Not actually peaceful.

I've seen other posts where people said it was extremely painful. I saw one approximately a week or two ago where the user said they felt like they could barely breathe and to make it stop.

I've read a lot of medical literature online about it that talk about symptoms that sound quite painful, and vice versa.

No one seems to even be able to fully agree on whether or not you feel like you're suffocating after ingestion.

And I'm attempting to not being be hypocrite. I don't know which one is true. Which is why I still haven't opened or used mine.

I wish someone with a verifiable medical background could attest to the pain you'd experience. And you see plenty of users on other popular sites asking exactly that, and of course, no one with actual knowledge will answer because they don't want to promote/encourage or be held liable.

Unfortunately there are bad actors on both sides. Anti-choice pro lifers, and people trying to encourage suicide. So it's very difficult to confirm what's true.

The only thing that seems to be unquestionably true is that it is highly lethal.
 
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Lucid7972

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Been here for a little over a year. This is all my opinion, observation and speculation.

From what I can tell it originated in the PPH (Peaceful Pill Handbook) then gained a lot of traction here. Now it's the "Holy Grail" of methods here.

There's so many anecdotal takes on how much pain it actually causes and what it feels like.

Some users claim it's just "mild discomfort" or "uncomfortable". Some claim that from experience, having attempted or taking a small dosage.

But most people just parrot that it's "uncomfortable not painful" because they saw others say that online. Without having anyway of knowing that's the case. They read it from strangers online and assume it's true.

Then recently as of the last few months I've seen people backtracking, saying it's "peaceful compared to other methods". Not actually peaceful.

I've seen other posts where people said it was extremely painful. I saw one approximately a week or two ago where the user said they felt like they could barely breathe and to make it stop.

I've read a lot of medical literature online about it that talk about symptoms that sound quite painful, and vice versa.

No one seems to even be able to fully agree on whether or not you feel like you're suffocating after ingestion.

And I'm attempting to not being be hypocrite. I don't know which one is true. Which is why I still haven't opened or used mine.

I wish someone with a verifiable medical background could attest to the pain you'd experience. And you see plenty of users on other popular sites asking exactly that, and of course, no one with actual knowledge will answer because they don't want to promote/encourage or be held liable.

Unfortunately there are bad actors on both sides. Anti-choice pro lifers, and people trying to encourage suicide. So it's very difficult to confirm what's true.

The only thing that seems to be unquestionably true is that it is highly lethal.
I just watched a few videos about SN poisoning, in many countries, it is used as food additives to preserve cured meat, quite accessible, so there are quite often poisoning case from improper food processing and accidental consumption. SN blocks your red blood cells carrying oxygen and makes you suffocate, and throwing up because your body can sort of detect poison, and protect you by vomiting (I read that people also take medicine to prevent vomiting before ingesting N in Swiss VAD). Based on these, I think it will be beyond awful and extreme suffering
 
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DeathWish3301

DeathWish3301

Student
May 15, 2024
151
I just watched a few videos about SN poisoning, in many countries, it is used as food additives to preserve cured meat, quite accessible, so there are quite often poisoning case from improper food processing and accidental consumption. SN blocks your red blood cells carrying oxygen and makes you suffocate, and throwing up because your body can sort of detect poison, and protect you by vomiting (I read that people also take medicine to prevent vomiting before ingesting N in Swiss VAD). Based on these, I think it will be beyond awful and extreme suffering

The consensus I've personally come to is it will be mildly painful at the absolute minimum, and what you described at the worst.

Like I said, everyone started redefining what peaceful actually means and stating "Well it's peaceful compared to other methods". The symptoms I've seen people describe sound awful and "peaceful" isn't the word I'd use. I think people only used that term due to it coming from the PPH.

I ordered it once about a year ago, held onto it for a while then properly disposed of it. Then reordered again recently, bringing me back to the forum since I have nothing else to do.

Decided to have it again as a backup plan, or if I get to the point where the physical pain I'd experience isn't a problem for me anymore. I will concede that from everything I can tell after a year plus of research is, despite physical pain, it will get the job done. If you can get past that, you should be fine.

And unfortunately, as I mentioned, people read completely anecdotal information from faceless strangers online and take it as fact. Then it just gets repeated endlessly.

Same thing with the "night night" method. One dude came up with a theory and everyone assumed it would work.

The site is littered with posts about how it doesn't work despite following all instructions to the letter. And I've tried it countless times and had the same issue.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

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Nov 12, 2025
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what could the dark substance be?
In the video, he is shown drinking red wine. It's SN and red wine.
- What did he put over his mouth after he drank the SN? It looked like some kind of mask. What was the point of this?
- 8 minutes after he drank the SN it appears he was nauseated and probably uncomfortable from the nausea. He took the mask off.
- He threw up 9:30 in what appears to be a dark substance
- 16:30 in he was kicked that skeleton which makes me think he may have been uncomfortable
- I stopped noticing movement 24 minutes in

What we don't know is how uncomfortable or unpleasant it was or if he experiencing panic inside his mind
Red wine + SN = "dark substance". Agreed, I wish he had kept the audio going with commentary on how he was feeling, instead of leaving us to guess.
oh man that looks awful, it must have been so unbearable, it reminds me of one food poisoning I once had, why did this get popular on SaSu?
Because it kills reliably as long as you take enough & don't get found in time to be saved, and because nobody actually knows how bad it's going to be for them (or not) until they've already taken it.
 
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DeathWish3301

DeathWish3301

Student
May 15, 2024
151
Because it kills reliably as long as you take enough & don't get found in time to be saved, and because nobody actually knows how bad it's going to be for them (or not) until they've already taken it.

Much more simple and to the point that my explanation, so kudos to you. No anecdotes or speculation.

To the OP:

It's effective, permitting you've taken enough. That's why it's popular. The "peacefulness" is what's constantly debated on the forum.
 
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Lucid7972

Lucid7972

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Aug 28, 2023
31
compared to other methods its a "nice" way to go
how is it different from other poisons, like some old school weed killers, arsenic trioxide etc
In the video, he is shown drinking red wine. It's SN and red wine.

Red wine + SN = "dark substance". Agreed, I wish he had kept the audio going with commentary on how he was feeling, instead of leaving us to guess.

Because it kills reliably as long as you take enough & don't get found in time to be saved, and because nobody actually knows how bad it's going to be for them (or not) until they've already taken it.
no, my death has to be more comfortable :ahhha: I will wait to grow older to eventually qualify for a VAD
 
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