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guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
I want to experience different hard drugs before I CTB, I hope it brings me the happiness I have lacked for so long
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
Meet my bf, try LSD and DMT, go ice skating one more time, and that's all I can think of. Not that long ago I was hoping to graduate before I ctb but I've come to realize that my chances of graduating are incredibly low...
 
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hematomatema

hematomatema

my name was lewis
Feb 29, 2024
156
Hope "What I wanted to do" works here as well, since I'll be CTBing soon, but I was hoping to experience a romantic relationship just once before CTB. Actually, that probably would have stopped me from CTBing. Only caveat to this is that I might be aromantic so I'm definitely not getting that if that's the case but I can at least dream about it lol
 
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killorbekilled

killorbekilled

manhwa reader, mentally unwell
Oct 3, 2024
65
I want to experience love and I want to travel. I want to finish all my manhwas that haven't come out bc my priorities are amazing. Sadly I'm arose.
 
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AtheistCDsissy

AtheistCDsissy

Falling off the edge of the world...
Mar 6, 2023
34
I used to want to travel. Now I just don't care.
 
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tinyboxer

Member
Sep 29, 2024
17
Try filet mignon. I really wanted to have a dog for once in my life but I'm okay passing on that.
 
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damienlerone03

damienlerone03

reject humanity, return to monke
May 5, 2024
1,245
make sure my family will be able to live stably without me, probably won't be able to help the emotional factor so i want to help the other factors like financial stability. sooooo i guess i won't be ctbing in the next couple of years, its the least i could do for them.
 
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iloveloving

Student
Aug 4, 2024
115
Sleep with my cat one last time.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,796
Live until my parents die. Idk if I'm going to make it though.
 
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KudzuTrailblazer

KudzuTrailblazer

Member
Sep 29, 2024
11
Probably hold my partner and dog one last time
 
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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
798
I don't really have anything; if I had the things I want most out of life I don't think I would ctb
 
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mercybell

mercybell

rock bottom has a basement
Oct 1, 2024
19
  • buy an overpriced fountain pen and complete a journal with it.
  • Buy an Apple Watch (idk just wanted one)
  • live til my dog and cats pass
  • Obtain a motorcycle license (and motorcycle obviously) and ride around the city
  • Scream at the ocean / at the top of a tall building
  • Get my nipples pierced
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I think getting my nipples pierced, fountain pen, and Apple Watch are the only ones that I'll actually get around to crossing off. Or none of the above, idk if I have the funds or the energy
 
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bl00deater

bl00deater

The Bloodeater Hungers
Oct 7, 2024
22
Express my love for my s/o for a month straight without any arguments, just something pure and blissful before he doesn't have me anymore
 
NeoN0va

NeoN0va

nearing the end
Sep 24, 2024
211
I want to speak to my old friends one last time, and ofc have some bbq with fries with them
 
BlockHammer

BlockHammer

Losing My Religion
Oct 25, 2023
295
I want to eat my favourite food, meet and play with my best friend and also buy nintendo to play mario game lol. After that i have no regret in my life anymore
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,409
I want to at least play through Sonic x Shadow Generations which comes out in less than two weeks. Then maybe I would also want to see the Sonic 3 movie. Beyond that I also need to ensure that I finish my notes and other suicide preparations.
 
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LXR515

Member
Jun 12, 2024
39
Drive a motorcycle, smoke a cigar, maybe try cocaine.
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
There isn't anything that I want to do. There never will be
 
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luvpup

luvpup

4ever young & ill
Oct 8, 2024
140
i wanted to see my boyfriend. that was all i wanted to do. i told everyone this. nobody helped me. it seemed like a silly wish but now ive given up on it and realized that when i pray for things, like an alleviation from my pain, for a dream, for love, it does not come, or it comes all messed up.
i will not be going to see him. he happens to be gone for the next few weeks.
i spent my leftover savings on what i need to end it all. :)
 
Remna's

Remna's

Lemonade
Jul 8, 2024
10
Play finish all the PlayStation games I bought that are way to expensive, finish at least a single book from my collection of unfinished ebooks.

Go bowling one last time and try to catch a fish.

Let my cats eat their favourite snack.

Break up with my boyfriend.

Eat spaghetti and seaweed.

Burn/trash all my favourite items.

Wipe my phone so my parents never find out how badly I've felt these past few years.

Clean up any loose ends and if possible book a really expensive hotel to die in to lower the prices of that room.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,104
I just wish to not exist in my case, it's all I've ever hoped and wished for, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence no matter what, simply being conscious is so tiring and painful to me, I just want non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me, I just want peace from this existence that only ever brought me pain.
 
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sweetcreep

sweetcreep

reincarnating as a worm
Jul 21, 2024
224
for the most part, i am pretty content with my life. i didn't have it terribly hard and did a few of the things that i wanted to do. i wouldn't dare ask for more. last thing that i have to do is rehome my cats and write my letters.
 
Esedia

Esedia

Still searching.
Sep 29, 2024
13
I have so many places I'd like to go and things I like to do, and I've put them off due to a career and due to my health and due to my own social anxiety. When the time comes and I am ready to depart, I absolutely hope to spend at least several months traveling and taking in the beauty of the world. There is no rush to exit, and I want to appreciate so many things before I go.
 
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nooneishome

Member
Oct 7, 2024
17
There are so many things I want to do, but I just don't think those things will happen because I don't have the money. I also just think my time is running out. I've attempted hundreds of times and eventually (soon I hope) the time will come when I don't survive. I'm also in too much emotional pain and distress to wait long enough for me to do all the things I want. Don't have the money anyways, never will :(
 
divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Do a lot of drugs, skydive, and travel
 
kyuuketsuki

kyuuketsuki

weeb & neet ♡
Oct 8, 2023
188
to be held in my boyfriend's arms one last time while my cat sits on my lap and i read manga as it's snowing outside the window, a lit candle illuminating the night.
at least that's what i fantasize about. it's a thought that brings me comfort, but i'm not sure if i can live long enough to do so. truly i think all i want in in life is peace, contentment, however i don't believe i'll ever get it.
 
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MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP
Feb 11, 2023
48
watch the final act of the inanimate insanity movie when it comes out, play sonic x shadow generations, play lego star wars (my favourite childhood game) one last time, finish a book in my stack of books i got from barnes and noble yet never finished reading, play with my dog for the last time, and watch the 3rd sonic movie. however, with how unbearable my suffering has become lately, i don't even know if i'll live long enough to do any of these.
 
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