Help How do you cope with waiting?

[fluorescentpearl]

I ordered SN and the order is still processing, if it gets canceled I'll switch to suspension, I just have to ask money in advance for my birthday and go find a place to do it, every day I feel worse, I feel so empty and worthless and I want to get it all over with as fast as possible, how do I cope with waiting?

I know that if I'm right and when dying I'll go back to him, it won't matter when it happens, but I just feel too horrible to continue for too long, you know?

It's rly tiring to wake up everyday, especially after I had such a happy set ctb date that got ruined, I'm not even sure what to do anymore

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

That's such an awful feeling. I know most advice won't help, but if you can't endure your own thoughts, maybe talking to us here helps. It's such an isolating feeling. I want it to be over too, but I don't know when I'll finally be able to take that step.

 

[TAW122]

I would find things simply to occupy time until the inevitable while also keeping my cover and maintaining appearances IRL. I'm on SaSu fairly often and perhaps a bit more recently, though there are times where I'm less online though. I often resort to escapism of some sort, either playing video games or even just watching/listening to videos on YouTube. There is so much content on YouTube that will last multiple lifespans of many people, so that is more than adequate to occupy my time, but that's just speaking for myself.

 

[pax420]

I messed I'm up and waited too long now the choice Is no longer mine. I am medically too screwed up to take care of it my myself. Now I'm on hospice and just waiting for time to do it's thing praying I don't end up on life support or having to have somebody else wipe my ass

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

I am waiting too at the moment for SN from MIC but it might not come and be money down the drain. However it's best to have a few options available; otherwise, yes, I would probably be a bit uptight.