What do you predict the extent of the ripple effect will be after you ctb?

[Symbiote]

No one is going to know unless they google my name followed by "obits"

 

[Yuki Tenuki]

My ex thought I was already dead and so she bought herself a stupid necklace with the first letter of my given name as a pendant... allowing her to talk about herself and her loss and maybe but unlikely a couple of sentences about me (like she really knew me). Even tho I couldn't care less about this cruel, coldhearted b****, that still makes me angry.
And my parents? My abusive mother and my stepfather? I haven't talked to them for over three years, so my death won't change anything in their lifes.
I had a few friends but they are already gone... so... yeah... fuck this life.

 

[demuic]

Only my mother will be deeply affected. The rest of my family barely or does not acknowledge my existence. I have only one friend who will care but he'll deal with it, he has other friends. Aside from them, no one will care.

 

[Brianiskillingme]

My daughter will be devistated, my best friend will be crushed and probably need therapy. My boyfriend, not sure how he will feel. He is not the warmest of people, so. My ex husband will be upset and perhaps feel guilty for cheating on me. My daughter is my biggest worry. I hate to put this on her but I just want the sadness to stop. I am tired from Crohns disease, joint pain and Meneires disease.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, it does not matter what life is like after I die, as I will not be there to see it. If I died soon, of course a few people would be sad, but after all grief and loss are inevitable in life. We will all die and lose everything eventually someday.

 

[Hate you]

More suffering will be the effect, lots of it.

 

[Of The Universe]

Somebody would have to throw the stuff in my apartment in the trash and my cats would probably get euthanized.

Yeah,my landlord will swear A blue streak,but no one else will care.

 

[NotSureToEndure]

I think it would really upset my remaining family. My mother killed herself when I was younger and I know my siblings in particular would be hit hard if one of us did it aswell.

My partner, some extended family and I'm sure some old friends would be hit too. I think alot of people would be very suprised. I told someone I was trying amitriptyline recently, and they were like "of all the people who could be called depressed it wouldn't be you". I guess I have a positive exterior.

I'm pretty good at putting on a show. I hate feeling like I'm dragging people down so I mostly make light of my problems. My partner is the main person who probably knows the extent of my negative feelings, but I'm pretty certain they don't consider me suicidal.

I feel terrible even thinking about it sometimes, but yet i keep coming back to it.

I'm scared to open up truly to anyone irl about this, as ideally I just want to slip away unnoticed. As soon as I open the subject of suicide I fear that will cause alot of commotion and ultimately make it more difficult in the long run.

I don't think that is possible to leave without a ripple. We all know someone, no matter how small the connection. Someone will be upset by the news.

Not trying to guilt trip anyone btw, but it's definitely the main thing keeping me here.

 

[Niko66]

1 life ruined (mother), 3 people would experience serious grief, my father, the only close friend I ever had and a friend with BPD who has strong issues with abandoment.
A handful of people might feel a little sad/shocked for a bit, that's roughly the extent of it. I do genuinely believe most of my "friends" would get over it rather easily as our relationships are rather distant and unattached. I am not important in any of their lives.
Never in my life have people really sought me out or cared what's going on with me or wanted to do anything with me for the most part, I am boring, I am awkward and unremarkable. The only person I would feel terrible about hurting this way is my mother, despite hating her for her past abuse she's sacrificed too much for me, comes with living in poverty and raising two children alone.

Most of my family couldn't give less of a shit about me, not my grandparents, not my uncles/aunt, I grew up all alone without a single adult giving me any time of the day or attention and so I couldn't give less of a shit what they feel about my death. Grief for the person they never knew or cared to know?

My grandfather passed away this year, I saw him about 3 times in the past 15 years. My grandmother passed away a few years back, she visited us once for about 3 days when I was 9 and spent most of her life abroad and I was always too poor to conceivably visit her. The rest of my family is no different. Dad left when I was 7, lived nearby but I only saw him when I went there until he moved further away and we see each other 1 or 2 times a year. My uncles and aunt had money and means but never once visited me.

So honestly? Fuck em. Once I became an adult I had no desire to pursue relationships with the people who never gave a shit or made any effort to know me, fuck the idea that family is so sacred and important, I owe nothing in death to someone who was never there in life.

 

[worseandworse]

probably pretty severe. my mom found me half dead just over a year ago and im lucky to have lived. overdosed on a few grams of anti depressants and adhd meds, still have extremely hazy memory of that day or the week that followed, but from what I do remember my mom panicked and I remember waking up with her stroking my hair every once and awhile, so im sure me actually dying would be even worse especially since ive moved across the country away from her.

my brothers would probably be upset but they're strong, my dad would be devastated and 80% of my friends would never find out but im sure they'd put two and two together once i was absent for more than a few months.

hoping once i get my ticket out of here i can wander out into the desert half conscious and pass out and die so nature can just take my body. sad ill die so young when i had alot of potential but oh well lol

dying would be just one more reason for my family to be dissapointed in me ontop of the hundreds of others.

 

[Divine Trinity]

Not particularly close with many people. My death in their eyes would be "tragic" but ultimately my own fault/problem. What will linger is the realization I chose death over a life with them to varying degrees in it.

 

[Underneath]

Honestly, I don't know how far the ripples will travel. I expect my more immediate family (parents and sister) will start trying to campaign to fix the useless mental health system in my country. I know they support my wish to die, and they acknowledge that preventing suicide is inhumane. They've been through the system with me and have experienced first-hand how broken it is.

I really to hope that they can see past emotional pain to do as they say.

I highly doubt the system will ever work. It needs to be completely overhauled and that isn't worth the investment by the shit-eating, lying political bastards running my country.

I don't mention where I live out of embarrassment rather than privacy.

~U

 

[VoidDesirer22]

It will devestate 2 lives to the point of suicide attempts, and ruin 1 directly. 2 friends will be distraught and a few others it'll hurt a bit, but it'll mostly be shocking. My ex won't find out, but they'd blame themselves I think. They're good at not feeling emotion when they want to, so all good there. They'll be spared any heart ache.

I have thought long and hard about this and even if I did it in 2 decades it'd be as horrifying. And God knows I'm not making it that long. I find no more relief in my coping mechanisms anymore.

 

[szinigami]

It will ruin my dad's life but i cant help it. I suffer from neuropathy, which is incurable. I cant study neither work. Physical pain ruins everythimg and wont let me move on with my life. Death is my only escape.

 

[ShatteredSoul]

As Walter White in Breaking Bad says "People move on."