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HGL91

HGL91

Warlock
Jul 2, 2019
720
Even though I don't have a job currently, I am taking some courses at a community college. It makes matters worse because I am so much older than everyone else. Plus, I already have an advanced degree. I used to teach college. I applied for dozens of teaching jobs, and was passed over for less qualified people: people without PhDs and no teaching experience. It gets me so depressed because I know this degree will amount to nothing. I have been reconsidering suicide this month before my fiftieth birthday in October. It's not like anyone will care.

It's so hard to get any type of job nowadays...
 
nothingleft

nothingleft

Member
Sep 1, 2019
91
I'm unemployed.

But I did used to work a retail job at an office supply store, so if hell exists I think I have a pretty good idea of what it'd be like.
 
peacefully31425

peacefully31425

Dirtbag
Aug 28, 2018
162
I haven't had a job in almost a decade. Even then, it wasn't a "real job", as my step-dad informed me.

Honestly, as much as I hate being around other people, I'd take having a secure income over being depressed and in bed 24/7.
 
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Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
I'm a commercial manager for a heritage railway. I did love my job but the backbiting and nastiness is making me hate it. My boss knows about my illness but as made no changes to my work. Basically he's a cunt!
 
Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
Sorry :(

What did you tell him, illness-wise?
That I have bipolar and that I tried to kill myself 6 weeks ago, I got berated for taking a holiday that week rather than go off sick. His reply well it's the tourist season here. I then said you said I could 1/2 my hours until I'm in a better place. He's not even emailed or rang me to see how I am. Makes one feel pretty worthless.
 
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BipolarExpat

BipolarExpat

Accomplished faker
May 30, 2019
698
That I have bipolar and that I tried to kill myself 6 weeks ago, I got berated for taking a holiday that week rather than go off sick. His reply well it's the tourist season here. I then said you said I could 1/2 my hours until I'm in a better place. He's not even emailed or rang me to see how I am. Makes one feel pretty worthless.

That sounds rough Rachel.
Especially him agreeing to lowering hours but then doing nothing.

I've gotten so close to confiding in mgrs/supervisors before but always held off,...I guess I couldn't see the situation improving at all by doing it.

*sigh* We can only try.

Agreed Cunt w/ a capital "C"
 
Kirkscoobz

Kirkscoobz

Experienced
Feb 8, 2019
219
My job was as a professional locksmith, been in the trade on and off now for around 25 years, I used to enjoy my work but as the national locksmith companies were increasing there was less work coming my way.
 
vonvonwantpeace

vonvonwantpeace

Specialist
Jul 26, 2019
331
I've been unemployed for over a year and a half now because of my social anxiety.
 
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SS02

Member
Sep 7, 2019
10
I am on disability for the last 2 years.
I was a pretty successful Lawyer.
I enjoyed most of it. However it became a large part of my identity. When I went on disability I lost part of my sense of self and continue to struggle with my purpose here.
 
sadgirl2002

sadgirl2002

Fallen Angel
Apr 9, 2019
452
I'll be starting a job in a nursery on Monday, I'm sure I'll love it.

Update: I quit my job on Friday. I was miserable and the tears kept coming in my eyes many times as I struggled to hold them back. The feeling of wanting to die in my sleep and wanting a car to run me over when I was on my way there; came back. I remember feeling like that every day I was in high school. I was severely distressed and constantly worried, it messed with my head. I wasn't even able to enjoy my dancing lessons I go on Thursdays because of the severe distress and exhaustion. I'm glad I'm out.
 
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Soundgarden

Member
Sep 15, 2019
41
I go to sleep at a school every day from 8 to 16, except on Fridays when they wake me up and put me outside at 13.

Just joking! I love what I do. Teaching is the one of the things that makes me forget about everything around me.
 
azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
I'm a bespoke cobbler. For those of you that have no idea what that is, in layman's terms, I hand make ridiculously expensive shoes
Seriously? This is SO cool!! Who taught you the trade, if you don't mind?
I work in a soul crushing, meaningless federal job... gah.. it's not what i started out doing. but ended up being shifted here after 10 years... money is too good to quit. but the job is just boring.
Envy you with a federal job. Those are hard to get.
 

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