Help What CTB methods could I use to ease worry about inadequacy or pain?

[Spook97]

My anxiety is unbearable. I have been depressed all my life—alongside intensely anxious. It might seem rather prognosticate of me to say, but nothing has granted me tranquillity the way death has in my many attempts.

As strong as my urge to leave this world is, my living conditions leave me incapable of committing to a method. The attempts I have either left me in excruciating pain or forthrightly failed to end me. I have no idea what to do; I feel like a coward for allowing this continuous cycle of fear to control me—I am a grown man, for goodness sake—but it seems to have become part of me. It has become part of my nature, and cannot be separated.

What are some recommended methods that could keep my worries to a minimum? I am well informed of the difficulties in finding something painless, but, at this point, I am rather desperate.

 

[kråkevind]

You're not a coward for living with anxiety. You had the courage to come here and admit you're having trouble and need help. That takes a shit ton of courage. You are stronger than you think. I'm here too because I am afraid of painful methods.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I'm choosing carbon monoxide, look into it … there is different methods megathreads … You can look into that and choose which one is best for you. All the best

 

[befree]

As mentioned here:

I need help please

I have no idea of how I can painlessly CBD. If anybody can give me advice it would be much appreciated.

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds so horrible what you've been through, existing certainly is so torturous but when it comes to information about methods there's suicide resource compilation but there's sadly no straightforward way to finally leave. But it's true that at least for me the only relief lies in death, I just wish that it was easier to leave as it sounds terrifying failing an attempt, the difficulty of suicide and the risks involved keep me trapped here, but anyway I hope that you find what you search for.