Tough one. I believe in God and Jesus. I follow the commandments. I pray. I like church but I haven't had many good experiences with those who claim to be Christian.
I believe in miracles as I've seen others experience them.
However I wonder if God has favorites and those whose prayers he doesn't hear. Because my situation is not improving despite my pleas. I would prefer not to ctb but how much more of this life am I supposed to take? I have had more tragedies than most and it takes its toll.