What are your thoughts on ctb due to ugliness?

[Siamese Believe]

Not being able to experience the beauty of love is one of my top reasons, and it's due to how horrifically ugly I am. Along side that short height as well which makes me even more unattractive.

Even IF a woman could somehow get past my looks and date me, it would be the equivalent to forcing yourself to eat disgusting cold soup that's been left out all day when you know there's a pizza place down the street.

And my autism makes me incredibly awkward, which would be fine if I weren't terribly ugly.

It's impossible not to think about romance either because it's literally in every form of media. I'd have to never watch anything again.

I think not being able to successfully experience romance for yourself is a very solid reason to ctb. It is such a key part of being alive, of being human.

 

[U. A.]

Didn't you get enough engagement on this topic already?

Can’t stand how ugly I am, that alone is a reason for CTB

I genuinely don't even know what to say that I wouldn't have summarized already. But it's just so frustrating. I hate even looking in the mirror, man it makes me so angry. I can't wait to destroy this body. Sometimes I wish I could train and learn how to box so I could fight my dad for having...

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[dontletthembribeyou]

I'm in a similar boat but I'm more concerned with how it impacts my professional life and my ability to make friends. Being born ugly as a woman is like game over on all fronts

 

[lonergirl_26]

I personally don't think any human is ugly.
Everyone has their own reasons of wanting to ctb so no one has the right to judge another's reasons

 

[shampoo sniffer]

I get it.

I'm so ashamed of my looks. I look like a female Grima Wormtongue. What man would find that attractive?

 

[Afterglow]

Didn't you get enough engagement on this topic already?

Can’t stand how ugly I am, that alone is a reason for CTB

I genuinely don't even know what to say that I wouldn't have summarized already. But it's just so frustrating. I hate even looking in the mirror, man it makes me so angry. I can't wait to destroy this body. Sometimes I wish I could train and learn how to box so I could fight my dad for having...

sanctioned-suicide.net

people are allowed to vent on this site

quit being such an awful person to already suicidal people

 

[internallybeautiful]

Not being able to experience the beauty of love is one of my top reasons, and it's due to how horrifically ugly I am. Along side that short height as well which makes me even more unattractive.

Even IF a woman could somehow get past my looks and date me, it would be the equivalent to forcing yourself to eat disgusting cold soup that's been left out all day when you know there's a pizza place down the street.

And my autism makes me incredibly awkward, which would be fine if I weren't terribly ugly.

It's impossible not to think about romance either because it's literally in every form of media. I'd have to never watch anything again.

I think not being able to successfully experience romance for yourself is a very solid reason to ctb. It is such a key part of being alive, of being human.

hi. surely this may be unhelpful, but i just wanted to give my insight on this. I'm 19, also someone society would deem unattractive. I'm extremely ugly, and all my life experiences reflect that. i have absolutely no friends, no one willing to be around me, and a strong willingness to die! haha. but something i realized is that being ugly is the one variable that is stagnant. you can't fix it as opposed to other problems people have that inspire them to take their lives. i find absolutely little to no joy living, and ive almost come to terms with the fact that ill never get love, be in a relationship, be valued, or have a man be excited about me in general. i despite my face so much, with every bone in my body. i wish i could rip it off and discard it, that'd be better than having people be forced to see the grotesque thing i have called a "face."

i would like to date/get in a relationship with anyone who is willing to accept me. but i wouldnt allow my self to. i would know that its simply out of sheer desperation, and theres absolutely no real love there. I'm physically repulsive, and one thing men really value is appearance. which is why ive abstained from even trying. im really sorry about what you go through, and i really hope eventually you find the one for you.

 

[pelicanportal]

i say give it yours 20s to work out, really put yourself out there. call it quits if things havent worked out by your 30s. its joever.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

quit being such an awful person to already suicidal people

Imo, waaaaaaay over the top. Uncalled for. The member you responded to asked a question of the OP ("Didn't you get enough engagement on this topic already?"), didn't insult the OP (but you insulted them in your response), and didn't call the OP any names (but you called them an "awful person). You could have/should have just left your response as "people are allowed to vent on this site". The rest was just as attacking as you perceived their posting to the OP to be. "Two wrongs.....", right?

See how over the top this is?

 

[paskins]

Waaaaaaay over the top. Uncalled for. The member you responded to asked a question of the OP ("Didn't you get enough engagement on this topic already?"), didn't insult the OP (but you insulted them in your response), and didn't call the OP any names (but you called them an "awful person). You could have/should have just left your response as "people are allowed to vent on this site". The rest was just as attacking as you perceived their posting to the OP to be. "Two wrongs.....", right?

omds

 

[locked*n*loaded]

omds

What about your days?

 

[GyreOfAsh]

That's one of the reasons for why I'd ctb. Not the largest but it's the second largest. Truth is that I'm upper mid looking on average but the unpredictability of my looks is what causes me to be so sad about it.

I have sibo/sifo/ibs, raas hypersensitivity, & more elevated cortisol levels than the average person so one day my face can be lean & I'll look healthy from having good gut health & fluid balance but then the next, everything could fall apart. Gut inflammation, cortisol, & aldosterone all causing me to have a bloated puffy face & a sickly inflamed look. A constant back & forth from a 4/10 to a 6/10. It's so annoying. It's especially annoying because I notice how differently people treat me when I'm bloated & inflamed/below average looking vs when I'm not/slightly above average looking. Even my own family.

My face doesn't have good features so I have to rely on structure for facial attractiveness. And since the structure is unstable, so are my looks & subsequently my identity. I'm in a constant identity crisis from this. If someone says I look good I think "it's only temporary until something fails me & I look like I'm dying again." And if I look bad I think "whats the point of trying so hard to look good if I can just randomly look like this. Now everyone's gonna think I'm unhealthy, some slob, poor diet, etc."

The reason it gets to me so much is because I'm more disciplined than the average person when it comes to intake & also the effort I put into having a lean & healthy body. It feels so damn frustrating when I'm bloated & inflamed because it completely hides my hard work & of course causes people to treat me weird because they then don't like the way that I look.