LunarLynx

LunarLynx

Just a lost spirit searching freedom
Dec 18, 2023
97
It can be about CTB'ing, or anything. Express youself

for me it's either catching the bus or doing a recovery. I hate being between these 2 states of mind and I want it to end.

What about you ?
 
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until death

maybe it's time to say goodbye
Dec 12, 2023
126
Suicide
 
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Pg.964

Pg.964

Lifeless
Jul 27, 2023
91
I want to be in less pain, don't know how to get there but that's all I want
 
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LunarLynx

LunarLynx

Just a lost spirit searching freedom
Dec 18, 2023
97
I want to be in less pain, don't know how to get there but that's all I want
Hope you'll find what make you in pain, and find how to fix it 💖
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
766
Just do my best to destract myself from CTB'ing because I'd be leaving with too many loose ends and that bothers me.
The time is not right no matter how badly I want to stop this suffering of repetition and going nowhere.
I want to try to find some fake temporary happiness every once in awhile and just keep going until I hit rock bottom.
So basically, the same thing I've tried to do every year for the past 12 years.
 
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LunarLynx

LunarLynx

Just a lost spirit searching freedom
Dec 18, 2023
97
Just do my best to destract myself from CTB'ing because I'd be leaving with too many loose ends and that bothers me.
The time is not right no matter how badly I want to stop this suffering of repetition and going nowhere.
I want to try to find some fake temporary happiness every once in awhile and just keep going until I hit rock bottom.
So basically, the same thing I've tried to do every year for the past 12 years.
Hope you'll succeed to do this this year. I wish you good luck for it 🦾
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,331
Die
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

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May 5, 2022
766
@Abyssal does not sugar coat lol
 
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Freimann

Freimann

Member
Dec 23, 2023
39
I'd say getting a gun, paying my credit card debt and ctb'ing before June, although I plan to do it as soon as I get the gun.
 
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koro

koro

この夢は本当に嫌います。
Nov 11, 2023
66
I just hope something happens that makes my life more "interesting" or less annoying to endure (this includes ctb, if only I could bring myself tho)
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,565
I'm sort of recovering. I need to get a driving license but I hate driving and I wish I never signed up for it, but I was coerced into it and now I have to finish it. I also need to find a job…I was looking for it for like 4 months with no success and then I had to take a break because of surgery
 
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Shimidori

Shimidori

make me sad
Dec 22, 2023
39
Find that "spark" that will make me think twice before attempting partial hanging once more, before I don't doubt for the second time.

I have people around me, but none of them are capable of lighting that spark within me. Will something happen this year that does?
 
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oddetoad

Arcanist
Nov 25, 2023
496
a peaceful CTB but right now it feels like the gym idea that we always just procrastinate ..
i hate having to have to kill myself because i view the act as despicable as having kids.. it's just a disgusting act in my eyes
 
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piddincir

piddincir

Student
Nov 6, 2023
182
Find that "spark" that will make me think twice before attempting partial hanging once more, before I don't doubt for the second time.

I have people around me, but none of them are capable of lighting that spark within me. Will something happen this year that does?
I found that spark, kept me and my wife alive for 10 years . She recently took her own life and now im left broken and can't see a life without her.

I would love to take my savings and go travelling but I don't think I can
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
766
I found that spark, kept me and my wife alive for 10 years . She recently took her own life and now im left broken and can't see a life without her.

I would love to take my savings and go travelling but I don't think I can
That is heart breaking and im so sorry for lose.
I would take out a loan and just go do it. Fuck it.
If you plan to ctb then all the more reason.
I'd say getting a gun, paying my credit card debt and ctb'ing before June, although I plan to do it as soon as I get the gun.
Paying off bills would not even really be on my list of things to do unless someone else was tied to my debt.
If anything id be getting more into debt because I wouldn't have to pay it off.
I just hope something happens that makes my life more "interesting" or less annoying to endure (this includes ctb, if only I could bring myself tho)
This.
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,322
It can be about CTB'ing, or anything. Express youself

for me it's either catching the bus or doing a recovery. I hate being between these 2 states of mind and I want it to end.

What about you ?
Same here.
 
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Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
It can be about CTB'ing, or anything. Express youself

for me it's either catching the bus or doing a recovery. I hate being between these 2 states of mind and I want it to end.

What about you ?
I am not allowing anyone in my life who disrespects me or treats me less than what I deserve. I'm cleaning house, blocking the assholes who affected me in 2023.
 
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HollowDrop

HollowDrop

ah
Oct 4, 2023
135
I'll attempt to stop wasting all my money at the bar. Drinking my money and physical safety away at the bar has entirely ruined me.
 
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nightlygem

nightlygem

La Joya
Sep 27, 2023
185
I'd like to meet more people like me and try to help others recover (those willing, of course).
 
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Greyscale

Greyscale

Member
Sep 19, 2023
49
Find SN as soon as possible.

It'll act as a motivator to do things more efficiently.
 
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misophoned

Member
Sep 17, 2023
18
To catch that bus
To catch that bus
 
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Anon1337

Mage
Oct 1, 2018
547
2024 will be my last year.
 
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AInilam

AInilam

Student
Dec 17, 2023
173
Hoping I can come by another peaceful method. I really don't want to have to resort to a more painful/uncomfortable method but if that ends up being the case, so be it.
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,628
I'd say getting a gun, paying my credit card debt and ctb'ing before June, although I plan to do it as soon as I get the gun.
OMG, if you plan on CTB I'd say fck the debt. Especially if you have no estate that the creditors can go after. These greedy, predatory credit card companies can go fck themselves.
 
Freimann

Freimann

Member
Dec 23, 2023
39
OMG, if you plan on CTB I'd say fck the debt. Especially if you have no estate that the creditors can go after. These greedy, predatory credit card companies can go fck themselves.
The problem is the time frame. I'll most likely have to use it before ctb, so I gotta pay it. But otherwise I'd just send them to shit, fuck banks.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,177
I got nothing. Resolutions are pointless to me
 
Leavesfromthevine

Leavesfromthevine

Untreated Trauma
Nov 23, 2023
339
Ctb before January is over
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,788
To hopefully catch the bus before 2024 gets here
 
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colorlesshue

colorlesshue

IF GOD EXISTS I DEMAND HIS FORGIVENESS
Jun 28, 2023
104
suicide, it's now or spend the rest of my fuckass life working for a shitty corperation. fuck capitalism. as nice as recovery sounds, it doesn't feel like a option anymore
 
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Decided98

Decided98

“All life is a near death experience.”
Dec 27, 2022
211
Waiting for the suicide waiting period on my life insurance and suiciding in November so just working and just waiting it sucks
 
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