What are your last thoughts going to be?

[esistzeit]

This might sound weird but my favorite video game. The aesthetics and soundtrack were so good, it truly changed my life. There's one track in particular that makes my feel really content and that my life is fading into something beautiful. Also my fam ofc because I love them a lot.

What game is it?

 

[annointed_towers]

All the regret, what could have been if I hadn't messed up and cursed God in a moment of rage

 

[deletedaccount30982]

Fear and peace. Which order, I don't know, but I hope it's fear and then peace. I would rather not die in fear. But after surviving multiple serious attempts I know there will be no avoiding the fear. I have too much PTSD from it, fear is inevitable. I just have to keep myself calm enough to allow the process to happen. Hopefully peace will set in and I can fall asleep.

 

[Arachno]

My last thoughts will also be about the things I didn't achieve, and then hoping that there gonna is be nothing or at least something good after death and then fear that I will fail.

 

[pearlontherange]

What game is it?

Mirror's edge catalyst

 

[nasigoreng99]

I am free
Peaceful and joy that the suffering finally ends.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Actually, there have been some recent studies on what happens just before people pass. It looks like the brain gets flooded by memories sort of in a comforting manner. More studies are needed, of course and of course they're challenging to conduct.

I just hope I am not thinking about an ex or something lmao, or my toxic parents. But until then I'll probably be worried until my last breath "shit, what if this doesn't work and I wake up in a psych ward".

I always joke that when I am found, it will make the news because I will have the biggest smile on my face and everyone will be like - omg we've never seen a dead person smiling! I know I'd be smiling in some way because I will finally be so relieved.

 

[unsaiddes]

Realistically, despite how intoxicated I plan on being, I'll likely think of nothing but pure panic and pain from drowning. If I can calm myself down enough to think clearly before everything goes black, I'd like the last thing I think about to be my mom. She was always my biggest comfort.

 

[JR_Timm]

Probably relief and satisfaction that I`m leaving on my own terms.

 

[ctbusser]

Hopefully remembering positive moments from this life and thoughts of something better afterwards

 

[SoulWhisperer]

Either I'll feel like the stupidest person on this world or the smartest. I don't think I'll find something between.

 

[Trav1989]

I'll likely just have a clear head and embrace nature for one last time because everything that involves humans has caused me severe emotional anguish.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

"Where do I collect my refund?"

 

[twin size mattress]

I'm not sure. Im hoping im not gonna freak out about the possibility of failing, although as SI kicks in i most likely will. I hope i feel some kind of euphoria or relief once my body realizes that it's over tho.

 

[sugarb]

In the moment before I pull the trigger, I'll probably be thinking utterly nothing and feel completely at peace for the first time

 

[warriorkot]

you will never know until it happens. i just hope i'm happy. i think i'll be sad because i'm leaving my cats behind.

 

[Gstreater]

My family and friends probably they were the only thing keeping me around so remembering the good times wouldn't be q bad way to go out.

 

[Tod]

I don't think I will know now what might be my final thought. I slipped away after attempts multiple times now and thought that would be it and my last thoughts have always been the most random shit. Like one time I was rly sad I wouldn't witness the end of One Piece.

 

[esistzeit]

I don't think I will know now what might be my final thought. I slipped away after attempts multiple times now and thought that would be it and my last thoughts have always been the most random shit. Like one time I was rly sad I wouldn't witness the end of One Piece.

Dude, nobody's gonna see the end of one piece...

 

[avalon_]

"Fuck all the SN haters, this shit works like a charm."

 

[VoidedExistence]

"Damn. I did it. Finally."

 

[Davey40210]

My last thoughts will be of me in immense pain and wishing that I was alive due to SI. This doesn't mean that I don't want to be dead. I do see death as a relief but, unfortunately, since the only suicide methods which I can access are the risky, painful and brutal ones, my final thoughts won't be nice.

If I were to die by euthanasia or nembutal, my final thoughts would be more positive and I'd be more focused on how I'd be in eternal peace after death. It's so cruel that I'm forced to die brutally. I loathe other humans so much for making death extremely regulated

This is also my expectation. SI is powerful. I will probably claw at the rope trying to get relief. I just hope it will last briefly.

With a more humane method I would probably think about my ex gf and how I messed things up with her. And my siblings for having to go through the trauma of my CTB.

 

[ebg]

"Aight imma head out"

 

[redkitsune98]

I'll imagine the life I wanted to live with my soulmate as if it had actually happened

 

[-nobodyknows-]

It will probably be me worrying how my death will affect people and how I wish I was a stronger person.

 

[pariah80]

I hope nothing. I want to have the serenity to pull the trigger and hope to expire at that point. Whatever happens after that is out of my control, unless I gain consciousness in some sort of soul form. I just want to be gone. Thinking only strengthens the SI and causes me to stall. I'm tired of stalling and bullshitting. I want out.

 

[Jarni]

"I have no choice, I have no choice..."

 

[disjectamembra]

thinking about my cats, my siblings and how sorry i am that i didnt try harder

 

[Valhala]

It's really difficult to answer that question, but somehow I'm convinced that SI and the corresponding thoughts that go with it are what will preoccupy me. Honestly, considering that the reason for my eventual CTB is the breakup of the relationship with the woman I only truly loved and that I am the one who ended that relationship (despite the fact that I loved her and that I still love her more than anything). We are literally one soul in two bodies and this feeling of guilt eats me up and prevents me from functioning further in this life. We are still somehow connected on a mental level (dreams, thoughts), but she cannot (because of her hurt) get over my mistakes and doesn't believe that I love her, and I don't seem to have any possibility to prove it to her. There is no such thing as not I would do it to prove it to her and somehow get her back. This stalemate is unbearable, my loneliness without her is absolute and I know that no one can ever replace her. I have the possibility to have more relationships and I even know that several women are emotionally attached to me and that he loves me but I really am not able to have any emotional or physical contact with any other woman except her. I can't be alone but I can't be with anyone else but her, this is unbearable and indescribably painful. Only because of her I'm still not CTB because maybe all is not lost for us.

 

[killorbekilled]

I'll probably just feel numb and empty, thinking that this is finally it. I will also pray that my next life will be an Isekai to a better place, or to not be reincarnated at all.