Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Badly out of breath. Would love an electric shock right now.

 

[itsgone2]

Life is too long. Why do we have to live to some random age?
It's just way too long. Plus everything is going to hell anyway. Let us out of this prison

 

[Natbee]

I feel broken, I feel like my whole world is spinning and I can't stop it from falling apart. I feel hurt by so many people. I just feel like it's too much.

 

[Custos]

Dunno

 

[amor.dor]

I feel stupid. In the past, I helped a friend financially to the point of nearly becoming homeless, but when I tried to talk to him — now that I'm trying to live again — he simply refused to pay back even a small part of what he owed me. I feel so foolish…

I miss my ex. In this life, he was really the only person who was truly good to me. My family matters little now — in the past, they were always caught up in drama with me because my grandmother wanted to leave her house and inheritance to me, with the condition that I'd share it with the rest of the family as I saw fit. But they created such hell in my life that I was forced to leave home…

People can be so selfish — they can cause tremendous harm to those who reach out to them… When I stop and think about these things, it becomes so easy to want to give up.
These political and financial problems in my country just make everything worse — so much violence. No matter how much I try to want to live, I feel almost forced to die.

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And those thoughts from Hamlet come back to me:

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(Shakespeare, Hamlet):

Who would bear the burdens of life,
To grunt and sweat under a weary existence,
If not for the dread of something after death —
That undiscovered country from whose border
No traveler returns — which puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear the ills we have
Than fly to others we know not of?

 

[urgent]

Extreme pain, fear and panic that I'll suffer severely again today with out a way to ctb, desperately want the pain to at least become more bearable, always tired, can't sleep, mostly just desperately trying to end the pain, I need it to stop, it's truly torture, every single part of my body hurts, so painful to get through a day, I think it can't hurt more than this but it does, even my fingers hurt typing this, basics like eating, drinking, brushing my teeth, sitting are extremely painful I need it to stop now

 

[ghosted1]

Excited because whenever I talk to my ex, it makes me so happy. Upset because he doesn't believe I'm suicidal. But he'll see, once I kill myself. (In short he's the reason why my life is damaged. I was okay, when he broke up with me everything was normal. But he had to take me back and damage me. Yet... I still try. I still care about him.)

 

[Pipps]

Unsure Really struggling with my life

 

[Dejected 55]

It's all a mess. A swirling mess of varying kinds, some more messy than others. Some of the messes are intertwined, many are unrelated. I can do nothing to resolve anything. I have no motivation to resolve anything. Any resolution implies that I want to continue to exist, and I do not. Not at all. I am so stuck in this limbo of existing and unable to exit no matter how much I want to be gone.