People suck... everything sucks... the best I can achieve in life is mere existence, always waiting for shoes and problems do drop from the sky, though sometimes I can see them coming which is almost worse with the anticipation and dread... I want it to end, but I cannot end it. I tried that, it didn't take, and now I'm just stuck here in a world and a life I do not want, cannot tolerate, but have no way to stop or mitigate.