Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[x3la]

"You see, me and my body - we're not on good terms right now. And we probably won't be for some time"

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I feel angry, life isn't fair, and yes I get that but I don't have to just suck it up, my autism cripples me, my talents are nonexistent for what I want to do, now I feel peace. Quietness. I know I'm gonna die and that'll be it.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Anger frustration betrayed ... i have my issuses and they are mine...and mine alone to discuss with qhom ever i choose to.. just beacuse my partner knows i ok but struggling ...she thinks its her place to tell me friends about thing ..i sick and fucking tired of people who think they have the right to dictate and talk about my life ... it fucking mine ill do what i fuckin want with it .. im sorry if its not in there best intrest ... im ME just fucking let ME be ME ... why should i suffer why should bend of fucking backwards to to accomafate your feelings and how you thinkyou can tell me how to live .. step away and let me make own mistakes ...my own wins.. my life

 

[Seaghost]

Thankful for seeing an old friend today. It's been awhile since we last met...

 

[Rynalia]

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[Alcoholic Teletubby]

I have to stop helping people—I have to! There are so many homeless people where I live and I want to aid in making their circumstances just a little more bearable... But that ends up in me being taken advantage of. It feels like I can't even be entitled to kindness without taking on the brute of something else. (A.K.A. I paid $19.49 to get someone some cigarettes.)

 

[Seaghost]

Fatique endless fatique and emptiness. Im not worth anything.
And at the moment - everytime I think the darkest phase has ended. It comes again. Just to fool me and laugh in my face:"Haha, you think we're done? No you dumbass now I take you with me for the next round - wilder, faster, harder".

 

[NSA]

Meh.

 

[anonymous1234554321]

Exhausted of waiting which feels like endless.

 

[M&M]

Wishing I didn't understand why I started caring about other people's feelings and knowing its the only reason I can't ctb

 

[Goodfornothingbish]

Im so disappointed in myself. I attempted CO and did almost put others in danger so I understand them wanting to kick me out. But I can't go back to my mom's asking for help mentally is too much. Asking for a screenshot to prove she has been in therapy is me being a dictator. I would rather live on the streets then deal with the mental abuse. When my ex told her that I attempted to kill myself twice using the night night method, she smacked her teeth and sighed. YOU'RE DAUGHTER JUST TRIED TO KILL HERSELF!!! DO YOU WANT TO SEE THE BRUISES ON MY NECK! THE SELF HARM SCARS TO SHOW SHE'D RATHER DIE AND BE HOMELESS THAN LIVE WITH YOU!!??? She's in the medical field and cares more about her patients than her kids. She'd look at the obituary everyday when covid happened but couldn't find an hour for family therapy or even a therapist. I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING MYSELF OR IM TOO MUCH!!!
I just wanna die again and I only been out of the second time since yesterday. I went to the hospital on the 7th this month and got out just to go back the same day. I feel like no one wants to help me. I only have myself and it all just is too much still. I know I shouldn't have left the hospital but they didn't care. They tossed me out after me screaming I was going to kill myself for an hour. They didn't care about me wanting to die, my mother doesn't care, why should I?

 

[Subhumano]

fine, listening to music on a saturady night

 

[CTB Dream]

rly awfl lif pain sffr nostp

 

[CTB Dream]

this sad ni psbl doany

 

[fleetingnight]

Barely back and already here to vent again. It's all I'm good at. I wish I could do anything at all. If I was unhealthy, but at least smart. Or stupid, but at least good at something, just one thing at all. I'm really useless. I don't know why a thing like me was ever brought into existence. All I can do with my life is burden others and hurt. I'm not even a good friend, good to talk to, or reliable at all to make up for it. I can act "nice" for a few minutes, but I'll ghost eventually. I only drain energy from everything I touch. Yet, I'm still so damn tired all the time.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

So tired....

 

[fuewybfunsfoiceoi]

sasu is like home, I'm glad to be at home, and I still hope I can enjoy a last moment filled with lightness and relief before fading away one day

 

[Griever]

I'm drowning in a lake full of salty tears

 

[FoxSauce]

Pissed off on edge and feeling like I wanna break some skulls

 

[Sakura.]

It's been already 7 months since what happened and I still can't cope with it...

The pain and suffering are unbearable...

 

[jaefr12]

Tired. Hopeless. Lost. But the word that describes me more is failure. I failed my business partner, i failed my parentes and i feel like i failed every teacher that though i'd be someone. But, mostly, i failed my own expectations in me. I can't see myself being happy. I actually don't think i even know how to be happy, i just know that life should be better than feeling miserable all the time. Before, at least i had the expectation of being successful, now i'll have to work minimum wage because there's no other choice.

 

[Griever]

I want to scream and break something to let my anger out

 

[Promised Heaven]

Yearning to be regonized. Yearning to be loved (not romantically). Slept uncomfortably last night. Tossed and turned. I'm barely hungry and researched how to get more stimulants because I'm preparing to get addicted to the current ones I haven't tried. I'm so...just hurting. Hurting a lot. I've asked for comfort and support to nothing, so people shouldn't be upset if I cross the point of no return. Someone hear me.

 

[CTB Dream]

this awfl wrld me no end pain sffr this all trap evrd hpn dtriort no psbl doany

 

[Griever]

I don't know what I'm feeling right now, except that I'm glad I finally got Monster Energy's Ultra Strawberry Dreams flavor after seeing it on TikTok

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I feel a bit weird right now. My parents found out about the shrooms. My mom wasn't angry with me but she was worried since she doesn't have much knowledge of them and thought that I was taking them to cope and was paranoid about me becoming an addict. I'll still be allowed to take the ones that I have but only once a month (which isn't a big deal since I only ever trip once to twice a month anyway). My dad didn't care at all and thought that she was being overdramatic.

There is some other stuff going on with him right now that I don't want to divulge but I feel really concerned for him right now. I feel like he is going on a downward spiral and I don't think that his new friends are a good influence on him.

 

[Namelesa]

I want to go to sleep as I don't feel like doing anything else today but i can't and it's now 5am :< I feel so miserable that i can't go to sleep or do anything or get company of any friend or my boyfriend cus they all asleep at the moment. I feel so helpless on my own, i am never going to be able to cope on my own.

 

[Seaghost]

I want this fucking sufgering to end. I don't know how to live with that any further.
I don't want no doctor or therapist anymore. I just want it to stop NOW.
I am just a shadow of myself.
So helpless...

 

[milkteacrown]

Tired. Cynical. Apathetic.

 

[starvingsparrow]

Exhausted. Depleted. Dejected. Hopeless. Terrified.