Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,733
I rarely drink. But when I do, I can't stop until I'm all out (based?). No alcohol problem here, tbh.
Well, if you don't drink that often for it to be a problem, carry on, I guess. Just don't let it become a regular thing.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Behind the guilt was compassion
Jan 26, 2021
5,744
Well, if you don't drink that often for it to be a problem, carry on, I guess. Just don't let it become a regular thing.
I can't get addicted to cigarettes, think I'm good with this. Porn, though, but that started at 12 or soemthing.
 
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Salvation_

Salvation_

"Please, finish my story."
Nov 25, 2020
234
Awful. Wish I was dead at this very moment. Can't deal with this anxiety.
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ Sometimes I'm stressed
Jul 1, 2020
6,885
cant stop thinking about killing myself. its feeling obsessive
 
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outatime_85

Warlock
May 17, 2022
774
My choices in life have made me a loser.

I have lived a certain way for so long that my thinking and personality are incompatible with society.

I think I am finally getting closer to the end of my movie, and it doesn't have a happy ending.
 
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StarlightDreamer

StarlightDreamer

Infinity Weaver
Aug 2, 2022
110
My choices in life have made me a loser.

I have lived a certain way for so long that my thinking and personality are incompatible with society.

I think I am finally getting closer to the end of my movie, and it doesn't have a happy ending.
I know that feeling, all too well.
 
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Passersby

Passersby

Trapped in space and time
Aug 29, 2019
1,641
Mad!, Depressed!, Some more bad serious shit just happened. Now I'm fucked even more big time. Such a joke at this point. Gotta go back to the doctors tomorrow. I should have died a long time ago. I am looking forward to exiting this world and society!
 
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savoytruffle

savoytruffle

Student
Mar 31, 2022
197
Angry. today sucked
 
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Lily (Osako)

Lily (Osako)

Everything all at once
Jul 30, 2022
381
Numb
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,326
Frustration....
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,761
I have gone out to street to try to calm anxiety and all i see is groups of friends, couples and i come back and still feel lonely and sore from the physical discomfort, whatever i do i feel drained, it sucks and i feel silly for bitching all the time.
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
348
Anger mostly. But closely followed by an ugly, poisonous brew of: hatred, frustration, hopelessness, powerlessness, physical pain, anxiety, fatigue, and confusion about what I'm supposed to do now because I really have no options open to me (hence, a few of the aforementioned emotions).
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ Sometimes I'm stressed
Jul 1, 2020
6,885
i dont feel like youre going to come back. not the way you talk to me around others (or lack there of). your tone... what you dont say...you single me out in a bad way dude.. im gonna have to kms to get you out of my head..
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,761
I'm on vacation and i don't even feel like going out, just lying in bed with phone, i have no energy or zest left. I wish i had left years ago, i guess being here is one stage closer or so i hope, hate waking up every morning in an infinite cycle of emptiness.
 
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Inkling

Inkling

Member
Mar 10, 2021
27
Burned out, tired, sick, rotting, waiting for nothing.
 
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Rounded Apathy

Rounded Apathy

Longing to return to stardust
Aug 8, 2022
772
Catastrophic, in a word.
 
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narval

narval

Enlightened
Jan 22, 2020
1,188
scared marge simpson GIF

Anxiety and insecurity hitting hard. Again. Fucking god, if my mind survives and i find a good alternative i will NOT work as programmer agaib. Never. No. Nein.

And writing from the office's bathroom. Agh.
 
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http-410

http-410

nowhere
Sep 12, 2020
1,043
Exhausted, suicidal, and kind of dissociated. I am so tired that I want to go to sleep now, but I am worried that I won't be able to fall asleep. Insomnia is hell.

Thoughts and fantasies of suicide are ubiquitous. Hopelessness, and for some time increased self-loathing.

It all feels like getting crushed without it happening, but I wish it was finally over.
 
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scaredycat84

Forever and ever, Amen
Dec 29, 2021
13
Anxious, depressed, frustrated, confused, exhausted, disappointed, neglected and sad, to name a few emotions I'm strung in right now. In a fairly new relationship for the last 2 months my bf Is lately being distant to cold, acting uninterested. Idk what I should know say to fix it :(
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ Sometimes I'm stressed
Jul 1, 2020
6,885
i want to stop breathing. i want to rest. im tired
 
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electrojellysoup

electrojellysoup

Member
Apr 19, 2021
43
aaAAAaaAAAAAAAAAA FUCK GOD DAMN IT it's just so hard and so unfair why am I like this why is the world like this
 
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Dead Horse

Dead Horse

Hopeless, but literally
Nov 14, 2018
150
Even if a miracle happened tomorrow, and everything wrong in my life was fixed, it'd still be too late for me. My "best years" are behind me.

Ok, I failed this life. Let me try again.
 
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Dysgenic Pup

Dysgenic Pup

A canine that’s not so heavenly.
Sep 18, 2021
435
I don't know why I don't desire to die. I'm sick of it all and I just sit here feeling terrible but I'm not researching methods or taking any action. I'm in limbo and it's terrible. I don't see any improvement in my near future, I don't know why I don't want to end it. In Fall 2020, I was so ready to end it all but didn't follow through. Life made so much more sense back then. Crazy how I can't get that motivation again.
 
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Lily (Osako)

Lily (Osako)

Everything all at once
Jul 30, 2022
381
Anxious
 
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FailureGirl

FailureGirl

lost in limbo...
Jul 5, 2021
133
Unfortunately life just cant stop throwing things at me some good, some bad.

I had one day where I actually smiled a real genuine smile that stayed on my face for a 5 whole minutes I smile with others but as soon no ones looking it drops away.

But even with the good moments i can't keep ignoring the bad I can't keep hanging over this dark void fingers bearly clinging to a fraying rope hoping to be saved.... Knowing that I can't be, I'd only drag them into the void with me.

I also keep getting reminded that in just over 6 months il be 30.. that can't happen I promised myself when I was 10 maybe younger that i wouldn't let myself live past 30 so I guess I really am against the clock now... I hope I find a chance to ctb soon and I hope I dont back out and I hope my sn is still good or il have to make a long trip to the bridge..
 
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Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,397
Starting my workweek exhausted even though I barely moved or slept all weekend.

I'm tired to my core.
 
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Astral Storm

Astral Storm

Existence hurts too much
Aug 10, 2022
74
I am terrified, hopeless and angry. Just looking at the world makes me want to die. I hate being here and I hate this stupid world so much.
 
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DynamicDepression

Deranged
Mar 28, 2022
352
How could I have been so stupid for so long? How could I hurt the one person I love more than anything? Why did I do this time and time again? I'm nothing but a vile monster.
 
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