Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Squalo]

I hope I don't wake up tomorrow, I hate my life;
I can't take it anymore, I'm tired, tired of everything.
tired of my life, of my family, of my job, of my old and backward country, of this bad and selfish world ... I want to escape from all this.

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

Exhausted and antsy all at once. I'm waiting for change but don't have the energy or motivation to make it happen, so I'm constantly bored.

I'm slightly anxious. I think about how no one really knows me, entirely. Even to those I can laugh around, I can't exactly tell them I dream of my demise, or that I have horrific, detrimental intrusive thoughts that might make them repulsed by me. Years of constant overthinking took away my focus, so now every thought slips away and I'm never really present. It's a blessing and a curse; while I can't recall each of my stressors, the good things, too, disappear without fanfare.

I hope I will too, someday.

 

[Ringo]

So much stress is not worth it, please kill me, I want to rest.

 

[StarryStarry]

Pissed off, tired of stupid people.

 

[Willy Wonka]

didn´t speak to anyone in a week or so and it´s probably going to stay like this. I´m kinda at the point to either turn my life around completely (which I don´t feel I can do it) or getting more serious about CTB, if I only had the money for N ... tried to quit smoking today and started again ... now I´m thinking to jump but my thoughts are so all over the place, I don´t have the energy to search hours for a place. I´m in Berlin, Germany and I´m new here so I don´t have that search function ... thanks for listening!

 

[Seaghost]

Don't know whats going on.
I have the feeling I'm trapped in a cage and could explode every second. Don't know why there's so much pressure but it feels insane and eats my whole power.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I'm sad I feel so trapped and unhappy when I was just starting to get better. Some people really know how to bring out the worst in you. This should be a happy memorable time for me but it's not and I want to escape again.

 

[Nolan96]

Annoyed that I know I'll waste my days off from work again being exhausted and doing nothing I probably should be doing for myself.

Worried about the whole Ukraine thing even though I'm American. (Although this will probably affect us more than any other country outside of Eastern Europe. I already feel the cultural panic brewing.)

 

[EvilStepSister]

I need to kill that pesky, pea-brained Inner Child who got me into this mess, believing that I deserved to be loved and foolishly convincing me that I was loved. Even after almost accepting that I was sorely mistaken and that it's time to give up on the dream once and for all, she's still hoping he'll be there.



She needs to die.

 

[Ringo]

Tomorrow I'm going to move, I'll be without internet for a few days and I'll have to solve some things about the university... It will be long days

 

[waitingforrest]

I just really want to bash my brains in and make spaghetti out of it. I just don't see any escape, no way out.

internally screams AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHJHJHJJJJJH

But yeah, I'm doing just fine. I hope.

 

[Nanako]

Doing a little better =)

 

[Ringo]

At least it's over, the wi-fi problem could be solved, I received a response from my university, now I have access to a tablet with a corporate data plan, the new house is strange but my room is better positioned, I feel relieved but tired, I don't know how many things I had to move from one place to another and 60% aren't even mine.

 

[Deadly_Intention]

I'm angry that I am being ignored by my favorite person but also hurt that I am the villain again and that's why I am being blocked.

 

[LastFlowers]

I need desperately to sleep, I am so upset and so fucking tired, I got one decent night's sleep maybe a week ago, I need another one soon or else I'm going to lose the fraction of functionality I've been clinging to.

 

[Kristicide]

Wired at 430am...watching livestream of war...reading on ss...wondering why my ambien and tizanidine haven't made me sleepy. I took them 2 hours ago. I gotta take some more. Guess I'll wake up hella late tomorrow

 

[Deleted member 8975]

Wired at 430am...watching livestream of war...reading on ss...wondering why my ambien and tizanidine haven't made me sleepy. I took them 2 hours ago. I gotta take some more. Guess I'll wake up hella late tomorrow

Doing exactly the same things. Same situation.
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I feel terrible. Disgusted. Disgusting. Awful. Crap. I feel angry at myself too and ashamed of myself. I don't even want to look at myself I'm so ashamed. What a piece of trash I am. I hate myself so much and I wish I'd never been born. Stupid piece of shit.

:(

 

[Seaghost]

Im gasping for air. This pressure is enormous.
I just want to fall down to the ground and scream and cry. Instead im trying to bake a cake.
Help me mama and caress me. Let.me die in your arms.
Help....this burden take my whole power.
Maybe take the knife to slice my skin again.
Its so sad. So sad

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Having bad dreams, sometimes actual nightmares, seemingly every time I sleep. Bored, alone, have nothing to do, so I may as well sleep. Dreading it though.

 

[EvilStepSister]

But you said you'd never abandon me.
But you said you'd never abandon me.
Butyousaidyoudneverabandonme!

 

[http-410]

hopeless, helpless, anxious, panicked, horrified, shocked, disappointed, torn apart, wounded, nauseous, dissociated

 

[LastFlowers]

So tired. Need to sleep. It's been consecutive days now again with no rest.
Just sobbed and screamed at the top of my lungs for hours, my throat is fucked, my eyes are swelling shut..I'm done with this hell.

I'm also so sick and tired of people romanticizing their own victimhood when they don't know the meaning of the word, while other people have to suffer in silence and get steamrolled and patronized at every corner, doubly for pointing out the bullshit.
It's so exhausting having to be stomped out by people steeping themselves in their own fanciful delusions and hyperbole who are somehow coddled with attention and adoration in response, while others don't have that luxury-not even the smallest of silver linings to their suffering.
Cruelty and unfairness have become so deeply layered, those who are the worst off are suffocating beneath slabs of stone and taught sheaths of oppression & censorship, they struggle under the weight of everyone else, while those of a more affluent existence whine and shout about having to slumber underneath a few weightless flax linens-moaning to those below them, like a princess appropriating the pain of the pea that she is crushing with her needless tossing and turning.

Enough already. I have had enough.

 

[allesistgut]

i'm so tired of everything.

 

[Passersby]

Dealing with several things beating me up right now. It's no good. Screw this !

 

[g0921]

I want to go home. (AT WORK)

 

[Hydrangea]

i don't want to hurt anyone

 

[- crybaby -]

AHHHHHHHHHH

fuck this fuck that fuuuuuuuuckkk

 

[davidgeorge]

I'm presenting at a conference tomorrow. I love doing stuff like that but it'll be my last time

 

[Lostandlooking]

Anhedonia. Not really interested in anything lately. I don't want to engange with anything. But I get restless as well. Very dissappointed with mental health professionals lately. It all feels so absurd. Like I'm living in a different world and using different words from everyone else. Disconnected. Disillusioned. God I wish I could forget who I am and what is going on. I don't want to experience anything anymore.

 

[LastFlowers]

Need desperately to sleep still.
Tired of people's bullshit.
My jaw is killing me.
Annoyed at my own private message habits of not getting back to people in a respectful time period.
I'm so fucking tired..