Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[TheHatedOne]

i wanna inflict pain upon myself, i wanna inflict pain upon myself, i wanna inflict pain upon myself, i wanna inflict pain upon myself, i deserve it.

 

[Manaaja]

I was painting but my hand got numb and stiff suddenly, I was in a pretty good rhytm so it sucks, but on the other hand it's 2am and I should be in bed already.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Too much stress, too much anxiety, too much hopelesness, too much bullshit. I want it all to end.

 

[Manaaja]

"You're the combination of the five people you spend the most time with" says psychology.

Be right back, gotta go meet my billionaire friends.

 

[TheHatedOne]

pretty calm rn just listening to some electro swing, everything okayish even if I skipped classes today and I'm doomed in general :D.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Having an awful headache from caffeine withdrawal. It's only been a day since I last had any though. Why am I so stupid? I keep being too lazy to get any caffeine even though I know I need it. I'm even too lazy to get any Advil plus Advil doesn't even work right away and I'm an impatient bitch I just want this pain to end now.

 

[motel rooms]

Having an awful headache from caffeine withdrawal. It's only been a day since I last had any though. Why am I so stupid? I keep being too lazy to get any caffeine even though I know I need it. I'm even too lazy to get any Advil plus Advil doesn't even work right away and I'm an impatient bitch I just want this pain to end now.

Could you BE more American?

 

[TheHatedOne]

anxiety 100

 

[Unicornsrnot4dislife]

Self destructive and wanting to hurt myself

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Could you BE more American?

I don't really like drinking Coke so I guess that's where I'd start. Also my skin color would say otherwise.

 

[Fk_life]

Feeling lost.

 

[Manaaja]

I'm so stressed that I feel I will literally die of it

 

[Crimsonghost3]

empty lost and like making a line from my wrist to my shoulder

 

[Itsallover123]

Stressed and kinda panicking because I'm worried that my window is closing to ctb and idk when I'll get another chance

 

[TheHatedOne]

ngl, I feel pretty lonely rn and ignored.

 

[motel rooms]

Also my skin color would say otherwise.

What does skin color have to do with it? Americans all look the same to the rest of us.

 

[S like suicide]

Screwed

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Feel like shit. Cut myself yesterday, first time in a while. Couldn't take the stress of everything. Twenty cuts on my legs, didn't wanna stop, even let myself cut my forearm. Now I just want to keep cutting but I know I'll spiral. It will escalate pretty quickly. I'll start using the razor blade again, cut more, cut deeper. Will probably put it to my neck again, which is actually a really calm feeling (like holding a gun to your head).

And now I'm dissociating. Really, really wanna kill myself. But this is a typical morning. I forget how intense the desire is to hurt myself, kill myself. I often remember the taste of SN and just crave it so much more.

I think I'm kinda fucked up. Just tired, feel awful. Mm

 

[waterstrider]

cold, sad and emotional.
I just want someone to hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright and that I am enough just the way I am...I can't change my stupid brain, lord knows I tried for so many years. I will have to do it coming March.

 

[Kennish]

Uncomfortable

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

What does skin color have to do with it? Americans all look the same to the rest of us.

Idk it's kind of a big deal here

 

[Scribble Fan]

I feel like shit. Getting pretty close to buying SN. I just want this pain to end.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Really, really fucking hate myself.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I hate that those around me see me deteriorate like this.

 

[Circles]

I just fucking hate everyone at the moment. Everyone can go sincerely and royally go fuck themselves to oblivion. But hey I'm sure they think the same of me because that just what humans fucking do. It's funny how people think they're better than you all because someone like me is a loser at everything in life. How pretentious. You need to compare yourself to losers and lowlifes just to feel a little better about your shitty lives. Well how fucking shallow.

 

[TheHatedOne]

trying my best to not give in to anxiety and hopelesness again after I had a really great night last night. Things are going a bit better than they did one or two months ago for sure, but my life is still like a ticking bomb and I need to do something before the inevitable happens.

 

[Scribble Fan]

STRESSED right now. I don't know what to do. I'm not strong enough for this world. I'm deeply wounded and exhausted. I can't go on like this.

Just the other day I was feeling a little better but now I'm suicidal again. I even bought some SN. I wish everyone and everything would just leave me alone. I'm broken and I'm scared.

 

[odradek]

Big sigh all around fam. *Sigh*...

 

[TheHatedOne]

how the fucking fuck can someone get pissed off because someone else has a laughing fit????? fucking fuck?????? apparently cant have fun anymore in the world because someone will get pissed off??? whaaaat is this shit?

 

[ascetic_]

Spiritually derelict; maniacal rage - like a poked wolf in a cage. Psychically wounded by flashing memories of my own cruelty. And then the flood of guilt eating away at me like a cancer. Wash, rinse, repeat.