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Kyotospade

Kyotospade

Member
Jan 5, 2025
16
I'm lost and alone , it's been a year since my ex boyfriend ctb. My mind isn't what it was and I'm drowning in the memories of what once was.
 
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The_Hunter

The_Hunter

Hunter
Nov 30, 2024
77
I feel disappointed and frustrated. Also I feel like I letdown some people. I got sick right on the day of New Years. And there was some plans made, now it all goes down. I could see it as some kind of a sign, but honestly, I just feel sad.

I'm sorry to hear that. Know it's not a sign, sometimes bad things happen and it feels bad, and that's ok.

Please take all the time you need to rest and take care of yourself through this period of sadness.

Your plans may not have worked now, but they can work out in the future.

There is no greater explanation to your plans or feelings being down; sometimes bad things happen, and things don't go as planned. But that's part of life, too, and there can be good occurrences after the bad ones.

Best of luck. Remember that one day, maybe you'll just randomly remember the pain you are currently in right now and think "huh, that sure was bad then, but it's not so bad anymore."

Know your pain can pass; and one day or a week is just one small piece of a whole new year. Hope you get well soon :) and hope you keep well in your current sadness.

...
There are times we feel like a hollow shell and even good things seem to be poisoned. We just survive those times. We take distractions and little joys to get through that depression. [ ... ] Music helps as well. Catharsis helps. [...] Art helps.

We really need both to value things we take for granted and also to have a tiny bit of hope for what's to come. [...] Only you can find your reasons to live there are worth it to you, things that make each day worth it. I'm still trying to figure out my own. It's hard and it's a process and you take it a bit at a time. I hope you find what you need to and that you take care of yourself. [...]

u/justice4winnie
 
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thinkingofdeath

Member
Dec 26, 2024
20
Sad, anxious, heavy, fearful. Trying to sleep it off but I know I'm going to wake up in a few hours feeling tender, with the pain intensified.
 
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Electra

Electra

In sleep's embrace, forever estranged
Jul 1, 2024
231
Overwhelmed, anxious, uneasy. Don't know what to do. Feel like something is swallowing me whole.
 
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Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
657
I'm so freaking embarrassed. 😞 I don't want to be too specific about this, but I tried putting myself out there and really just failed spectacularly.

I shouldn't have even bothered to begin with, but I did, and it just sucks so much watching others get what you hoped would happen to you. I just feel so humiliated.

Can't wait to get off this stupid rock.
 
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SA1994EC

Member
Jan 28, 2021
167
l can't believe I am still here alive. Everything in the universe has been telling me I should have died a very long time ago. And I am getting more and more suffering every day. I need to get ready & kill myself now. Too painful…
 
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roboteulogy

roboteulogy

Member
Jul 17, 2023
14
i'm scared i won't get better. i haven't gotten better despite things changing. i'm terrified of the future. i feel like it's only going to get worse.
 
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fuewybfunsfoiceoi

fuewybfunsfoiceoi

life is short, make it shorter
Mar 3, 2024
31
I feel absurd knowing I need to go against s prevention in order to achieve peace. It feels cruel
and unusual
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,595
Low. Confused. Slightly angry... irritated?

Considering how certain people talk about me I must be a monster.
 
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