Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Electra]

I'm a little exhausted, and I can feel the energy levels slowly going down. Embracing full holiday spirit of doing nothing? Maybe. We'll see after the holidays I guess lol.

 

[CTB Dream]

this v sad see time mov mov noable doany

 

[gloomurai]

i dont know why i expect so much.. things go bad everytime i want to help myself. m=why do i feel awful when im "better"? why do i yearn for things that are unhealthy. I just want to say im sorry.

 

[kenma0]

i miss someone, but im starting to feel anger at them too. its weird. i feel betrayed and left behind, like our time together didnt matter to him. like he doesnt care what he did to me or how he treated me. i wish he knew how much i want to die because of him. i almost want to cbt just to make him feel a little ounce of regret for the treatment he gave me. i would never know if it would do anything, because id be dead lol, but if i end up a ghost, id haunt him. id ruin him. but i miss him and love him still. anyone else feel this? missing someone who destroyed you? its because of my self esteem. most people can move on pretty easily. people who love themselves, but im not one of those people. i love too hard. it sucks

i dont know why i expect so much.. things go bad everytime i want to help myself. m=why do i feel awful when im "better"? why do i yearn for things that are unhealthy. I just want to say im sorry.

i also yearn for unhealthy things. made me feel more than them being gone. why does this happen? who knows lol. sometimes i feel i dont deserve to feel "better" you know?

 

[fleetingnight]

I hate coming in just to vent when I haven't been here/engaged with anyone's posts in a while...

...But, work has me so exhausted, I can barely do anything else.

If this is what it takes to survive, I don't think I want to.

 

[KrowaKovsky]

i called out of work today because i just couldn't do it today, mentally, and i also just couldn't make the walk because my crippled ass cant be normal. ofc i got plenty of "if you're feeling better later in the day you should come in! we really could use the help and your absence makes everything more compacted and stressful!" which made me feel worse about just not being able to mentally or physically today which makes everything fucking worse.

and here i am sitting at my computer just kind of rotting because i havent had time to myself for the last few months it feels, work till you drop i guess. i hate making other people suffer so i can have a break but considering i still work the rest of the week sans christmas day, i think they're going to be fine

i just want a break, i want to be able to come in, do my shit, then leave on time. im so tired of staying late because other people want to go home early, it's just a constant frustrating circle;

work > coworkers leave even though they arent done > end up staying late so things get done > get in trouble for staying late, repeat
or it's
work > coworkers leave even though they arent done > dont stay late & just leave at the time im supposed to > get in trouble

 

[FinalVoid25]

Mental and physical pain