Discussion What are you doing right now?

[anxious_depressive]

Yeah :( That's how mine is at the moment.

I'm sending you a hug.

 

[lili]

Ohh, I unfortunately can no longer listen to music.

Oh that's interesting for me I have to listen to music constantly.

But when I have too much energy and get too manic that's when I can't listen to music at all because then I get really lost with the music and it's too intense for me to handle.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Oh that's interesting for me I have to listen to music constantly.

But when I have too much energy and get too manic that's when I can't listen to music at all because then I get really lost with the music and it's too intense for me to handle.

It's not that I don't like listening to music. When I was well I listened to music every day and several times a day. And first thing in the morning. But I realized that I can only listen to music when I am well. I haven't listened to a single song in months. If I listened to music now I would listen to sad songs and I would get more depressed.

 

[lili]

It's not that I don't like listening to music. When I was well I listened to music every day and several times a day. And first thing in the morning. But I realized that I can only listen to music when I am well. I haven't listened to a single song in months. If I listened to music now I would listen to sad songs and I would get more depressed.

I see yes it can be difficult to listen to music when very depressed. I think I try to constantly play it to avoid it but sometimes it gets really painful that I can't take it and it feels like pointless noise. Almost like it's forcing me to feel joy but it makes me feel even more sad the idea that I know there is joy in this world supposedly per the way the music looks and feels but I don't have it.

The last two weeks I wasn't able to play as much.

 

[stellabelle]

Reflection.

Which is quite fucking pointless, counterproductive, and outright unhealthy.


I am a blob.

Blob of uselessness, depression, hatred, grief, frustration, poor choices, bad circumstances, lack of self esteem, and unnecessary internalized turmoil that repeats like a store soundtrack.

It is the most fucking pointless thing in the world.

I am fucking depressed.

I wish I could have had a better outcome, decision making process, relatives, and the support that I needed in the years that it was most crucial to my development.

It is not fun, it is not funny, it is not a joke, it is a life destroyed that went on and destroyed others.

It is a painful reality of what happened and how it happened, what led to it, "solidified" it, and molded it to be stuck this way.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Reflection.

Which is quite fucking pointless, counterproductive, and outright unhealthy.


I am a blob.

Blob of uselessness, depression, hatred, grief, frustration, poor choices, bad circumstances, lack of self esteem, and unnecessary internalized turmoil that repeats like a store soundtrack.

It is the most fucking pointless thing in the world.

I am fucking depressed.

I wish I could have had a better outcome, decision making process, relatives, and the support that I needed in the years that it was most crucial to my development.

It is not fun, it is not funny, it is not a joke, it is a life destroyed that went on and destroyed others.

It is a painful reality of what happened and how it happened, what led to it, "solidified" it, and molded it to be stuck this way.

I'm so sorry. I understand you. Life is really unfair and hard. Feel free to PM me anytime.

 

[ClownMe]

Browsing SS while my dog snores next to me on the bed.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Browsing SS while my dog snores next to me on the bed.

Ohhh give your dog a hug for me

 

[ClownMe]

Ohhh give your dog a hug for me

I shall <3