Discussion What are the reasons you want to ctb?

[Ijustcantanymore]

Not in any particular order:

*Unresolved trauma from abuse from both parents
*Can't remember 20 years of my life, which is most of it
*Multiple mental health comorbidities that fuel each other
*Diabetes/weight/physical health/chronic pain
*Hatred of our species and my desire to no longer be a part of it
*Corruption and assholery are rewarded and validated constantly and pieces of shit that defend it
*All the needless cruelty that humans demonstrate and then also defend and validate
*Capitalism (stupid and not sustainable, I don't want live through the collapse and the resource wars)
*Fascism (the world is going through a new phase of it and I'd rather not go through it at all)
*Straight people. Not because I hate them, but because they love to play the victim and believe everything is life should revolve around them because they are the majority. Okay maybe I hate them a wee bit.
*Being gay. It has never added anything positive to my life. I'd rather have no sexuality period.
*Being a man. I'm am ashamed of my gender group. Same shit. Toxic behavior that is rewarded and validated. Which makes gay so much more fun. My only dating pool is garbage.
*Religion. Fucked up toxic shit invented to control and fleece the masses.
*Fear of ending up completely alone before death.
*Being homeless. I actually expect this to occur in the next couple of years. And there is nothing I can do about it.
*The realization that therapy is a scam meant to make you a cog in the machine where you don't matter.
*Climate change. Again, resource wars, famine, all that fun stuff that people believe isn't going to happen. I really do look forward to people learning their lesson about this the hard painful way.

Those are all the main factors. The others are all small things that just add up.

 

[Hi_I_am_Dead_Weight]

I am broken and I don't want to fix myself, the repairs are just too time-consuming, troublesome; and frankly, unreliable. I don't have that kind of energy! Yet, obviously, It's hard to throw anything out once you grow attached to it.

I can't help but procrastinate on death. Ironically, the same problems that broke me apart are keeping the last pieces together.

I want to ctb because I'm tired and lazy, very lazy. Living is not free, it will always have a price.

 

[fatty44]

I am broken and I don't want to fix myself, the repairs are just too time-consuming, troublesome; and frankly, unreliable. I don't have that kind of energy! Yet, obviously, It's hard to throw anything out once you grow attached to it.

I can't help but procrastinate on death. Ironically, the same problems that broke me apart are keeping the last pieces together.

I want to ctb because I'm tired and lazy, very lazy. Living is not free, it will always have a price.

I resonate with this 100%.

I'm also very slow, I'm not sure I'm lazy because if I'm really interested in something I tend to be quite a hard worker. And I had phases with extreme discipline in my life, but it's just not sustainable. I later recognized those phases were tied to my bipolar disorder.

Thanks for sharing.

 

[lil dwayne]

Life. Look outside, how fucked it all is. And the way the world is going its only getting worse.

 

[painfully]

Having a family that makes me lose my desire to pursue my life. I just want to escape and not deal with more of this every single day.

If you can manage to get a job, shouldnt be this in your reach? If you got away from your family, everything would be ok? No more suicidal?

 

[lonely swiss]

Pure hopelessness the future looks too dull to continue

Me too, I just want the pain to end

 

[Daphne]

insomnia, boredom, poverty, lack of opportunity, health probs, age

 

[lillmonix3]

One day I realized that my life was useless. I do nothing for this life, I can't even provide for my parents. I used to think that only I would work and my parents would rest. But now it's the other way around. I am lying in bed and depressed, while my parents work. I fight the desire to die with the help of self-harm.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Money. Just enough money for a home, to live on my own, with a garden in a quiet, safe suburb with a dog and a few comforts. Enough money to eat healthy, exercise and pay bills without worrying about where I will live and how to make ends meet every momment of the day.

 

[huifu]

Tired. I'm too tired.

 

[Eriktf]

no particular order

childhood trauma
addiction
life long mental health problems
insomnia
why not die now insted of waiting
financial stress (but i think that will get better soon)
unemployed
there are one reason that i will take to the grave
no reasons to stay alive

 

[lonely swiss]

Tired. I'm too tired.

Me too