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Venting Well I'm a fucking loser once again

PixelAngel

PixelAngel

The Great Glowing Exit Sign
Sep 1, 2025
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I can't believe how stupid I am. I tried to hope again. Just a tiny bit, and it was difficult. I tried to make something out of it. But hope always hurts. HOPE ALWAYS HURTS. I guess I've just been too stupid to take the lesson. And now I fucked myself for CTB for a while. I don't want to exist anymore. I can't believe I bothered to hope. I was ready to CTB at any time. Just doing stuff I wanted to finish first. And now I have to keep living. I should have done it months ago. Years ago. I have always wished I'd never been born, but CTB is the next best thing and guilting myself into trying one more time earned only pain, and in such a short time frame too. I guess at least it didn't go longer. I wish I could say that about my life.

Everything sucks.
 
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