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- Aug 9, 2023
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Hello everyone.
Having wasted a lot of time for many years of my life continues to haunt me with current consequences. I mean spending time on friendships as well as romance relationships that were not worth it. Also in stupid jobs where I didn't learn anything and just kept moving forward to make a living. Stupid hobbies that added nothing to myself too.
Being born in a disastrous family affected me a lot but now I know that I could have done more than all of this and I didn't, so I also have part of this.
For example, currently my job consists of driving, I drive all day long, which at this point in my life I dislike it, so this is as far as I've come, this is all I can do? I shouldn't have dropped out of my degree and I should have continued studying, but now it's impossible because I can't stop working and it's too many hours of work. So many depressions along the way, maybe I thought my life would not last so long but here I am, so now I pay the consequences.
Or also being in a sentimental or friendly relationship and fighting for it, suffering for them, when it wasn't worth it because I could tell they didn't love me, so what's the point in suffering for them? It's was a waste of time too. Well, these things can happen to anyone, but so many years wasted with these people? I should have been done with them much sooner.
I could have met more people instead of wasting my time with those who were not worth it, I could have learned a lot of useful things instead of wasting my time on stupid hobbies, I could have focused on a future profession.
Well, all of this among other things like a life with few blessings leads me to think that a great part of my time was wasted and consequently it is a life badly done too.
The only thing I learned from all this is to try not to waste my time anymore.
Having wasted a lot of time for many years of my life continues to haunt me with current consequences. I mean spending time on friendships as well as romance relationships that were not worth it. Also in stupid jobs where I didn't learn anything and just kept moving forward to make a living. Stupid hobbies that added nothing to myself too.
Being born in a disastrous family affected me a lot but now I know that I could have done more than all of this and I didn't, so I also have part of this.
For example, currently my job consists of driving, I drive all day long, which at this point in my life I dislike it, so this is as far as I've come, this is all I can do? I shouldn't have dropped out of my degree and I should have continued studying, but now it's impossible because I can't stop working and it's too many hours of work. So many depressions along the way, maybe I thought my life would not last so long but here I am, so now I pay the consequences.
Or also being in a sentimental or friendly relationship and fighting for it, suffering for them, when it wasn't worth it because I could tell they didn't love me, so what's the point in suffering for them? It's was a waste of time too. Well, these things can happen to anyone, but so many years wasted with these people? I should have been done with them much sooner.
I could have met more people instead of wasting my time with those who were not worth it, I could have learned a lot of useful things instead of wasting my time on stupid hobbies, I could have focused on a future profession.
Well, all of this among other things like a life with few blessings leads me to think that a great part of my time was wasted and consequently it is a life badly done too.
The only thing I learned from all this is to try not to waste my time anymore.
