Wanting to die

[alwayssad]

I just want to stop existing but I can't put the effort to actually attempt suicide, I get into any work and forget about it, and stuck in this loop, I just hope it would end anytime.

 

[todeswunsch]

The lack of energy drives my suicidal ideation but also won't allow me to put an effort to do it.
I lack the motivation even to end this. Ironic and pathetic but its the way it is