1nocares
Member
- May 22, 2026
- 28
This might be a whole bunch of rambling but I do not feel here lately. it's like autopilot. i'm just doing bare minimum to live And live with Myself. i take care of myself better now. But only when i have to. i think that's the problem, i don't really do it for myself. I could live with not showering if i didn't have to interact with people on a daily
If i didn't want to look good for him, i probably wouldn't be doing even this much
I don't enjoy my mindset. I don't think i even know what my mindset is. I don't feel here lately. I'm not present. only certain times i can really breathe. very Very rare times. it's like a glimpse into how i could be feeling on the daily. i just feel stuck and like my mind is forcing me there. i can't move on, my thoughts are in a constant loop and i feel like i haven't grown since i was 12 mentally. How do you tell someone you hate everything about yourself
I can't give myself time
It's all i have yet i can't use it to my advantage
I wish i enjoyed things like others. i wish i found things worth knowing But for some reason i just can't keep up
I feel like i can only handle so much
i don't know what im doing here. I already know that i don't have any passion, for anything, including Life. Then what am i doing here
Just try things out, do something. What happens if my mind just goes straight back to where i am. I can take those breaks, I can visit nature, i can meditate. Yet it all goes back to this. Why am i here, what am i doing here, do i deserve to live if i bring nothing to this world
Am i more deserving of death
Everything just looks so easy to others, I see it in person. How naturally people have talent. I know it takes hard work, i know im minimizing the amount of effort they probably put in. But can i say that some people have something that others just don't. I don't want to sound like i'm automatically handicapping myself. But i just can't shake that feeling
I am nothing special.
Why do i think the way i do
It's like my brain is just so so tired
i'm tired of thinking im just tired of everything
I can't talk like usual. I just don't have the energy
i don't want to speak every word feels like I'm drowning
If i didn't want to look good for him, i probably wouldn't be doing even this much
I don't enjoy my mindset. I don't think i even know what my mindset is. I don't feel here lately. I'm not present. only certain times i can really breathe. very Very rare times. it's like a glimpse into how i could be feeling on the daily. i just feel stuck and like my mind is forcing me there. i can't move on, my thoughts are in a constant loop and i feel like i haven't grown since i was 12 mentally. How do you tell someone you hate everything about yourself
I can't give myself time
It's all i have yet i can't use it to my advantage
I wish i enjoyed things like others. i wish i found things worth knowing But for some reason i just can't keep up
I feel like i can only handle so much
i don't know what im doing here. I already know that i don't have any passion, for anything, including Life. Then what am i doing here
Just try things out, do something. What happens if my mind just goes straight back to where i am. I can take those breaks, I can visit nature, i can meditate. Yet it all goes back to this. Why am i here, what am i doing here, do i deserve to live if i bring nothing to this world
Am i more deserving of death
Everything just looks so easy to others, I see it in person. How naturally people have talent. I know it takes hard work, i know im minimizing the amount of effort they probably put in. But can i say that some people have something that others just don't. I don't want to sound like i'm automatically handicapping myself. But i just can't shake that feeling
I am nothing special.
Why do i think the way i do
It's like my brain is just so so tired
i'm tired of thinking im just tired of everything
I can't talk like usual. I just don't have the energy
i don't want to speak every word feels like I'm drowning
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