VERY DESPERATE

[Susan Caswell]

I know probably have to do this myself but can anyone help me i cant stay in this torture deafening roaring hammering tinnitus 3 years its taken my health and now my sanity noise that never stops cant get away from never not hear its horrific and dont even know why came from nowhere i was really well and healthy loved my life had so much wanted to do i know id be ok and get well if just would stop its the most dementing torture cant get over the state im on all i want to do is die be at peace wish someone would help me or order N for me i dont know how to can anyone out their help me or sell me theirs if they dont want it or need it now wish we had assisted suicide in UK we should have the right to choose they wouldnt leave an animal in this much torment i thought id had all my medical quota survived cancer a big back operation breast reduction felt great there wasnt anything i couldnt do life was great i ate well lived well are there any medical people on here when i think just not this id be just living my life normal happy could have taken anything but this day after day never thought id get so ill with it but its way more than i can take or live with and i can stand a lot i have friends with it a partner with it none in this state or as loud as this all cope can stand it ive been suicidal with it from day it started and it was nothing like it is now i should have taken no meds and stayed calm eat well ive lost so much weight hair feel like someone is electrocuting me body jerking with panic and anxiety cant sleep if i dont sleep soon i cant live this way this should be happy carefree time doing normal things all i want is it to stop even then id take some getting well now please please can someone help me this is like being tortured alive

 

[Drowning fish]

I'm sorry for your suffering. Although you're in England, Dignitas Switzerland still accepts foreigners if you have enough energy to wait months until they accept your application.

 

[Chupacabra 44]

I've had tinnitus for twenty years. For me, it's bilateral. In seeking to determine cause and effect, I've failed to locate any impacting variables aside from stress and sleep deprivation.

Read recently that bilateral tinnitus might have a genetic link - thanks mom!

My condition is no where near as bad as yours. How do I cope? At night, I listen to a white noise machine set to the sound of a heavy rain storm. At home, I play classical music 24/7 to help drown out the noise and understanding that classical music is alledged to help many lower stress.

My suggestion for you is to learn and to practice meditation. Learn how to better control what your brain focuses on, and what it doesn't focus on through meditation. Many years ago (can't recall the source), I read a story of someone suicidal from his tinnitus. Think he might have been from New York? Anyway, apparently there is a doctor who was doing cutting edge surgeries that were successfully curing tinnitus. This surgeon was in Europe. I think France?

The patients doctors sent the MRI to the doctor in France. The doctor in France circled on the MRI exactly where the surgery needed to occur. The American doctor preformed the surgery, and if I remember correctly the patient was cured.

The article had a picture of the MRI with the circle of where to preform the surgery. Frankly, I don't recall reading exactly what the surgery involved.

If interested, you can Google to try and find the article. I've given enough clues for a good search. I'm new here if I knew how to attach the article for you., I would look myself.

I've read tinnitus forums periodically over the years. These forums are a better source for ideas on tinnitus treatment options. How active are you on the tinnitus forums?

 

[Susan Caswell]

I've had tinnitus for twenty years. For me, it's bilateral. In seeking to determine cause and effect, I've failed to locate any impacting variables aside from stress and sleep deprivation.

Read recently that bilateral tinnitus might have a genetic link - thanks mom!

My condition is no where near as bad as yours. How do I cope? At night, I listen to a white noise machine set to the sound of a heavy rain storm. At home, I play classical music 24/7 to help drown out the noise and understanding that classical music is alledged to help many lower stress.

My suggestion for you is to learn and to practice meditation. Learn how to better control what your brain focuses on, and what it doesn't focus on through meditation. Many years ago (can't recall the source), I read a story of someone suicidal from his tinnitus. Think he might have been from New York? Anyway, apparently there is a doctor who was doing cutting edge surgeries that were successfully curing tinnitus. This surgeon was in Europe. I think France?

The patients doctors sent the MRI to the doctor in France. The doctor in France circled on the MRI exactly where the surgery needed to occur. The American doctor preformed the surgery, and if I remember correctly the patient was cured.

The article had a picture of the MRI with the circle of where to preform the surgery. Frankly, I don't recall reading exactly what the surgery involved.

If interested, you can Google to try and find the article. I've given enough clues for a good search. I'm new here if I knew how to attach the article for you., I would look myself.

I've read tinnitus forums periodically over the years. These forums are a better source for ideas on tinnitus treatment options. How active are you on the tinnitus forums?

It was someone from here in UK sent his scan to Dr Shapiro in New York and he sent back how to do it but the person had Pulsatile Tinnitus and just ned stand in Blood Vessel and the heart beat noise stopped.
I coped at first it was copable but cant live with this its as loud as jet plane roaring how do i block that out im in terrible state and i was so well makes no sense and perfect ears and hearing i knew of tinnitus but dont know how my ears are amplifying like this 4 noises both ears ther hyperacusis is makimg it too much to live with but thank you for replying im sorry you have it

I'm sorry for your suffering. Although you're in England, Dignitas Switzerland still accepts foreigners if you have enough energy to wait months until they accept your application.

Dignitas wont take me for tinnitus but Pegasos will but im struggling with application form and documents

 

[Chupacabra 44]

It was someone from here in UK sent his scan to Dr Shapiro in New York and he sent back how to do it but the person had Pulsatile Tinnitus and just ned stand in Blood Vessel and the heart beat noise stopped.
I coped at first it was copable but cant live with this its as loud as jet plane roaring how do i block that out im in terrible state and i was so well makes no sense and perfect ears and hearing i knew of tinnitus but dont know how my ears are amplifying like this 4 noises both ears ther hyperacusis is makimg it too much to live with but thank you for replying im sorry you have it

Dignitas wont take me for tinnitus but Pegasos will but im struggling with application form and documents

If you want to apply to Pegasus, are there any resources within the UK to help with your application? No idea how Exit International works, or other similiar groups. Do any of these types of groups have locations near you? Could they help remotely to complete the application?

I've looked into Pegasus for myself, but for many other health conditions. My tinnitus is no where as bad as yours.
Also, have you advised Pegasus that you are having difficulty completing the application? Maybe, if you explained the difficulties to them, they might be able to solve your application issue. Who knows, perhaps Pegasus or Exit knows of a consultant or two, whom you could utilize for assistance.

Fyi, I've been long time lurker; I just joined SS, and I've closely followed your threads closely for a while, in part because I have tinnitus too, but also I can tell how much you are struggling with this.

For me, if you remember the original Star Trek series on TV with William Shattner, my tinnitus sounds like their phasers (their Lazer guns), but maybe just a slightly higher pitch. I went to YouTube a couple of years to search for video with the phasers to see if matches as well as I recall. Didn't see any good videos, just one short video, and I need to search again.

 

[Susan Caswell]

If you want to apply to Pegasus, are there any resources within the UK to help with your application? No idea how Exit International works, or other similiar groups. Do any of these types of groups have locations near you? Could they help remotely to complete the application?

I've looked into Pegasus for myself, but for many other health conditions. My tinnitus is no where as bad as yours.
Also, have you advised Pegasus that you are having difficulty completing the application? Maybe, if you explained the difficulties to them, they might be able to solve your application issue. Who knows, perhaps Pegasus or Exit knows of a consultant or two, whom you could utilize for assistance.

Fyi, I've been long time lurker; I just joined SS, and I've closely followed your threads closely for a while, in part because I have tinnitus too, but also I can tell how much you are struggling with this.

For me, if you remember the original Star Trek series on TV with William Shattner, my tinnitus sounds like their phasers (their Lazer guns), but maybe just a slightly higher pitch. I went to YouTube a couple of years to search for video with the phasers to see if matches as well as I recall. Didn't see any good videos, just one short video, and I need to search again.

Thank you for reaching out to me x

 

[Chupacabra 44]

And, Susan,.didn't you post a while back that there was some issue with your husband surrounding possible euthanasia? I don't think I'm mis-remembering, but forgive me if I am. If he was opposed to it, is he supporting you now?

 

[MariV]

I know probably have to do this myself but can anyone help me i cant stay in this torture deafening roaring hammering tinnitus 3 years its taken my health and now my sanity noise that never stops cant get away from never not hear its horrific and dont even know why came from nowhere i was really well and healthy loved my life had so much wanted to do i know id be ok and get well if just would stop its the most dementing torture cant get over the state im on all i want to do is die be at peace wish someone would help me or order N for me i dont know how to can anyone out their help me or sell me theirs if they dont want it or need it now wish we had assisted suicide in UK we should have the right to choose they wouldnt leave an animal in this much torment i thought id had all my medical quota survived cancer a big back operation breast reduction felt great there wasnt anything i couldnt do life was great i ate well lived well are there any medical people on here when i think just not this id be just living my life normal happy could have taken anything but this day after day never thought id get so ill with it but its way more than i can take or live with and i can stand a lot i have friends with it a partner with it none in this state or as loud as this all cope can stand it ive been suicidal with it from day it started and it was nothing like it is now i should have taken no meds and stayed calm eat well ive lost so much weight hair feel like someone is electrocuting me body jerking with panic and anxiety cant sleep if i dont sleep soon i cant live this way this should be happy carefree time doing normal things all i want is it to stop even then id take some getting well now please please can someone help me this is like being tortured alive

I feel you. Ive suffered tinnitus for many years and its one of the reasons for my ctb. in my case its caused by an aggression i suffered. im so sorry, i hope you find peace

 

[Susan Caswell]

And, Susan,.didn't you post a while back that there was some issue with your husband surrounding possible euthanasia? I don't think I'm mis-remembering, but forgive me if I am. If he was opposed to it, is he supporting you now?

Not for the Euthanasia he thinks i can overcome this and live as i was and well and i cant i cant make him understand how deafening it is and how ill i feel he has tinnitus too and never bothers never hears it really his is like steam hissing i have that also and can stand it block it out but dear God jet plane roaring but its also the amplifying i cant cope with but the anxiety is so bad cant stand myself just wish never come id have been ok normal life happy its beyond cruel x

 

[RC90]

I'm sorry for your suffering. Although you're in England, Dignitas Switzerland still accepts foreigners if you have enough energy to wait months until they accept your application.

They do but the prices, oMG! Very expensive.

 

[Susan Caswell]

They do but the prices, oMG! Very expensive.

I just dont know how else to go but so ill and weak now dont think i could even get there and i had so much living to do just not this i was normal happy soul with a lovely life doing all sorts really well ive spent thousands trying to get t bottom of this get it down could have stood anything at all but this roaring both ears never stops im terrified it makes me insane wish someone knew how to stop it get it down if only the amplifying would stop i just dont get it came on from nowhere went bed perfect no noise nothing hearing perfect woke up roaring never stopped never down but how why up and up dont know how i havent just dropped dead with the anxiety x

 

[RC90]

I just dont know how else to go but so ill and weak now dont think i could even get there and i had so much living to do just not this i was normal happy soul with a lovely life doing all sorts really well ive spent thousands trying to get t bottom of this get it down could have stood anything at all but this roaring both ears never stops im terrified it makes me insane wish someone knew how to stop it get it down if only the amplifying would stop i just dont get it came on from nowhere went bed perfect no noise nothing hearing perfect woke up roaring never stopped never down but how why up and up dont know how i havent just dropped dead with the anxiety x

Oh wow. Can't even imagine what you're feeling like. Wish I had a magic wand and make it disappear.

 

[Susan Caswell]

Oh wow. Can't even imagine what you're feeling like. Wish I had a magic wand and make it disappear.

Oh i do i have kept thinking it will stop go down 3 years of it taken terrible toll i hated noise but this in your own ears so loud my ears vibrate i cant live like this ive tried with everything in me i worked so hard looked after everyone felt great nothing i couldnt do this should be such a happy carefree time of life no worries plenty of time loved my life i dont even know cause i cant find anyone world wide with tinnitus like this all have hissing you can block mask ignore ive had that for years never bothered me but this god i dont think anyone could live with this i wish it on no one but why me now had such gorgeous plans wish someone would help me get N somehow im terrified my only option is jump and dont die that would be my luck crippled and deafening tinnitus every day i can stand it less its ear splitting im skin and bone lost so much weight and muscle but anxiety that bad lost all my hair started to come out soon as this started i was terrified day one it wouldnt stop and somehow knew it wouldnt but i coped a little it wasnt raring hammering and had no amplifying it was like car engine running what id give for that now this cant happen i know theres terrible things in the world but this has to be cruelest you cant stop it cant get away from it now cant eat or sleep i look terrible and feel worse and i had such pride in my appearance was so well groomed i now cant even shower or bath just want to die would love to be messaging its stopped miracle or down amplifying stopped i am in such distress they dont let animals suffer like this

 

[Carilinefrims]

Bless you , I hear you, I suffered major trauma after car accident and am in constant pain too. I applied to dignitas and am waiting to hear , but it takes a long time , I understand. If you can speak to Philip nishtke direct he can help to push things through sometimes .....

 

[Chupacabra 44]

If interested in dietary interentions that might solve some physical/mental health problems, I posted this concept in Off Topic. I've identified and solved so many health problems through drastic dietary means but I can't not figure out cause and effect with diet and tinnitus in my case.

So, if anyone wonders if their diet is causing some/all of their tinnitus, I'm an anecdotal story of one - diet did not have an impact on my tinnitus, in my case. But, we're all different.

 

[whitefeather]

If interested in dietary interentions that might solve some physical/mental health problems, I posted this concept in Off Topic. I've identified and solved so many health problems through drastic dietary means but I can't not figure out cause and effect with diet and tinnitus in my case.

So, if anyone wonders if their diet is causing some/all of their tinnitus, I'm an anecdotal story of one - diet did not have an impact on my tinnitus, in my case. But, we're all different.

Cell Towers / WiFi Routers Etc. cause Tinnitis . International website of MD's, PhD's Research > www.emfscientist.org