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Somegirlinhere

Somegirlinhere

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Jan 24, 2026
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ahh, its as if ill always be a mess, cause i try to organize my identity and emotions into something tangible, and it changes- just like that! Maybe Its normal. I just wish I had a stable mood, I cant be happy over being happy if Im aware of how suicidal I was last week. Im going to hang on, though. Keep fighting, keep fighthing.
 
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glowing.purple.aura

glowing.purple.aura

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Sep 15, 2025
99
No, literally. I can't be happy for more than a couple hours without preparing for something awful to happen. At this point I've completely given up on the idea that things will get better long-term. I might have a good month or two (very rarely), but it's only ever because of external things happening in my life (like when I'm dating someone).
 
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timf

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Mar 26, 2020
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Being happy at all is a victory. Knowing it won't last or that you were unhappy last week should not be allowed to rob you of enjoying the moments in the sun that you do get.
 

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