How are you really doing? Where on the Emmengard Suicide Scale are you?

[Kenny]

Went from a 4 to an 8 in about 5 days.

 

[CrowsFeather]

Last week I definitely was at 8. Some days in I also got a rude migraine and I found an incredibly strange correlation with Sumatriptan and mood boosts. I looked it up and it seems to be a known effect, but no talks about it...
Since then it's like a cork has been unplugged and I have been gradually been getting better. Maybe to a 6-7

This week I'm somewhere between 4-5, after a (good) weird thing happened during meditation. And probably also because I started microdosing again.

 

[ScaredPossum]

I'm feeling a hard 8 right now. I'm so tired.

 

[starsfirstlight]

I've been at a 6/7 recently (sorry). I love this scale and even taught my therapist about it. It doesn't always resonate perfectly but it's still really helpful in gauging where I'm at. I'm not very good at assessing my own emotional state, or expressing it to others, so it's nice to have what's basically a rubric! I didn't realize I'd actually gotten this bad until now, actually, and there have been a few 8 moments lately too now that I think about

 

[blackmoldonwall]

im a 9 right now but i hate making it sound severe

 

[itsgone2]

9. Maybe ten though my attempts are weak

 

[NZkiwi]

10 last night

6 now

(really wanted to say 6/7)

 

[infinitesimal]

6-8 as of late

 

[tipoftheRGB]

5 very recently

 

[juna]

I feel an 8. I think if I continue feeling this way, I might hopefully be dead this year finally. Just too tired now. I felt so good at the beginning of this year, i was like seeing how I am conquering depression and now I am back to suicidal thoughts. How things change!

 

[otomedissection]

Right now I'm at an 8.

 

[ShiroNoKitsune]

@NZkiwi

May I PM you? I've got a few questions.

 

[NZkiwi]

10 monday
7 last night
6 now

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@NZkiwi

May I PM you? I've got a few questions.

Yeah no worries.

I don't mind getting dm's, so feel free

If I can suggest a middle ground, I'm also active on the recovery "group chat" megathread.
Really friendly and kind people, and get a more balanced world view. Kinda meshes togeather
Consider posting here as well if you feel safe

I'm no expert lol still going through it myself

Hope you are okay

Talk soon

"I'd like to feel a bit better/ I'd like to recover" Support Group Megathread

I feel a little weak I didn't use a more lethal method tbh, kinda hate saying it but it's true. :/ I guess on the flip side good thing I didn't have what I need to successfully try kill myself Last attempt was similar, I just wanted to "Feel" something and ended up OD but that was like 7/8...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[SuicIdiot]

I think a 5.5

 

[Dissolving Figment]

9? But it would be a couple weeks out so maybe an 8

 

[mac_se]

6/10. I feel like trash because I'm coming down from a migraine, not looking forward to the future, but I don't particularly want to die at this exact moment.

 

[vibri]

I would also say 5.5

 

[Simplyxoxo1]

Hey I feel like I'm at an 8 or 9 for now

 

[death over slavery]

9/10

This is my first time hearing the Emmengard scale. The more you know

 

[90377lethe]

probably a 7

 

[NZkiwi]

7 when im alone with my thoughts
6 when im busy with my hands/doing something

recovery is hard and painful
ive let my mental health team know im not sure how long i can keep doing this, it really hurts

the suicidal thoughts gives me calm
ive changed my behaviour not to act on them
im still working on myself sigh

 

[monotine]

im at 9. i hate making it sound bad, but sometimes we have to admit that it is that bad. i just don't know when i'll act on it.

 

[NorthernSunset]

6-7, but I don't really fit the scale. I don't do risky or self-harming behavior, and if I want to go, I'll make sure it really works. I have more "analytical ideation", in that I'm not sure my life will be worth it in the long run. So I'm thinking of it almost every day, but as 1+ year into the future.

 

[perishsong]

9ish. I'm rehearsing my last letters right now.

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

everything from 6 to 9, with changes on a daily basis really. mostly 7-8

 

[NZkiwi]

...4 down to a 4 now
got a job offer on friday
it came late
kinda feel embarrased cause i told myself if i didnt' get that job i will kill myself (eventually) :/ havne't told my friends that

hopefully all the paperwork works out
bu then

 

[sobeit0]

8-9. I don't think I can hang on once I have the money to commit. I'm trying to cut off others but it's hard and I'm selfish. Each day is a miserable struggle. I'm sick all the time.

 

[lost&lovesick]

I'm somewhere between a 5 and 6, closer to 6 I'd say. It's not really distracting and mostly only comes out very late at night, but barring basic survival instincts, I don't know if I would choose to move out of the way of an oncoming semi.

 

[MissAbyss]

Right now, I'm hovering somewhere between a 5 and a 6. But honestly, it wouldn't take much bullsh!t to launch me straight back up to a solid 9 or 10. Apparently, my emotional stability comes with a very short fuse.

 

[dollangel]

an 8 about now i think. im planning tentatively